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“I would fight you, you know.”
“I know.” Blond man stated. His reticence was often prerry annoying for the leader in front of him.
“I am responsible for you. I won’t let anyone leave as they please.” Leader crossed his arms with a serious expression.
It was almost midnight when his door opened. The visits he had from his blond subordinate weren’t unusual. But after their fight earlier, he felt that this one wasn’t going to be as pleasant as other visits.
“Ivan, don’t make this any harder for me.” Blond called his leader by the usual nickname.
Due to being artificial soldiers of the Simurg company, they didn’t possess any names. The leader’s “name” was E-1, first member of the E-series soldiers. However, his subordinate insisted on using a human name on him. His passion for humanity, just like with everything else he did.
However the blond subordinate himself rejected claiming a human name for himself. E-1 knew the reason of this. He was going to leave, to be a “human”. Then he could claim a name.
“I don’t care how hard it becomes. I won’t let you leave.” The leader stated firmly, again.
“Even if we were to fight…” His subordinate didn’t continue his sentence. The meaning was clear enough, even if they fought it would mean nothing. They both were synthetic, even if they fatally wounded each other they would still regenerate and continue.
“E-2, I don’t care if it goes forever.” Leader he called Ivan was losing his composure gradually.
The blond man’s “name” was E-2. He was the second member of the E series. He was originally designed to be an assistant to the leader, but also a capable fighter.
“Why don’t you come with me?” E-2 asked calmly.
“I won’t leave my team. I don’t need to become a human.”
“That’s not true.”
Ivan was speechless against his answer. Even though it was hard for everyone else to understand his emotions, E-2 still managed to see right through him. He couldn’t come up with an answer.
E-2 continued.
“Every single one of us dreams of humanity. I know, both you and me and everyone else in E series, the dysphoria is unbearable. Bearing the mind of a human in a synthetic body is unbearable.”
Ivan couldn’t answer. He was listening to his subordinate with a pained expression. He cursed in his mind that he couldn’t even cry. They didn’t even have tears.
“I wanted you to come with me. But if that’s not going to happen…” E-2 looked at his leader’s face expectantly. The leader was just too loyal to his creator and his team. E-2 knew he could never leave this place with him.
Even though it hurt him more than anything, his desire to be a human was overpowering.
“I can’t come with you.” Ivan stated painfully but still firm.
“So you have two options then.” E-2 took a step closer.
“What is it?”
“Fighting with me forever or
spending our final night together.”
Ivan didn’t want both. These were truly his only options but he just didn’t want to accept.
It was rough for him too, not being a human. But he did all he can to hide it from his subordinates. He thought that if they see him well, they would gradually accept being synthetical beings.
But it was unbearable for him as much as for everyone else in the team. But Ivan thought he could handle it, at least with his dear assistant by his side, he could be okay somehow.
From this moment on, everything in life would crumble down eventually. No matter what happens.
He could at least still indulge himself in one final night with his lover.