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It was after the school day. April had turned in her assignment and was lamenting that she, “So failed it.” He didn’t get what she was on about. He totally crushed it at editing that video for her. She should be thanking him!
He gave her literal grade A material! Eh, whatever. Her problem, not his. He was a little on edge today. His wrestling team had their meeting postponed for next week. As you can imagine, that made him reasonably upset. All he did was yell and kick the nearest trash can. Yet, Nardo told him to chill out.
He was being calm! External events outside his control made him angry. He finally had a place he was encouraged to get his aggression out with human friends, and a little rain was preventing that. “It’s the stupid rain’s fault! If Bad Bernie and Goldfin had just have stayed out of our way!” He snapped.
“Yeah, bro. We were there. I know. You still gave Dad a terrible Batman voice by the way.”
Raph crossed his arms and smirked. “You would be the judge on terrible Batman voices.”
“It’s great and you know it,” yelled a flustered Leo. “Why is everyone bashing on it?”
“Uh, cause it sucks. I totally beat you at that. Wait?! Are you hoping that deep voice gets you April?”
Leo blushed and looked away. “Oh my God, you are!” Raph laughed.
“Ugh, just shut up man!” Yelled Leo.
Donnie and Mikey must have the ability to sense when Leo was getting made fun of, because they appeared out of nowhere to harass their loser loveless brother.
“Are we talking about how Leo has L Rizz?” Asked Donnie. His voice was starting to drop and that made the question hurt Leo more.
“You should come by my improv sessions sometimes, Leo. My friends can really help you fix that terrible Batman voice.”
Leo looked over to see Raph gave him the worst, “I told you so,” look with raised eyebrows. Leo was done with this conversation. “Whatever! Let’s just go home. Let’s hope the nearest manhole is still accessible.” With Leo’s pride thoroughly scourged, they headed home. Whatever. His Batman voice was still cool.
Home was surprisingly crowded when they returned. Why were the Mutanimals here?! The sewers weren’t even all that flooded anymore. The drains were working again. Just go already!
“What’s everyone doing here?” Asked Leo.
“We just wanted to stop by and say, hi!” Waved a smiling Wingnut.
“You did that already with the storm! Do you have to do it again!” Raph yelled.
Wingnut’s wings folded in on herself. She looked smaller. “I’m sorry, I just wanted to see how you guys were doing with the aftermath of that big flood.”
“We’re doing great! You can go now!” Raph pointed towards the door. An object smacked into his face. It was the tv remote. His father was glaring at him. “Raph! That is not how you treat your cousin! She was simply checking up on us! Be grateful! Thank you, Wingnut.” Said Splinter as we gestured towards her.
She uncurled your wings. “Yeah, you’re welcome.”
“No need to cause a fuss there, mate. Just having a stop by on kin.” Said the Australian gator.
Scumbug said something in Vermin and then cozied up to his father. He didn’t hate Scum. He was glad Dad found someone. It was just frustrating seeing her be so PDA on him. Plus, he could barely understand her. Could Donnie come up with a translator already?!
“I have no idea what you’re saying!” Raph shouted.
“Scumbug says she’s happy to see you again. She’s glad it’s not under such dire circumstances as last time.” Translated Splinter.
“Yeah, same.” Said a less aggressive Raph as he averted his gaze from them. It landed on the fridge where Genghis Frog was stealing his after school snack. “Hey, what the heck man! Stop!” Shouted Raph. By the time he got to the fridge, his food was completely devoured.
“Why did you do that?!” He roared.
Genghis looked back at him with listless eyes. “Because I wanted to.” He said in a matter of fact tone.
“But that was mine!”
“Not anymore.” He croaked in Raph’s face. Raph felt his hand clench into a fist. He was about to punch the amphibian before Ray stopped him. “It’s going to be okay, fillet.” He sang.
“Yeah man, your vibes are all over the place.” Said Mondo.
“No it’s not okay! My meeting today was canceled, it’s wet everywhere, my home is still crowded, and now I can’t even eat!” He pointed a finger at Genghis.
“You snooze, you lose.” Croaked the frog. Raph screamed. He couldn’t do this anymore! Everyone was expecting another crash out. He simply grabbed his meditation mat and stormed off to his room.
“No one bother me or I will punch them! I mean it.”
“I’m not scared of him.” Said Genghis. LeatherHead bashed her tail into his head and made him topple over. “How about you have a quick kip, mate? She said rhetorically.
Raph slammed the mat in the middle of the floor and angrily sat down. He crossed his legs and inhaled. He felt his mind grow distant as he calmed down. The events of these past few weeks crawled into the empty void he made for it in his mind.
Bishop. She was certainly no April. She held a grudge against them for something they stopped. She should have seen them as heroes! Not despise them! He remembered how after he fought one of her bots, he washed up.
