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"I should've never date you, if i known that you will be a shitty boyfriend to me." Gotak gritted his teeth, holding back his tears from falling. He didn't want to cry, he didn't want to feed the ego of the guy in front of him yet he couldn't hold it.
It feels like he's the only one who tried to hold the relationship together, the only one who make it happen. The only one who voice out his feeling, the only one who complains, the only one who plans.
"Break up then. If being in a relationship with me draining you out, i didn't see why you need to save this relationship anymore." Why is it so easy for him to say things like that out without hesitation?
"3 years of relationship, do you ever love me? Do you, keum seongje?" Gotak wants to hold this relationship from breaking apart, wants to save it over and over again. He hopes that seongje wants to save it like him too, the relationship they both want it years ago.
He guessed it wrong. "No." Seongje said it without hesitation, didn't even try to pretend to think. 3 years relationship without feelings, this relationship must be a joke for keum seongje.
So everything they had was nothing? Was spending his 3 years loving seongje is worthless? Was what seongje said about loving him all his heart was wrong? Was all the kisses under the blanket, laughing under the rain holding hands, cuddling each other every night, naked bodies on each other were all fake..? Was 3 years a nightmare he wish to wake up from?
Gotak didn't even bother to ask why or how or what, he walked toward the kitchen table to take his keys. He didn't want to say in this house for too long, he didn't want to break down in front of his boyfriend.
He walked past seongje, he turned around before he gets out of the house. "Let's end our relationship here. You can take this house, i will move back into my mom's house. Thank you for the worthless 3 years, keum seongje."
Is what seongje heard as gotak vanished before he can even try to stop him. The house that was full of gotak before, feels empty now. Seongje scoffed, does gotak thinks he care? He's already used to not give any shit to gotak's absence when they were dating.
He pulled out the cigarette from inside of his pocket, lit it without thinking. The moon shines the inside of the dark house, the cold air brushed against his face. He stood up, deciding to get out of the cold house that used to be warm.
There's some empty feeling inside his heart, but he decided to ignores it. Whatever he feels isn't important, he needs to drink some alcohol tonight.
Spending his night in the club, smoking the cigarette while having the girls grinding on his sides. This used to be his routine every night before he dated gotak, before he got himself a boyfriend's duty to stay and went on dates with his boyfriend.
They started to dated each other when they were in senior years, back when the union decided to have a nice relationship with eunjang. He thought that gotak is such an interesting guy, always glares at him like a cat.
"Stop glaring at me like that, kitten. You're going to make me pop a boner here." Seongje said it in flirty tone, winked at gotak that glares his way. Gotak wants to punch that four-eyes guy so bad, but he holds it because he didn't want eunjang and union to fight again.
Everytime they bumped into each other, it's always gotak with his glares at seongje. Seongje didn't mind, he feels like he found some fun in whatever gotak is doing since he couldn't find fun in fights anymore.
It's not like baekjin force him to stop fighting, he didn't really find fun in beating up the guys anymore. He find that the life is boring to him, not much fun he could find.
Their relationship started to changing a bit when seongje found gotak in arcade, playing some random game while pouting. He thought it's weird that this kitten is playing the arcade when he never meet gotak being here before.
"Kitten, since when are you interested in arcades?" Gotak startled by the sudden voice beside him, not noticing the presence that was suddenly there. When he turned around, he sighed as he looked at the sight of keum seongje in front of him.
"Mind your own business, four-eyes." He turned around back, grumbling as the character in the game he play died showing that it's game over. Seongje laughed, he couldn't believe this guy just told him to go away.
"Move, you sucks at this." He pushed gotak to the side, taking over of the left side helping gotak to win it. Gotak pinched seongje's side while complaining, seongje laughed hysterically at gotak's attempt to push him off. But slowly they started to teamwork winning the game while bickering like they're some kids.
Days by days, him and gotak started to spend time together without fighting. They didn't fight, but they do bickers alot. It's weird to both of them, but they didn't say anything because somehow whatever they had that time was quite nice.
"You're annoying, do you know that?" Gotak said as he walked beside seongje, grumpy because seongje decided to blast his phone off with phone calls asking him out to arcades. He even wonder why the hell did he gave seongje his phone number, now he regretted his choices.
"Complaining, yet you're here beside me walking to the arcades. Whatever you're saying, babe." Seongje scoffed, he knows that gotak will always comes to him whenever he called. Gotak looks cute, pouting like that. Like a cat.
"Shut up. Don't call me babe, you're disgusting" Gotak said, as he pretends to throw up his guts. Seongje stopped on his tracks, making gotak to stop too looking at seongje weirdly. Seongje looks at gotak, staring at him without saying anything.
"The hell are you looking at me like that for? Crazy bitch." Gotak stuttering his words, coughing while looking at other things. Seongje smirked. "Let's date."
Silence.
Dogs barking loudly, the kids chasing each other laughing, the noisy grandmas that are gossiping with each other could be heard from afar.
Gotak looks at seongje with wide eyes, he couldn't believe what the hell he just heard from this guy's mouth. He slapped seongje's face out of sudden, making seongje got shocked from what did gotak just do.
"What the fuck." Seongje glared at him, while holding his redden left cheek. Gotak panicked, immediately caressed seongje's cheek to check if he's okay. Even gotak didn't expect himself to slap seongje like that, maybe he's too suprised at hearing that sudden confession.
"No, it should've been me saying that. What the fuck are you talking about?" Gotak slapped seongje's hand, seongje gritted his teeth. Why did this guy keep slapping him when he's clearly innocent?
"Let's date? We have been on each other's side everyday, even our friends agreed that we are like stuck on each other's waist too much. It would've been weird to not to." Seongje said, patting his slowly redden hand that gotak slapped.
