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Zagreus awoke with a grape in his mouth and an unfamiliar linen pillowcase beneath his cheek.
He blinked once, spat the grape core into his hand, and sat up slowly, surrounded by blazing colour. His once gloomy chamber — his comfortable, blood-slicked sanctuary of battle-worn armour stands and shadows — now looked like how his mother's room had looked on the surface, full of wheat and grains, climbers running down the wall.
Zagreus was too in shock to comprehend the fact that his mother had grown trees in his room when all that existed in the underworld was death. Point in focus, when just across his room lay the river Styx, he being one of its most frequent visitors, just not in a good way.
The walls were strewn with ivy and pomegranate garlands. There was a bowl of fresh fruit on the bedside table, along with a folded note bearing the elegant, looping script of one woman in the Underworld who had ever written him physical letters.
My dearest son,
You really must eat something that isn’t ambrosia or raw anxiety.
Love, Mother.
He groaned.
“Poetic,” came Megaera’s voice from the armchair in the corner, where she was polishing one of her whips with studious boredom. “Did she alphabetise your tunics too?”
“I haven’t checked,” Zagreus muttered, standing and tugging on a fresh tunic — one that, he noted with horror, had buttons shaped like tiny laurel leaves. Zagreus had zero idea when his mother had the time to alter his room, along with his clothes.
Persephone was truly a force of nature that shouldn't be reckoned with. Zagreus understood why his mother had tamed his father now.
She snorted. “You look like a choirboy.”
He glanced toward her, and for a moment, the soft frustration broke into a grin. “Well then. Care to give this choirboy something to confess?”
Megaera tilted her head just enough to let the threat shine in her smile. “Later. If you survive the next fifteen minutes.”
“Fifteen—?”
There was a knock, and the curtains lifted before he could ask them to come in. Contrary to popular belief, that was just a formality. Zagreus just didn't need to be too shocked when someone entered.
Well, now was a good time to talk with the contractors about installing a door. He was sure he had some gems left over from his previous runs.
Thanatos entered like a dagger thrown by a god who didn’t know how to knock and wait for permission.
His arms were crossed, cloak immaculate, deathly aura trailing faint mist. He surveyed the room, then Zagreus, then the fruit bowl.
“Oh no,” Thanatos said. “She got in here, too.”
“Than,” Zagreus said, “I live here.”
“I meant Persephone,” he replied, already halfway across the room. He picked up a grape, studied it like it might try to trick him, then dropped it back. “This is worse than when she reorganised Cerberus’s chew bones by emotional significance.”
“She said he needed closure,” Megaera added dryly.
"For what?" Thanatos asked, and an almost maniacal look came over his face momentarily.
“She said I needed fibre,” Zagreus said.
He was trying to laugh, to keep it light, but the feeling was already crawling in — that sense of being ... curated. As if every thread, fruit, and pillow fluff was part of some invisible museum exhibit titled “Zagreus: Restored, Controlled, Displayed.”
Megaera stood. “We could hide in my chambers.”
Thanatos raised an eyebrow. “You mean the soundproofed ones, guarded by an enchantment that sets fire to intruders?”
“I do,” she replied, already opening the door.
They didn’t make it.
Standing in the hall was Persephone, holding a scroll. And next to her, impossibly, was Nyx — arms folded, eyes unreadable, shadows coiled tight around her shoulders.
“Oh good,” Persephone beamed. “Everyone’s already here. Zagreus, sweetling, I brought you the new sleep schedule chart!”
“I’m not a satyr pup,” he whispered.
Persephone continued, “I’ve divided it into three parts: physical rest, mental rest, and what I like to call ‘reflective stillness.’ I learned it from a dryad wellness instructor. Isn’t that fun?”
Nyx did not speak. She merely looked at Zagreus, then past him, to the ivy-covered walls. Her silence spoke volumes.
Zagreus swallowed hard. Behind him, he heard Megaera whisper, “Told you. Fifteen minutes.”
Thanatos simply said, “I want to be dead again.”
"Than," Zagreus slowly started, "You reap the souls of the dead, not die."
He stood there, caught between his literal and metaphorical mothers, his partners radiating awkwardness behind him, and did the only thing he could think of that wouldn’t end with someone’s feelings in pieces.
He said, “Nyx. May I walk with you?”
The shadows that curled around her flickered, briefly uncertain.
