Chapter Text
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e1XpwkHOrzI
The first time you told me you loved me was long long before the day you actually told me you loved me.
it was easy.
such a easy message, and so so us, you just texted 'i love you btw goodnight' and my heart thumped. and i didnt...i lived in denial because i didn't love you that way and i knew long before you thought i didnt know that you loved me. i just denied it i denied it because i didn't want to ruin what we had.
but i texted you back, knowing your heart was beating i said 'i love you too' and we kept it platonic. and i was terrified all the way because i refused to break your heart no matter what happened.
so whenever, we were so close to being on edge, i took a step back. until, you backed me up and i could no longer take a step back
you said
'we both know the thing we have is so strong, we both know that we are way beyond friendship at this point'
and it was so us because we both knew this, and we don't acknowledge it. we both ignore it. we both drop hints, we both say stuff and know stuff that friends shouldn't know.
but i was terrified that day of losing you
so i didn't say it back that time.