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Today is Friday, October fourth. Nobody knows this, but today is also my birthday. I am sixteen years old now. I have never told anyone my birthday, I don’t know why, I’ve just never felt the need to let anyone know. I’ve never caught anyone’s eye enough for them to ever ask me. That isn’t something that bothers me though, I have never believed - to put it frankly - that love is something that lasts forever. So I’ve never really put any effort into making long lasting relationships with people; I already know that it won’t last. Even if I did care to tell people about me, they would not remember October fourth as my birthday. Today, one of my classmates died in a car crash.
I never spoke to her, but her death affected me a lot more than I thought it would. I always saw her around, and I thought about her a lot. She was quiet, but so friendly and made friends everywhere she went. She seemed like the kind of person that I would talk to. I knew I never could though. She was around people all the time, she had so many friends. I wouldn’t be able to deal with that. I often thought about what my life would be like if I had decided to talk to her, to get to know her. To let her get to know me. I only really knew one thing about her: that her name was Christine.
Now that I think about it, I could have fallen in love with her. Christine was the kind of person that could learn everything about you just by sitting in silence together. I would have sat in silence with her for eternity if I had gotten the chance. Christine was the kind of person that could teach you to love everything that you hated about yourself. If I had gotten the chance, I would have told her everything that I hated about myself, in hopes that she could teach me to love them. I have never believed that love is something that lasts forever, but I could have loved Christine for a lifetime.