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The manor felt colder now.
It wasn’t just the winter settling in. It was something heavier—something that pressed into the walls and seeped into the cracks. The kind of cold that no fire could chase out.
Tim had been gone for three months.
Bruce didn’t talk about it. Not directly. His grief existed in the things he didn’t say, the rituals he never acknowledged. The second coffee mug set out on the kitchen counter every morning—black, no sugar. The way he stood outside Tim’s room when he thought no one was looking, staring at the closed door but never touching the handle. The faint sound of footsteps in the hall at three in the morning, pacing until dawn.
He patrolled longer now. Left the cave at sundown and didn’t come back until the sun threatened to rise. He chased down every lead—every whisper of crime, no matter how small. He came back bruised more often than not, the cuts on his knuckles barely scabbed over before he split them open again.
Dick knew exactly what he was doing.
He’d seen it before—after Jason, after his parents—but this was different. This was quieter. Meaner.
Bruce was trying to punish himself.
And Dick—God help him—was doing the same.
He stayed in Gotham longer than he meant to. Told himself it was temporary at first—just a week, just until Bruce got back on his feet. Then a week turned into a month, and a month turned into… well. He stopped counting.
He couldn’t leave. Not when Bruce was like this. Not when he caught his father staring at the empty chair in the cave like Tim might come back if he just waited long enough.
Dick kept up the act, cracking jokes to fill the silence, pretending everything was fine. But the longer he stayed, the harder it got. His old bedroom suffocated him. He started sleeping on the couch in the den, pretending it was more comfortable. The mattress in his room still smelled faintly like Tim’s shampoo, like all the nights his little brother had crashed there after a long patrol.
When the memories got too loud, he suited up. He went out alone, taking the worst parts of Gotham—the kind of cases that left bruises deep in the bone. He picked fights he didn’t need to, swung harder than he had to. Came home bloody more often than not.
Bruce never said anything about the injuries.
Dick never asked about the new cracks in Bruce’s armor.
They were caught in a rhythm now—a silent agreement neither of them had spoken aloud. The only thing they could give each other was distance. They kept to separate corners of the cave, barely exchanging more than a handful of words. When they patrolled together, it was all business.
It was easier that way.
Talking meant acknowledging the empty space between them. It meant saying his name.
Tim.
Dick still dreamed about him. Vivid, cruel dreams where Tim was alive and laughing, where he got to hug him one last time. Dreams where he could warn him, could stop him—only to wake up with his heart pounding and his throat tight, the weight of failure crushing him all over again.
Bruce was haunted too—Dick could see it in the way he flinched at the sound of Tim’s name on police scanners, the way he scoured every autopsy report for some answer that didn’t exist. Like if he just looked hard enough, he’d find the piece he missed. The thing that could have saved him.
But there was nothing.
Tim had slipped through their fingers, and they hadn’t even noticed until it was too late.
Some nights, Dick thought about breaking the silence. About forcing Bruce to talk—about Tim, about the grief that was eating both of them alive. But then he’d see the deep lines carved into his father’s face, the exhaustion weighing down his shoulders, and the words would die in his throat.
Bruce had already lost two sons.
Dick couldn’t make him watch another one fall apart.
So they kept going. Kept breaking themselves against the same walls, night after night.
Neither of them could bear to stop long enough to feel it.
Neither of them could bear to say goodbye.