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His hands are filled with his blood, as it is also filled with theirs.
He could have saved Kunikida!
He could have saved Junichirou!!
He could have saved Kenji!!!
Yet, he didn’t.
As useless as atsushi nakajima is, he did make something useful. He ran away. Was it an act of cowardice? Of course, but in that poor little boy’s mind it was the only thing he could do.
He didn’t run away from Battle, no, he ran way from the aftermath. He disappeared like bubbles. He was afraid, of himself, of the consequences of his failure, and the way he could only harm the people near him.
He did that at the orphanage, did that with the tanizaki “siblings” when they first meet akutagawa. Did that with Kyouka.
He thought the only way to redeem his sins was to leave those who he loved, before they were hurt by these claws, who are filled with their loved ones blood.
He was a stray now, wandering across the streets of Yokohama endlessly, trying to find a way to stop this tiger, finish this monster.
Except… there weren’t any monsters around anymore. Only himself.
But the tiger wouldn’t let this monster kill itself, it cured and injured the user over and over again. In a cicle of torture, were one was never to leave.
“Thou shall not die”
Doctor Yosano would say.
But the tiger only wants death, and Atsushi was going to give himself if necessary stop this killing machine.
But as necessary as it was. He also missed them
He missed hearing kunikida yell for atsushi to wake up when he fell asleep on his desk during work time.
He missed Junichirou’s late talks, when atsushi was feeling down and the other would silently sit beside him and hear.
He missed Kenji’s pureness and kind actions.
He missed Yosano’s loud laugh whenever the boy complained about the heaviness’s of her bags whenever she made him her own personal human bag
He missed Naomi’s gentleness.
He missed the way Haruno loved that tricolor cat.
He missed Fukuzawa’s responsible behavior, and how he was atsushi model of how a father should be.
He missed every little thing about those people.
But he couldn’t let them be in danger because of him once again.
The night that nakajima atsushi ran away, he made the promise to never come back.