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There's a million reasons why I should give you up (but the heart wants what the heart wants)

Summary:

Dipper, filled with anxiety, prepares to tell Ford and Stan about his deal with Bill Cipher. As the tension builds, Dipper hesitates, dreading their reaction, especially Ford's deep resentment toward Bill. Despite Dipper's nerves, he knew there was no turning back.

OR: Dipper tells his Grunkles about his deal with Bill. Unfortunately for him, it doesn’t go as well as it did with Mabel.

Notes:

title is from the heart wants what it wants by selena gomez

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

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Dipper stood outside the Mystery Shack, the cool evening air brushing against his face as the last sliver of sunlight disappeared beyond the trees. Shadows crept across the dense forest, stretching toward the creaky old building like long fingers. His eyes remained fixed on the worn wooden door, its faded red paint chipped and peeling from years of neglect. The familiar groan of the porch under his weight echoed in the stillness, but it did nothing to ease the tight knot of anxiety twisting in his gut.

He had already told Mabel about Bill. Somehow, she had accepted it better than he'd ever imagined. Her reaction had eased a part of his fear, and for that, he was deeply grateful. But now came the hard part.

Telling Ford and Stan.

The thought sent a fresh wave of dread coursing through him. He shifted uncomfortably, his worn sneakers scraping the wooden floor as he rocked from one foot to the other. His hands, shoved deep into the pockets of his jacket, clenched and unclenched, as if trying to find something to hold onto. Every fiber of his being screamed at him to turn around and put this conversation off, but he knew he couldn’t avoid it any longer.

Behind him, Bill stood with the nonchalance of someone who had no reason to care about the gravity of the situation. Leaning against one of the Shack’s wooden support beams, the demon in his human form was a stark contrast to the growing gloom around them. His golden hair seemed to glow faintly in the dim light, and his single molten-gold eye watched Dipper with a mixture of amusement and curiosity. Arms crossed over his chest, Bill wore his usual smug grin, like he was enjoying a private joke at Dipper’s expense.

Dipper’s lips twitched into a frown, his heart racing. “This is going to be a disaster,” he muttered under his breath, his voice barely audible over the soft rustle of the wind in the trees.

"Oh, you bet," Bill replied, voice bright and unnervingly cheerful, clearly savoring the impending chaos. "Sixer’s gonna blow a fuse. And Fez? Ha, I give him five minutes before he threatens to punch me into oblivion. Again."

A bitter edge crept into Bill’s tone at the mention of Stan’s earlier victory—the time of when he had been obliterated with the memory gun still a sore spot. His eye narrowed and flashed red, just for a split second, before the grin slid back into place like a mask. Dipper felt the sharp sting of Bill’s tone and shot him a glare. "You're not helping."

Bill’s chuckle was low, almost fond, as he pushed himself off the support beam and sauntered up to Dipper’s side. His golden eye glinted in the dimming light, a mischievous spark dancing in its depths. "What do you want me to say, Pine Tree? They hate me. Well, maybe 'hate' is too strong a word for ol' Fez… but Sixer?" He let out a dramatic whistle. "He’s gonna lose it."

Dipper couldn’t argue with that. Bill wasn’t wrong—Ford had every reason to despise him. Their shared history stretched back decades, a twisted tapestry of betrayal, manipulation, and shattered trust. Ford had once considered Bill a friend, even basically worshipped the demon. He had admired Bill’s brilliance, trusted him with his life, with his dreams. And Bill, in true fashion, had twisted that trust, coaxing Ford into building an interdimensional portal that nearly ended up tearing the world apart.

Dipper could still remember the haunted look in Ford’s eyes when he recounted the story, the anger and regret seeping through every word. Ford had never forgiven Bill for the betrayal—and Dipper doubted he ever would.

But Ford and Stan needed to know.

Dipper let out a long, weary sigh, the weight of the moment pressing down on him like a storm cloud about to burst. He stared at the door of the Mystery Shack, knowing that the second he opened it, his world was going to get a whole lot messier. “They’re going to freak out.”

Bill snickered, the sound sharp and full of amusement. "Freak out?" he echoed, his voice a silky purr as he leaned in closer, clearly enjoying Dipper’s anxiety. “Oh, Pine Tree, you’re underselling it." His grin widened, sharp and gleaming in the low light. "I’ve been waiting for this moment since we got hitched. It’s gonna be a disaster, and I for one, can’t wait to watch the show.”

