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She’s been standing there so long the air’s gone still around her. Bare skin pressed to the tile floor. The toothbrush slipped sideways on the sink, toothpaste drying in a pale smear. The faucet hums quietly. Not loud. Not urgent. Just sound that forgot to stop.
Lucy finally lifts her eyes.
The mirror takes a second too long. Like it’s not sure what to reflect back. Her reflection lags — like it can’t quite keep up with her. Not a stranger. But not quite her, either.
She looks heavier in places she didn’t expect. Softer in ways that feel foreign. Her breasts feel too full. Her hips don’t sit the way they used to. The skin on her stomach pulled tight — over a life that isn’t here yet. Faint marks lace across her belly, like whispers she didn’t ask for.
Her body remembers something before her mind catches up.
And sleep doesn’t come anymore. It floats past her, unreachable.
She runs a hand through her hair, fingers catching in the strands. Pushes them back. Leans closer. Looks — or tries to. Her gaze slips over herself. And when it lands, it lands hard.
Not because she’s angry. Because she’s tired. Deep-tired.
The kind that makes your ribs feel too tight. Like your breath’s not yours anymore.
She exhales, low, barely audible.
“This is supposed to be beautiful, right? Making life. Becoming something.”
But she doesn’t feel beautiful.
She feels undone .
Like gravity forgot her.
Like the outline of her leaked out somewhere and never came back.
And then—Tim. His hands. The way he used to look at her — fresh out of the shower, water still clinging to her skin. Wearing his shirt, nothing underneath. When he’d back her up against the wall with nothing but breath and a smile, and kiss her like she was the last real thing in the world.
She wonders — does he still look at her like that? Like she’s still made of something worth touching. Or is it just her stomach now. The slower way she moves. The way she disappears into herself, a little more each day. The swelling. The weight. The quiet.
The door creaks.
She didn’t hear his footsteps.
He stops when he sees her. Doesn’t speak. But she feels it — something settle. Something shift. He doesn’t get all of it. But somehow — he always finds the part that counts. The part that matters. He always does.
He waits. One second. Then another. Then he walks in. She doesn’t turn. Keeps her eyes on the version of herself she’s still not sure how to hold.
“You’re not sleeping?”
She shakes her head. That’s it.
He steps closer. Stops just behind her. Doesn’t touch.
“You scare me when you go this quiet.”
Her voice catches — stalls, then breaks.
“What if you don’t want me anymore?” The silence that follows doesn’t fall softly. It lands. Hard. With weight. With history. It sits between them like a bruise pressed too many times — tender, unfinished.
Then — his hands. He lays them on her arms. Not firm. Just enough. Not to hold. Just so she knows he’s there. Solid. Steady. Real.
“Don’t say that…” She watches him in the mirror. Blurry behind her. Still. But close.
“I want you, Lucy. Especially when you fall apart. Especially when you let me see you like this.”
She leans into him. And finally, she cries. Not loud. Not messy. Just… a quiet collapse. Tears that waited. Too long. Too deep.
And when she looks in the mirror again — she doesn’t see someone lost. Not pieces. Not ruins. Just… someone still here. Breathing. Being held. And for once — it’s enough.
He doesn’t move when she clings to him. Doesn’t try to fix it. Doesn’t fill the silence.
He just breathes. And stays. They stand like that for a while.
Facing the mirror. But not looking anymore.
Then he murmurs — right near her ear: “Come with me.” She nods. No words. Just weight shifting.
He reaches for her hand. Like memory. Like instinct. Not because he always does. But because this time, he chooses to. And that’s everything. . Tonight, too.
They leave the bathroom. The lights stay on. And the weight… just shifts. Enough. But it doesn't press as hard.
The living room is dim. Soft. Washed in the gold hush of a nightlight.
Kojo lifts his head at the sound, sniffs once, then noses gently at her belly — just once — before curling tighter against her side. Like he knows. Like he’s already guarding.
Lucy sinks onto the couch. Tim follows. His arms come around her belly without hesitation. Not out of routine — out of instinct.
Like her body remembers how to lean into him. Maybe better than before.
His hand finds hers under her shirt. He doesn’t stroke. Doesn’t speak. Just stays. Her eyes close — like her body knows before she does. She leans in.
“She’s coming soon,” she murmurs, almost to herself.
He doesn’t answer right away. Just presses a kiss to her temple.
“I know.”
Then silence. Not hollow — full.
“Do you think I’ll know how to do this?” she asks.
He doesn’t flinch. Doesn’t soften it.
“I’m scared every day. But less, because I have you.”
She inhales. His arms cinch a little closer — like he’s afraid she might slip through if he loosens even a little.
She doesn’t answer. He already did.
Kojo shifts. Ears twitch. He inches closer, presses into her side.
She smiles. Worn out. But warm.
“Think he feels her?”
Tim watches. His dog. The woman he loves. Their quiet chaos — holding its breath before it breaks into sound.
“He’s guarding her,” he says. “Same as me.”
They go quiet again. But it’s the kind that soothes. That wraps around you. That draws invisible shapes on skin.
She doesn’t name it. He doesn’t ask.
“I want her to know,” she whispers. “That she came from love. Not accident. Not fear.”
He nods into her skin.
“She will.”
Later, they fall asleep like that. Him upright.
Her folded into him. Kojo at their feet.
The light stays on. Not forgotten. Just… left on. Like them.
They are two. And one more heartbeat, quietly beating between them. And that — is enough.