The Purple Dragons captured him. He remembers a woman named Kitsune. He wished he hadn’t. He was nearly child trafficked and mutilated. His finger twitched and he held it. He heard himself whimper in fear. He stifled it. Whatever, he dealt with it because he was awesome! He hoped that Bishop didn’t come back.
Though, he didn’t mind Mustang Sally and Lee so much anymore. They were cool now. The sea anemones were really stupid and annoying. He hoped they didn’t come back either. He could still feel their tentacles on him. If they weren’t trying to drown him, they would have felt good.
What? What was he talking about?! They were gross. Stop being gross. Bernie and Goldfin. He wanted to punch Bernie again. He was glad Leo let him. And Goldfin?
He was going to kill thousands of people. He betrayed his friends. Was going to make the thin acceptance that mutants had wash away down the drain. He wished Leo had chopped him into sushi. No, better yet! Make him into one of those fish who sing on the wall. It would serve that traitor right! He felt himself grow angrier. He told himself to think of something more appealing.
Lee. She was pretty and despite the fact he had been shocked by her, he wanted her to do it again. More controlled. Shock his penis with her electricity. He snapped out of it. He couldn’t think about her this way. Weren’t they cousins?
In his defense, so were the Mutanimals. Yet, that didn’t stop Dad and Scumbug from sloppy style making out. Raph would call it hypocritical if Dad had a problem with it. If there was one thing Raph could do, it was argue a point. He would win gold at the Olympics if it was a sport. He decided with his infallible logic, to push it further.
Ever since he was reunited with Leo after encountering Bishop, he felt like his dynamic with his brother had changed. He was so scared and concerned when he thought that he was the only one who survived. He was so relieved that his brothers were safe. He found himself looking at Leo more.
He was starting to enjoy his dumb comics. He would sometimes sneak in and read them without Leo noticing. He even found the Batman voice kind of charming. If it didn’t work on April, it would on him. He was enamored by his older brother. More than that. He was in love with him. All of them.
He grew flush and felt something off with his body. He looked down to see that he had dropped. This was embarrassing. He would normally do this in the bathroom or on solo patrols. He was freaked out. Did he do this right now with company just outside? And with family on his mind?
He sighed and closed his eyes tighter. As if that would shield him from what he was about to do. He spat in his hand and palmed his free member. He slowly began to stroke it. He heard himself sigh and moan from pleasure.
He thought about Donnie. The smart aleck. His voice that dropped an octave was stuck in his head. “You have increased blood flow in your penis and it needs to be dealt with. If we don’t, it could cause catastrophic results for you and start hurting.”
He heard himself in his mind ask what he should do about it. He heard Fantasy Donnie say that he should have the doctor take a look at it. “The doctor?” Fantasy Raph asked.
“Yes, the very best. Come in, Doctor Leonardo.” Raph hitched his breathing as a wave of pleasure lurched him forward. In came his older brother with a white medical coat on.
“I see, we have a nasty bad erection here. I think my assistant we’ll take care of you today. They are shadowing me today. I hope you don’t mind.”
In came Mikey, wearing some scrubs. “I promise to be as professional as possible, sir. Now, if you would please, let me take a look at it.” Fantasy Mikey was inspecting him. He worked as Leo jotted down notes in the back.
“We will try hand stimulation first.” Spoke Fantasy Mikey as he began to go over Raph’s shaft. Real Raph went faster and picked up speed. He was matching the tempo that Fantasy Mikey had. He would have him go slow and then fast.
“Hmm. It’s not working. Let’s try something different. Let’s try this.” Mikey opened his mouth and began to fellate Raph. He was moaning. “Don’t forget to use your tongue.” Reminded Dr. Leo.
Mikey started using his tongue more. Real Raph felt his leg kick in ecstasy. He worked faster and faster. God. It felt so good. “Faster!” Commanded Dr. Leo. Mikey would go faster.
He saw Fantasy Mikey go down on him with his braces twinkling like stars. He was seeing stars at this moment too. He liked Leo barking orders at Mikey in the back. For once, he wanted Leo to do it more.
Raph was trying so hard not to moan. He kept going. He was almost there. Right on the precipice. Yes, yes. Just like that. Just like that!
He grabbed his towel. Ready for the explosion. “Hey, Raph!” It was Donnie. Real Donnie. Raph felt himself freeze. “Yeah?” He shouted.
“We’re going to get pizza off of 11th. They’re doing a major discount on all their pizza because of the storm. You want to come?”
He was going to come alright.
“Yeah. Just give me a minute!” Fantasy Leo told Mikey to finish him off. He was nearly there. Raph couldn’t take anymore. He had to do this now!
