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1. this is me trying by bellewritesalot

   Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV)  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   06 Jan 2025

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Nicholas "Nick" Nelson/Charles "Charlie" Spring
   • Nicholas "Nick" Nelson
   • Charles "Charlie" Spring (Heartstopper)
   • Elle Argent
   • Tao Xu
   • Darcy Olsson
   • Tara Jones
   • Imogen Heaney
   • Isaac Henderson (Heartstopper)
   • Sahar Zahid
   • Established Nicholas "Nick" Nelson/Charles "Charlie" Spring
   • Bisexual Nicholas "Nick" Nelson
   • Angst
   • Underage Drinking
   • Underage Smoking
   • References to Depression
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Nicholas "Nick" Nelson Needs a Hug
   • Supportive Charles "Charlie" Spring (Heartstopper)
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Title from a Taylor Swift Song
   • Song: this is me trying (Taylor Swift)
   • Anxiety
   • Panic Attacks

   Summary

   A happy Nick, a normal Nick. That’s what they saw. But inside, he felt himself be hollowed out by the thoughts that infiltrated his mind.
   Nick was struggling, but he vowed no one would find out.

   Or Nick's mental health is declining when he realizes he doesn't know who he is without Charlie.
   Set after Volume 5 of Heartstopper.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   9,136

   Chapters:

   6/?

   Comments:

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