Dipper groaned, the weight of his decision to involve Bill now pressing even heavier on his shoulders. He should have done this alone, or at least, without Bill’s overbearing presence looming beside him. But it was too late for that now—Bill was as much a part of this as he was, and there was no turning back.

As if reading his thoughts, Bill’s arm snaked around Dipper’s waist, pulling him flush against his side in one swift motion. That same damn smug grin tugged at his lips, eyes glinting with barely concealed mischief. He always did this—pushed just a little too far, just enough to rile Dipper up. Dipper’s body went rigid instantly, his muscles tensing as irritation flared up in his chest. For what felt like the thousandth time today, he shot Bill a sharp glare. “Bill. We agreed—no touching like this,” he growled through gritted teeth.

Bill, ever the master of nonchalance, merely raised an eyebrow, completely unbothered. “What? You know you love it,” he teased, his voice low and full of smug confidence. He made no move to release Dipper, instead holding him close as if daring him to protest further.

Dipper, his patience stretched thinner than ever, shoved Bill’s arm off with more exasperation than force. It wasn’t that he hated it, it was more that he hated that he didn’t hate it. Besides, now wasn’t the time for Bill’s antics. “No, I don’t,” Dipper snapped, though his voice lacked conviction. “Just—ugh. Stop it, okay?”

Bill raised his hands in mock surrender, stepping back a single, exaggerated half-inch. “Hey, hey, no need to get all huffy. I’m just trying to lighten the mood, Pine Tree. After all, isn’t this part of the fun? Watching humans get all worked up over their little mortal dramas? It’s what I live for!”

Dipper ignored him, trying to keep his temper in check as he turned his focus back to the task at hand. He had to stay grounded, had to keep control of the situation. This was hard enough without Bill’s constant poking and prodding at his nerves. The old wooden door loomed ahead, an unavoidable barrier between him and the inevitable storm inside.

With a deep breath, he reached for the doorknob, his fingers trembling just slightly. The cold metal felt like ice against his skin, a reminder of how real this was. There was no turning back now, no escaping what was about to happen. Bill was right—Ford and Stan were going to lose it. Ford, especially, was going to freak out.

Bill, standing behind him with that infuriating grin still plastered on his face, hummed softly. “Oh, this is gonna be so good,” he murmured under his breath, eyes gleaming with a mixture of excitement and anticipation.

Dipper, jaw clenched, swallowed hard and turned the knob. "Here goes nothing."

 



Inside, the Shack was exactly as Dipper remembered it—every corner bursting with memories. The clutter of strange artifacts and old knickknacks gave the space a sense of lived-in comfort, a kind of controlled chaos that had always felt oddly like home. The familiar scent of old wood, sawdust, and faint traces of Stan's cologne lingered in the air, grounding Dipper as he stepped through the doorway. The low hum of the lamps cast a soft, amber glow across the room, painting the walls with long, stretching shadows that danced with the flicker of the lights.

The living room itself was a cozy mess. Books were haphazardly stacked on the coffee table, a few half-filled mugs of coffee scattered here and there. In the center of it all was Stan, settled deep into his favorite armchair, the one that groaned loudly whenever anyone dared to sit in it but him. His usual gruff presence was softened by the dim light, his attention lazily focused on the newspaper spread across his lap. The flicker of the television murmured in the background, some old game show playing faintly, though Stan wasn’t paying it much mind.

Nearby, Ford sat at one of the other chairs, hunched over one of his countless journals, his intense focus locked on the notes sprawled across the pages. His glasses perched precariously at the tip of his nose, catching the lamplight, while his brow was furrowed in concentration. Even with the years between them, Ford still exuded that same sharpness—like he was always on the cusp of solving some grand cosmic mystery.

As the door creaked open and Dipper stepped inside, both of them looked up. For a moment, the quiet buzz of the Shack filled the space between them, and their expressions softened at the sight of him.

"Hey, kid!" Stan greeted, his voice warm and gruff as he lowered the paper, folding it neatly on his lap. His grin was wide, stretching into the familiar lines of his face. "What brings you around? You didn’t forget something last time you visited, did you?"

