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1. If I die before I wake I pray the lord my soul to take. by Sharmansbabe

   Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Underage Sex
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   05 Oct 2020

   Tags

   • Underage Sex
   • Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski
   • Scott McCall & Stiles Stilinski
   • Stiles Stilinski & Jackson Whittemore
   • Danny Māhealani/Stiles Stilinski
   • Stiles Stilinski
   • Derek Hale
   • Scott McCall
   • Jackson Whittemore
   • Lydia Martin
   • Allison Argent
   • Danny Māhealani
   • Angst
   • Heavy Angst
   • Heavy Drinking
   • Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Recreational Drug Use
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Self-Harm
   • Self Confidence Issues
   • Stiles-centric
   • it is a very dark fic
   • prepare for the feels
   • Scott is a Bad Friend
   • Scott McCall & Stiles Stilinski Friendship
   • Nice Jackson
   • Not Canon Compliant
   • Danny has a little crush
   • casual homophobic slangs
   • not homophobic but there are a lot of "dude that is gay" being said casually by a bi dude

   Summary

   Everything in Stiles world starts to fall apart a few weeks after Scott gets bitten. Scott leaves Stiles mostly by himself and can ignore him for days. Stiles seeks comfort in a stupid little prayer, his bottles and his pills. He never thought the ones who cared the most about him were the ones he was the most afraid of not even a year ago.

    

   This is a mostly Stiles-centric fic and it's very dark. It touches hard subjects and it follows the downfall of Stiles life and how he got himself back together.
   (I put it online a week ago but wasn't satisfied with it so I made a lot of edits and reposting it.)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   19,631

   Chapters:

   5/?

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