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Angel’s Song
I’d rather be an addict than alone
Rather be out lost than be at home
Rather keep chasing the highs
Than facing my life
Cause when the thrill wears off
I still wanna die
So I pop a pill
Take a shot
And pretend that I’m not
Slowly dying on the inside
So I drown out
My thoughts
Sitting on the bathroom floor
Bloods dripping down the drain
Staring at the ceiling
Ignoring all the pain
The high wore off now
Was it all in vain?
Fingerprints
On my skin
Gotta give up
Know I can’t win
Let my body fall
I give in
Shaking again
It’s three am
I need to sleep
But they’re in my head
Taunting, hating, hurting me
Mind is weighed down, just let me be!
Stand and leave
Walk down the hall
Brace myself
Against the wall
Pull out my phone
And make a call
Leave the house
Meet in the alley
Down the street and
To the valley
Add tonight
To the tally
So I pop a pill
Take a shot
And pretend that I’m not
Slowly dying on the inside
So I drown out
My thoughts
Watch them slip something in my drink
Take a sip
Watch them laugh
As I slip
This will be be
One hell of a trip
Wake up in a basement
They’re standing there
Laugh a bit
I’m tied to a chair
They say, ‘I’m gonna rape you’
Like I would care
They grab me
Hold me
Push me
Pull me
I’m resigned to my fate
I start to dissociate
It’s over now
I stumble out
Walk to my house
Flop on the couch
Flick on the TV
Turn it up real loud
Reality hits me
I start to break
I let it happen again
This was a mistake
It was my fault
I start to quake
So I pop a pill
Take a shot
And pretend that I’m not
Slowly dying on the inside
So I drown out
My thoughts
Lucifer’s Song
Gotta keep up the facade
Tell them that nothing’s wrong
Got nowhere else to go
So I’m writing this song
Make another duck
Try to block out the noise
Of my minds
Own annoying voice
Wake up
It's another day
Depression meds
More of the same
Walk around
It’s just sad
Look at photos
Of memories past
Used to rule the world
Now I can’t control my own mind
Gotta look strong
So I say that I’m fine
Daughter’s gone
Doing something important
I wish I could help her
So I would be worth it
But she’s got a new dad
One whos more confident
Who can support her better
Fulfill her every wish
I want to be happy
That she’s found her place
But I can’t help but be jealous
Of his smiling face
I feel alone
In bed at night
It feels so cold
Without my wife
She found her place
She’s happy there
With sea breeze
Blowing through her hair
Used to rule the world
Now I can’t control my own mind
Gotta look strong
So I say that I’m fine
I could level this place
At the drop of a hat
But nobody here
Seems to respect that
They all like to laugh
When my horns grow
They seem to think
It’s all just for show
I could show off my power
Whip them into line
Teach them the king of Hell
Doesn’t need to be kind
But it would hurt her
If I hurt anyone
She’d think that I thought
Her dream would never be done
Used to rule the world
Now I can’t control my own mind
Gotta look strong
So I say that I’m fine