Then she inclined her head. “If you wish.”
She turned, gliding silently down the hall toward her sanctum. Zagreus followed, grateful for the way the House of Hades never quite let silence settle. The air murmured with whispers from unseen shades. The torches crackled. A distant hammer struck in the training grounds.
Only Nyx made no sound at all. Her feet left no trace. Her movement was absent of given form.
They reached the tall obsidian arch that framed her chambers. She didn’t look back as she entered. Zagreus did.
Then he stepped inside.
The room was colder than he remembered. The long, high space flickered with indigo light from hundreds of suspended stars — a slow, celestial drift that usually soothed him. But now the constellations pulsed too fast. The shadows hung closer.
Nyx stood with her back to him. Her cloak pooled at her feet like spilt ink.
“I’m not here to defend anyone,” Zagreus said, gently. “Or explain anything. I just... I saw your face earlier.”
Her head tilted slightly. “Did you?”
“I know you, Nyx. I know when something’s eating at you.”
“Do you?” Her voice was still soft, but something about it dropped in temperature. “You’ve been rather... occupied, Zagreus.”
That one landed like a punch, not from the words, but the way they passed over her shoulder like an afterthought.
“I—” He took a slow breath. “If this is about Mother—”
“It is not about her,” Nyx said, spinning sharply, and Zagreus knew that he had made a grave mistake. Her eyes flashed with starlight. “She is your mother. You have every right to welcome her return.”
“But?”
“But,” she said, more measured now, “I was content to remain in her shadow. I never needed to be your mother, Zagreus. But I became it. When she left, I bore that weight gladly. And now that she has returned...”
The room darkened. Even the stars pulled inward, like a breath being held.
“You wonder if I ever belonged here at all, as a parent. It wasn't long before that I thought of you as my mother. You always looked after me like I was your own.”
Nyx’s expression didn’t change, but she said nothing, which, for her, was answer enough.
Zagreus stepped closer. “You’re part of me. You always will be.”
“And yet,” she said, her voice softer now, almost kind, “you no longer come to me for your dreams. You no longer seek the quiet. You share your heart with your lovers, your laughter with your mentor, your troubles with... your mother.”
The pause was deliberate.
Zagreus felt his spine straighten.
“That’s not fair.”
“No,” Nyx agreed, stepping back. “It is not. But feelings rarely are.”
The shadows thickened behind her. Her form blurred at the edges.
“Zagreus. You are deeply loved. And I will not be the one to unravel that simply to soothe my pride.”
“You’re not just—gods, Nyx, this isn’t about replacing anyone.”
She smiled faintly, but there was no warmth in it. “Then forgive me. I must simply learn how not to feel replaced.”
The dark closed like curtains. She vanished before he could say another word.
He stood alone in the sanctum, lightless now. The stars had hidden themselves. The shadows pulsed faintly, like the memory of a heartbeat.
Zagreus didn’t go back to his room. He didn’t go to the garden, or the kitchen, or the Library, where Dusa might nervously try to distract him with restorative tea and panic-polished floors.
He went to the sparring grounds.
The scent of dust and crushed pomegranate seeds greeted him like an old ache. Stone columns ringed the training space, weapons neatly stacked along the racks. The floor was pitted from centuries of collisions. Chalk lines marked zones — the same lines he'd redrawn a hundred times after Thanatos had carved through them with a swing too precise to be called careless.
Megaera was already there, stretching her arms behind her back, whip coiled at her hip.
“You look like you slept in a fruit basket,” she said, not unkindly.
He didn’t take the bait. “You’re early.”
She raised an eyebrow. “You’re late.”
Thanatos arrived then, stepping through the arch with his usual quiet elegance. No cloak this time — just black linen, sleeveless, as if he'd anticipated blood. His scythe materialised in a flicker of violet flame.
“I brought the death,” he said flatly. “Did you bring the drama?”
“Please,” Zagreus said, summoning Vartha into his hand. “I never leave home without it.”
They took their places in the ring, weapons humming with anticipation.
The first few minutes passed in wordless exchange — parries, glancing blows, strategic footwork. It was familiar. It was safe.
Until Thanatos broke formation.
He spun away from a feint and, instead of pressing the attack, let his scythe drag low in the dirt. “You haven’t said anything about Nyx.”
Zagreus’s blade hesitated — just enough for Megaera to snap her whip and graze his shoulder. He winced.