Ford, though more restrained, offered a small smile, his sharp gaze lingering on Dipper a little longer, as if studying him for the answer before he even spoke. “It’s good to see you, Dipper,” Ford said, his voice quieter, but no less sincere. He closed the journal carefully, laying it aside. “You’ve been busy lately.”

There was something comforting in their reactions, a sense of ease that made Dipper’s chest ache with the familiarity of it all. For a brief second, he felt like a kid again—like he could forget about what he was about to say and just enjoy the moment.

But the knot in his stomach tightened, and reality crashed back in. Dipper swallowed hard, his throat suddenly dry. He felt the weight of the moment pressing down on him, the enormity of what he was about to reveal squeezing the air from his lungs. His palms were clammy, and despite the warmth of the room, a cold sweat prickled at the back of his neck. “Yeah, uh, I’ve been... busy,” Dipper managed, his voice tighter than he intended. He shifted his weight from one foot to the other, the words tangling in his mind. “Actually, I came to talk to you both about something important.”

The shift in his tone was immediate. Stan’s grin faltered, his laid-back posture stiffening ever so slightly as he leaned forward, brow furrowing in that subtle way that meant he was listening more closely. The playful glint in his eyes faded, replaced by something more serious—almost protective.

Ford’s response was more visible. He sat up straighter, his expression tightening into concern, eyes sharpening as they flicked between Dipper’s face and his body language. He had always been able to read Dipper well, and the anxiety radiating off of him was clear as day. “What’s going on, Dipper?” Ford asked, his voice calm but lined with tension.

The room felt heavier, like the very air had thickened with anticipation. The once cozy space now felt smaller, the shadows on the walls creeping closer as silence stretched between them. Dipper could feel their eyes on him, waiting for an explanation, and it only made the knot in his stomach twist harder. He knew what was coming, and he braced himself for the storm that was sure to follow.

"Something important, huh?" Stan's voice carried its usual gruff playfulness, though there was a faint edge of caution now. He leaned back in his chair, trying to diffuse the tension with a smirk. "You’re not in trouble or anything, are you? 'Cause if you are, I know a few tricks to throw the cops off your trail." He gave a half-hearted chuckle, but it fell flat, unable to cut through the growing unease in the room.

Dipper shook his head, but the movement was stiff, almost reluctant, as if denying Stan's words was harder than it should have been. His grimace only deepened as he glanced between his two uncles. "No, not trouble… not exactly. But, uh, you guys aren’t going to like it."

Ford’s posture grew tense, his eyes narrowing behind the reflective sheen of his glasses. The lines in his face seemed to deepen, shadowed by the dim light of the room, and his usually composed demeanor cracked at the edges. "What is it, Dipper?" Ford’s voice was quieter now, but the urgency in it was unmistakable, every syllable sharp as a blade. "You can tell us."

Dipper’s stomach twisted painfully. The weight of his confession pressed down harder than it had before, and the room suddenly felt too small, too oppressive. He had rehearsed this moment a hundred times in his head, imagining how he would explain it, how he would justify his actions. But now, standing here, facing the people who mattered most to him, the words lodged in his throat like stones. Every scenario he had imagined felt inadequate compared to harsh reality of the moment.

Taking a deep breath, Dipper forced himself to push past the suffocating pressure. "I..." His voice faltered for a second, and he had to swallow the lump that had formed in his throat. His heart pounded so loudly in his ears that it almost drowned out his next words. "I made a deal with Bill Cipher."

The air in the room shifted instantly, as if a cold wind had swept through and sucked the warmth from the space. Stan’s reaction was immediate. His face went pale, the color draining from his usually ruddy cheeks as his eyes widened in sheer disbelief. For a moment, he was frozen, staring at Dipper as though he hadn’t heard him correctly. "You what?" Stan’s voice cracked, raw with shock, and he gripped the arms of his chair as if bracing for impact.

But Ford’s reaction was far more visceral. The moment the words left Dipper's mouth, Ford shot out of his chair with such force that it nearly toppled over behind him. His fists clenched at his sides, knuckles white, and the fury in his eyes was unmistakable. It was a rare and dangerous look, one Dipper had only seen a handful of times, and each instance had been tied to Bill Cipher. "No!" Ford’s voice thundered through the room, sharp and commanding, a stark contrast to his usual calm. His breathing was harsh, his chest rising and falling with barely contained anger. "No, Dipper, tell me you’re joking. Tell me this is some kind of sick joke!"

