Work Text:
Wish I could say that things have gotten easier, but I stopped expecting that to be the case.
Still... I wonder what you would've done if I asked you what you dreamt about. Laugh in my face, maybe...? I wouldn't put it past you.
I never asked, it's been too long but I'm sure about that. I acted like I didn't give a shit, but the truth is that, at some point, I did care. I wondered about it. And you weren't subtle, you motherfucker. Wanting to know me like the back of your hand. That look in your eyes you rarely gave to people.
The most stupid part inside of me wants that. That annoyance I only get whenever I catch you trying to read me like a book. It's been too long, I guess.
You're no longer on that pillar. I haven't seen you in so long.
You're just not there anymore, for some reason.
Your voice feels like a secret kept to the world but me.
And I know it's best to keep it that way.