Mega stepped in then, brushing her hair back. “You’re off. Your form is sloppy. You keep looking over your shoulder. You’re barely talking to us.”
“I am talking right now,” Zagreus said.
“That’s not the same,” Thanatos said. “You haven’t been here for days.”
“I’ve lived here,” Zagreus snapped, harsher than he meant. The echo bounced off the training stones.
They stood there, frozen in a triangle of tension. Megaera crossed her arms, face unreadable. Thanatos narrowed his eyes.
“I get it,” Zagreus said, pacing now. “I do. You’re worried. Everyone’s worried. You, Persephone, Nyx, Hypnos, of all people, even my father. I can’t sneeze without someone offering a handkerchief and a twelve-part lecture about my soul.”
“We’re not your parents,” Megaera said, voice low. “We’re your lovers.”
“I know that.”
“Do you?” Thanatos’s tone sharpened. “Because right now, you’re treating us like nurses with better cheekbones.”
Zagreus looked at him — looked — and saw what he’d missed.
They weren’t angry. Not really. They were scared.
Thanatos, for all his aloofness, had drawn his scythe again. Defensive posture. Megaera’s hand was resting on her hip, but not on the whip — on the small ring of woven silver and obsidian he’d given her months ago.
“I’m not trying to disappear,” Zagreus said, quieter now. “I just... I can’t breathe.”
Megaera’s gaze softened. “Then say that. To us.”
Thanatos exhaled slowly, lowering the weapon. “You’re not an island, Zag. You're... you’re a peninsula at best.”
Zagreus blinked. “That was almost poetic.”
“I’m trying.”
He sheathed his blade.
“Let’s go again,” he said. “No interruptions.”
Megaera grinned. “Gods help you.”
Thanatos smiled faintly. “They won’t. Not here at least. Not while we still are here.”
The long dining hall in the House of Hades had only been used once before for a formal meal, and it had ended in fire, a duel, and a spilt jug of Ambrosia that still stained the ceiling.
Tonight, Persephone had tried again.
She had arranged the entire thing herself — floral garlands (all non-poisonous, allegedly), roasted root vegetables, three kinds of wine (all diluted “for clarity of mind”), and name cards written in what looked suspiciously like calligraphy from an Olympus etiquette scroll.
Zagreus stared at his card, which read in curly gold ink:
Zagreus — Our Favorite Son (But Still Mortal, Please Eat)
“I don’t think the parentheses were necessary,” he muttered.
Thanatos, seated beside him, glanced at his card:
Thanatos — A Tall Drink of Water (Literally Please Hydrate)
Megaera snorted into her goblet. Her card had been forcibly re-labelled with a second card placed over the original. The old one, half-visible beneath, clearly said:
Megaera — The Moody One
The new card read:
Megaera — Strong and Independent (And Beautiful!)
(This edit was made by Persephone, not Hypnos. Stop asking.)
Hypnos, across the table, was already snoring into a bowl of wine-soaked fruit.
Across from Zagreus sat his father, upright, scowling, forking roasted onions into Cerberus’s dish on the floor. He had not spoken yet, save to mutter “these chairs weren’t built for dignity” and “someone tell the wine it is not wine.”
At least now Zagreus understand the appeal of onions. They tasted far too bleak, and Achilles had contested. Though his reaction was severely unexpected when he had said that the Greatest of Greeks did not cry for a vegetable.
Nyx sat next to him. Her posture was impeccable, her expression unreadable. She had not touched the food.
Persephone, radiant and endlessly chipper, was pouring wine like it was a religious rite.
“Everyone, try the turnip-stuffed laurel leaves!” she sang out. “They’re gut-restorative!”
Zagreus took one bite. It tasted as if a tree had decided to vomit on itself and then decided to give whatever was created in the concoction.
Achilles leaned across Patroclus to say, “It’s not bad. You just have to... taste with your soul.”
Patroclus muttered, “I’m tasting regret.”
“Now now,” Persephone beamed. “We’re all family here. Isn’t this lovely?”
Zagreus tried to respond, but Hypnos beat him to it by sitting bolt upright and declaring:
“I had a dream that Zagreus died of olives! And due to affection! Maybe the next time I see him rise from the Styx, that would be written on my list.”
A long pause.
Thanatos said, “He’s not entirely wrong.”