The intensity in Ford’s voice sent a shiver down Dipper’s spine. He had known this would be bad, but seeing Ford like this—so utterly enraged and desperate—was worse than he had imagined. Ford wasn’t just angry; he was terrified. The man who had faced down interdimensional threats and unspeakable horrors was now staring at his nephew with a mixture of disbelief and fear, as if Dipper had just signed his own death warrant.

Dipper instinctively took a step back, trying to calm the rising tension in his chest as Ford's fury pressed down on him like a suffocating weight. His uncle’s eyes were wide and frantic, the intensity of his emotions palpable in the space between them. “I’m not joking, Ford,” Dipper said, his voice shaky but firm. “I… I made a deal with him. It’s complicated, but—”

Ford didn’t let him finish. His voice exploded through the room, trembling with a mix of rage and deep-rooted fear. “You don’t know what you’ve done!” he shouted, his fists clenching tightly at his sides, trembling slightly. “Bill Cipher is a manipulative, dangerous entity! He doesn’t make deals unless he’s getting something out of it. What did he promise you, Dipper? What did you give him?”

The room seemed to pulse with Ford’s anger, the usually cluttered and cozy atmosphere of the Shack now feeling too small, too oppressive. The weight of Ford’s accusations hung heavy in the air, each word cutting deeper than the last. Stan, who had been silently absorbing the situation, still pale and visibly shaken, reached out and placed a steadying hand on his brother’s shoulder. “Easy, Ford. Let the kid explain before we start jumping to conclusions.” His voice was softer, but the concern etched in his weathered features was impossible to miss.

But Ford wasn’t ready to be calmed. His chest heaved with emotion, memories of betrayal and devastation flashing behind his eyes. “No, Stanley, you don’t understand!” His voice cracked, an edge of desperation cutting through. “Bill used me. He manipulated me, nearly destroyed everything we know. And now he’s done the same thing to Dipper!” Ford’s words were like daggers, sharp and filled with a pain that had never fully healed. The betrayal he had experienced at Bill’s hands had left scars that would never fade, and now, seeing his nephew entangled with the same demon, it was as if those wounds were being torn open all over again.

“I’m not—" Dipper tried to interject, his voice faltering as the room seemed to close in around him, but Ford wasn’t listening.

“He’s controlling you, Dipper!” Ford’s voice was rising again, his tone frantic, almost pleading. “He’s gotten into your head, twisted your thoughts. That’s what he does! That’s what he always does! You have no idea what he’s capable of!”

The frustration inside Dipper was bubbling to the surface, threatening to spill over. He clenched his fists at his sides, trying to hold onto the thread of calm that was quickly unraveling. “He’s not controlling me,” Dipper said, louder this time, his voice firm despite the storm of emotions swirling inside him. “I made this choice. I’m not some pawn, and this deal with Bill is… different. I knew what I was getting into—he was… surprisingly honest about the whole thing.”

Ford let out a harsh, bitter laugh, disbelief etched deep into his face. The sound was cold, devoid of humor, and it sent a chill down Dipper’s spine. “Honest?” Ford spat, his words laced with incredulity. “Bill Cipher isn’t honest! He’s a demon, Dipper! A trickster! You can’t trust anything he says!”

“I know that!” Dipper snapped, his voice breaking through the tension with a sudden force that surprised even himself. His frustration was no longer bubbling—it was boiling over, spilling out in waves. “I know what Bill is, Ford! I’ve seen firsthand what he’s capable of! But I also know that this is what I have to do.” He locked eyes with Ford, his gaze unwavering despite the storm of emotions crashing around them. “I’ve made my choice, and you have to trust me on this.”

Ford stared at Dipper, his gaze icy and unyielding, as though the very core of his being had been shattered. His expression was one of deep-seated betrayal, the kind that cuts through to the bone. “Trust you?” Ford's voice trembled with an incredulous edge. “Dipper, you’re throwing your life away. I thought you were smarter than this.”

The words struck Dipper with a force that left him momentarily speechless, like a physical blow to the chest. He flinched, the sting of Ford’s disappointment burning across his face. He opened his mouth, but no sound came out. The weight of the accusation was heavier than he had anticipated, the sense of failure cutting deeper with every passing second. Before he could find the right words, it was Stan who intervened.