Raph stroked faster and faster until he came all over his towel. He imagined Mikey’s face in its place. God, it genuinely felt so good. It was gross, but he loved it anyway. He loved them all so much. He admired his handiwork. He must have stared at it longer than expected because he heard Donnie ask for him again.
He tossed the towel in a hidden corner of the room. He gave himself a once over before exiting the room. When he got out, everyone was looking at him. Did he smell?! He shouldn’t have. He checked and everything.
“Raph. I don’t believe it.” Said an astonished Splinter. Raph felt bile rise to his throat. He tried to stay calm. Play dumb. That would work.
“Don’t believe what?”
“Don’t play dumb. You know exactly what I mean.”
Raph opened his mouth to beg for forgiveness. “Dad I-“
“The meditations are working! You look so calm. I told you they weren’t a waste of time.”
Raph was thrown off guard. But only for a moment. He quickly regained control and played along. “Yeah. It’s not so dumb after all, I guess. Thanks.”
Splinter became misty eyed. His baby boy was finally listening to him and maturing. “I knew you would come around eventually. You’ve made me so proud!” Splinter went to hug his son. Raph held his hand out in front of him to block his Dad.
“Don’t ruin the moment, Dad.” He looked over to see Leo texting on his phone. Must have been April. Leo had no one else he was friends with really besides her.
“Was that April you just texted?”
“Yeah, she says she’ll meet us there.”
“Cool, let’s go! I’m ready to eat! Oh, and Genghis. If you eat all the pizza again, I swear I will punt you into the gator’s mouths in the sewers.” Raph glared menacingly at the frog. He didn’t give Raph any lip, so he assumed the frog was willing to behave.
They all got their cheap pizza and ate. Raph could see Dad and Scumbug flirt with one another. She then vomited off to the side before batting her eyes at Splinter. He said something romantic to her in Vermin and she blushed. He honestly shouldn’t have been looking at her when trying to eat.
Donnie and Wingnut were going on about Steins;Gate. He had already watched that one. They actually all started watching it together, but those two dorks began to question if the science in the anime was plausible. Then they spent the next half hour coming up with theories and using complicated nerd jargon. He stopped watching anime with them after that. But he had to admit, hyper focused Donnie was hot.
He noticed Mikey joking with his cousins. It must have been funny because everyone laughed. The way Mikey could improvise and brighten up the room with little effort made his heart swoon. What he wouldn’t do for his younger brother. The very definition of heart stopping.
Then there was the big one. The one that made him feel these things for his brothers to begin with. The one that was smiling and pining for someone else. The one that made his name in a big heart on the sewer walls with her name added to it. The one who gushed whenever she would turn her head away from him.
They were busy talking about their next big report. April touched Leo’s forearm. When she looked away, he had the biggest love struck grin on his face. Desperate, aren’t we? Thought Raph.
He couldn’t fully blame Leo. What he was feeling for April, he was feeling for him. He wished he could tell someone about it. But he knew better. It would be stupid to have his thoughts go beyond more than fantasy.
He was stuck in his thoughts, so he didn’t hear Pigeon Pete call his name. Pete called him again. He was snapped out of his daze. “Yeah, sorry I didn’t hear you, man. What did you say?”
“Oh, terribly sorry, Raph. My apologies. I said, isn’t this so serene? Being in the company of those you cherish most while partaking of a meal together? It’s so nice.” He cooed at he pecked at his sausage.
“Yeah, it’s nice.” Agreed Raph. It really was. He saw how beautiful his brothers looked in the light. They were radiant. Absolutely glowing. He wanted to have them share this love with him.
Raph however, wasn’t stupid. Confessing his crushes would undo the family. His brothers would never hold him in high regard again. They would kick him out the house. Dad would be crushed. The shame might have killed him. He would never see his cousins again.
Everyone in the family had a role to play. Dad was head of the household and guided them when they needed help. Leo was the leader and big brother. Donnie was the smart one. Mikey was the heart of the team. And Raph?
He was the protector. He was the biggest and strongest. Not because he wanted to be, but because he needed to be. He would take the heavy hits, kidnappings, broken bones, and nights staying up because you think you lost your finger, for them.
He would protect them for the very world itself. No matter the cost. He bit into his pizza and looked away. The pepperoni and sausage mix melted in his mouth. He forced himself to look back.
They were happy. Smiling and safe. Raph wouldn’t dare snatch that away from them. Let them have this. Don’t be selfish. Think for once. His role was the protector. That meant saving them from all seen and unseen threats. This one however, hit close to home.
He was the guardian. The tough one. He was the protector. He would protect them until the day he died. He swallowed his pizza and forced his emotions down with them. It hurt. Even if that meant he had to protect them from himself. No matter the cost. Even when he felt his heart breaking. He would love them in secret from afar. He would protect them from him.