Nyx finally spoke: “Perhaps he ought to be allowed to breathe between olive-smotherings.”
Persephone’s eyes twitched. “Of course! He can breathe any time he likes. I’m not preventing breathing. I encourage breathing.”
“Do you?” Nyx replied, ever serene. “Or do you prescribe it?”
“I only wish to nurture.”
“As do I.”
“And I never said you didn’t.”
Zagreus watched them both, slowly chewing a turnip leaf like it might become less bitter if he stared hard enough.
Megaera leaned toward him and whispered, “I will set the table on fire if you nod.”
He nodded.
She reached for a candle.
Thanatos calmly placed a hand over hers.
“I’m going to make a toast,” Achilles said suddenly, standing with his goblet raised. “To Zagreus. Who has endured gods, furies, flame, shadow, and bureaucracy — and still has the nerve to be difficult when we all love him.”
“Here, here,” said Patroclus, raising his glass.
Persephone sniffled. “I’m so proud.”
Hades coughed once. “He’s not bad, once you look past all the stubbornness.”
Nyx didn’t move.
Zagreus tried to smile. Everyone raised their glasses. Hypnos fell back asleep into his.
The wine tasted like pomegranate and panic.
Zagreus didn’t wait for dessert.
He slipped out of the dining hall through one of the side corridors — the ones no one used anymore, all old blood and cobweb-silence — and kept walking until the air felt less like syrup and more like sky from above. Perhaps his father had made it so that when he missed his family, he could come here, but nowadays, he seemed not to move from the too big of a throne placed in the middle of the House.
The courtyard was dim, but open. No torches. Just the faint phosphorescence of the Underworld’s strange stars above, flickering like bruised lanterns across black velvet.
He sat on the cool stone bench near the edge of the fountain. The water murmured, oblivious.
He exhaled — not dramatically, not with flair. Just enough to prove he still could.
A few minutes passed. Then footsteps — quiet ones. Familiar.
Thanatos arrived first. He didn’t sit. He stood behind the bench, hands behind his back, as if guarding the quiet.
Then Megaera. She didn’t ask for permission. She sat beside Zagreus and leaned forward, resting her forearms on her knees.
None of them spoke right away.
Eventually, Zagreus said, “Do you ever feel like they’re trying to write a eulogy while you’re still alive?”
Megaera tilted her head. “Define ‘they.’”
“All of them. My mother. My... other mother. My father. Achilles. Patroclus. Gods above, even Hypnos thinks I’m some kind of precious gemstone someone’s going to misplace.”
Thanatos shifted slightly, his silhouette cut out against the garden’s dim glow. “You are precious. That’s sort of the issue.”
Zagreus didn’t smile. “They all want me to be at peace. But none of them ever ask what that means.”
“And?” Megaera prompted.
Zagreus stared into the fountain. “I don’t know what it means. Not really. But it’s not sleeping ten hours a night and eating honeyed figs and journaling about my growth.”
“You journal?” Thanatos asked, and at the same time Meg asked, "Can I read your little embarrassing stories?"
“No to both questions.”
Megaera huffed softly.
“I know they mean well,” Zagreus said. “I love them. All of them. But lately it feels like every time I breathe, it’s choreographed. Every time I speak, someone’s rewriting my line.”
“You feel watched,” Thanatos said.
“I feel... curated,” Zagreus said, echoing his earlier thought. “Like a museum exhibit. Prince of the Underworld, Restored and Properly Nourished.”
Megaera leaned back, staring up at the dull glow of the sky.
“Love’s a strange beast,” she said. “Most think it’s supposed to heal you. But sometimes it just hems you in. Puts you in a frame and calls it safety.”
Thanatos finally stepped forward, sitting beside Zagreus on the other side.
“We can’t make them stop,” he said, quiet now. “But we can give you space. Real space. You just have to say the word.”
Zagreus turned to them, two of the only souls he trusted to see all of him. Not just the parts that fought, or flirted, or smiled.
Just him. Tired. Loved. Suffocating.
“I feel like I died again,” he said, voice soft, “but this time they all noticed and cared.”
Megaera reached for his hand. Took it. No words.
Thanatos placed a hand on his shoulder. Not firm. Not possessive. Just there.
They stayed like that, three figures in a world made of shadow and echo, breathing in sync with the water’s hush.
The stars did not blink. The House did not call. The silence held.
For now.