“All right, enough,” Stan said, his voice quieter but firm, the kind of quiet that carries weight and authority. He looked at Dipper, his rugged face creased with concern and genuine worry. “Let’s all take a step back here.” He turned his gaze between Dipper and Ford, trying to bridge the widening chasm of mistrust and fear. “So, what exactly is this deal? You say you knew what you were getting into, but what does that mean? And what did you get out of it?”

Dipper took a deep breath, feeling the weight of their scrutiny pressing down on him. He struggled to steady himself, to find the right way to articulate the complex and deeply personal nature of the situation. “It’s a binding contract,” he began, his voice steady but low. “Bill and I are bound together. He can’t hurt me, and he can’t break the contract without facing severe consequences. He’s actually been helping me.”

Ford’s eyes narrowed, his skepticism palpable. “Helping you,” he echoed bitterly, the word laced with a deep-seated mistrust. “And what does he get in return, Dipper? Because I guarantee you, he’s not doing this out of the kindness of his heart.”

Dipper hesitated, the urge to protect the full truth from Ford’s fiery anger pulling at him. He knew that revealing the full nature of their contract—that it was through marriage—would only ignite further chaos. Instead, he opted for a more cautious explanation. “He gets to stay in this dimension,” Dipper said finally, the words feeling strangely inadequate as they left his mouth. “That’s it. He doesn’t want control. He doesn’t want to destroy the world. He just wants to stay here.”

Ford’s reaction was immediate, a scoff escaping his lips as he shook his head in disbelief. “You can’t seriously believe that.”

“I do,” Dipper said, his voice firm despite the turbulent emotions roiling within him. He met Ford’s eyes with a steady gaze, trying to convey the depth of his conviction. Sure, he knew Bill likely had hidden motives, but he also understood that the demon’s capacity for malevolence was now curbed by the constraints of their deal. Dipper was wary of Bill’s potential for trickery, but he chose not to voice these concerns, knowing that they would only serve to heighten Ford’s paranoia. “And I’m asking you to trust me. Please.”

The room seemed to hold its breath as a long, tense silence enveloped them. Ford's jaw was clenched so tightly that the muscles in his face twitched involuntarily, his hands trembling ever so slightly as he absorbed the gravity of Dipper's revelation. His eyes were fixed on the floor, deep lines of fear etched into his furrowed brow. The weight of his emotions was palpable, a storm brewing beneath his stern exterior. Stan, meanwhile, shifted his gaze between Dipper and Ford, his face etched with concern and contemplation. The silence was thick, almost tangible, as if the very air was laden with the burden of unspoken fears.

After what felt like an eternity, Stan finally let out a long, weary sigh. The sound was a mix of resignation and fatigue, and it seemed to break the spell of silence that had settled over them. “Look, Dipper,” Stan said, his voice softer now, carrying a tone of reluctant acceptance. “This is... a lot to take in. And I won’t lie, I’m not happy about it. Not at all.” His words were heavy with the weight of disappointment and frustration, but there was a glimmer of understanding beneath the surface. “But if this is something you’ve really thought through, then... I guess me and Ford just need time to come around.” He forced a weak, strained smile, one that barely touched his eyes. “We’ll get there. Eventually.”

Dipper’s heart sank as he heard the strain in Stan’s voice, his chest tightening with a mix of relief and apprehension. The effort Stan was making, despite his visible discomfort, was something Dipper deeply appreciated. “Thanks, Grunkle Stan,” Dipper said, his voice tinged with gratitude and a hint of sadness.

Ford, however, remained silent. His eyes, still cold and distant, betrayed none of the inner turmoil that was clearly raging within him. He turned away from Dipper, the movement abrupt and final. “I need some air,” he muttered, his voice barely above a whisper. The words seemed to hang in the air, a soft echo of his internal struggle as he made his way toward the door. His steps were heavy, each one carrying the weight of his unresolved anger and fear.

Dipper watched Ford leave, the closing of the door behind him sounding like a punctuation mark on the end of a difficult chapter. The weight of his decision settled heavily on Dipper’s shoulders, the enormity of the situation pressing down on him with a crushing force. He understood that Ford might never fully accept what he had done, that the rift between them might never fully heal. But at least Stan was making an effort to understand.

That, for now, would have to be enough. It had to be.

Notes:

dipper didn’t tell them that the way he “bound” himself to bill was through marriage because ford might actually have a heart attack if he dropped that on him lol