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1. In those eyes (I see lifetimes I've had with you) by Spinningoutwaiting

   Fandoms: The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp, The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983)  

   • Not Rated
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   25 Oct 2024

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   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr./Paul Holden
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Ponyboy Curtis & Sodapop Curtis
   • Ponyboy Curtis & Paul Holden
   • Sodapop Curtis & Paul Holden
   • Paul Holden & Tim Shepard
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Paul Holden
   • Paul Holden
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
   • Sodapop Curtis
   • Ponyboy Curtis
   • Mrs. Curtis (The Outsiders)
   • Depression
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Drinking
   • Smoking
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Mental Breakdown
   • Men Crying
   • Canon-Typical Violence
   • Title from a Conan Gray Song
   • Based on a Noah Kahan Song
   • Song: Halloween (Noah Kahan)
   • Bad Parenting
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. Needs a Hug
   • The Catcher in the Rye References

   Summary

   Paul Holden hasn't been doing well since he broke up with his secret boyfriend and best friend, Darry Curtis. It's Thanksgiving break of his sophomore year, and Paul is headed back to Tulsa for the week. He hasn't seen Darry for a year and a half, and he doesn't know if he could handle seeing him now.

   Paul is alone. He's been alone for a while now, so what happens when he finds out people still care?

   Or

   Paul Holden isn't doing well.

   TW: brief thoughts of suicide

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   English

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