Gotak was flustered, the words stucked on his throat didn't know what to say. So he just said "Whatever." and started to walking fast to the arcades without bother to wait for seongje. Seongje's smile started to creep on his lips, running to catch up gotak to hold his hand.
That was how their 3 years relationship started, the relationship they both wanted it.
Seongje pushed the girls that were all up on him and started to walked out of the club. Being here doesn't help him anything, rather it made him to miss and yearned for gotak.
"Home already?" Baekjin stopped him from walking home, he didn't want to question why seongje looks like shit. Seongje didn't answer, just breathing so hard that made baekjin sighed.
"I told you, stop messing his feelings. Now you suffered the consequences." Baekjin said, before he went back into the club. Leaving seongje standing alone outside the club looking so lonely and cold.
Seongje screamed, and kicked the trash out of frustration. He disheveled his hair due to how frustrated he was, guess what he said about he didn't care breaking up with gotak was wrong. He ate his own words.
He's back at the house, sitting on the couch without even bother to try switch on the light. He thinks if he put the lights on, it would still be dark for him. It feels like he's back to the life he had before he dated gotak, the life where it was all laugh and rainbow.
Looking around the inside of the house, he could see the memories that were made there in every inch of the house.
The kitchen, where he always used it to cook every meal for gotak. Gotak tried to cook for one time, and that was the last time he tried because he burned the food making seongje rolling on the floor laughing. He could remember how red gotak's face was, pouting at seongje for laughing at him.
Sometimes when gotak couldn't wake up, got tired for working overtime teaching the kids taekwondo a night before, seongje would bring the breakfast to the bed. Waking up gotak with kisses all over his face, making gotak laughing so much to the point his eyes disappeared.
Or sometimes when seongje got sick, gotak called his mom to cook some porridge for seongje to eat. Coming back from his mom's house to heaten up the porridge for seongje to eat, to warm his body up. Everytime seongje was sick, he would always cling on gotak the whole time.
Gotak always ended up taking a day off everytime that happened, so he could spend time cuddling seongje until he's well.
When gotak was sick, seongje would pampered him so much. Asking him what gotak craves to eat, and seongje will spend time reading the recipe to cook it for him. He would buy spicy tteokbokki for gotak because gotak loves to got all sweaty eating it.
He would've ate it a bit because he didn't have big appetite, and let seongje finished it all (seongje ended up using toilet and pretend he's okay).
The living room, where they always spend every monday which is their day off together watching the movie that each would take turn to choose. Gotak would lay down the pillows and blankets while seongje would prepare the popcorns and the snacks for them.
Seongje is a big fan of horror, so he always chose it and enjoys when gotak trembled beside him. Gotak ended up nuzzling his face into the crook of seongje's neck, he loves smelling his boyfriend there. "Did you use my bodywash?"
Gotak asked, lifting his head up to look at seongje. Seongje turned his attention from the tv to gotak, kissed gotak's lips and attention back to the tv. "I did." Gotak smiled because of the kiss, and back to nuzzling seongje's neck. "You smelled like me, i love it." Gotak left a kiss on seongje's neck, making seongje shivered because of it.
"Dont sleep on me, kitten. You always sleep everytime i put on my horror movie." Seongje complained, pinching not so hard gotak's side making gotak giggles. Gotak ended up sleeping while sitting on top of seongje's lap, face comfortably nuzzling into seongje's neck.
That was always their routine, to the point if one of them missed it, another one would be sulking.
The bedroom, where they spend time doing everything. The place where they used for intimate things, naked bodies on each other. Worshipping the scars on each other's bodies, kissing like it's the end of the world.
Legs intertwined every morning, both spooning each other. Gotak was the small spoon one, he loves making himself comfortable inside seongje's hold. Snuggling himself onto seongje's chest, listening to seongje's heartbeat to sleep.
Meanwhile, seongje loves sleeping while smelling gotak's hair. Kissing gotak's head before they went to sleep and after they woke up, loving it when gotak woke up with bed hair. Especially loving it when gotak sat up and giggled at him, bed hair and eye smile. Looking all comfy.
They got used to sleep with each other everyday, to the point if one of them got home late, another one would stay up late waiting. They feel that the something is missing if they sleep alone. Also, their habits before sleeping was to having make out session. So, it would've been incomplete without doing it before sleeping.
The balcony, where they used it to drink the soju together. Seongje didn't use it to smoke, he stopped smoking a month after they dated because gotak was coughing a lot back then. It made seongje thinking it was his fault, so he stopped smoking and replace it with lollipop instead or drinking soju with gotak.
Sometimes when seongje comes home drunk, drinking with baekjin. Gotak would take soju inside their fridge, and drink it while seongje sat in front of him staring at him like gotak is his world. They would wake up drunk together, and went to look for hangover soup together.
Seongje went to the drinking party with the union without telling gotak, making him to call seongje telling him to not drink much. After he ended the call, someone said it to him. "Dating him really turned you into a softie, huh?"
He is, he won't lie. Gotak made him soft, wasn't the bad guy beating up everyone he sees anymore. "I am." Seongje replied, won't dare to deny.
He didn't know when did it start for them to crumble apart. Weeks before their break up, seongje slowly started to not doing their routines anymore. Went to sleep without kissing gotak, didn't even big spoon gotak to sleep. Waking up to went work without their usual cute bickering, went home late than usual.
The dates that gotak asked him to go together, he cancelled it last minute to go arcades. Movie dates on monday, their day off too. Seongje starting to become a neglectful boyfriend to gotak.
That was the reason why gotak to asked for a break up, couldn't handle to keep the relationship together anymore. The relationship that used to be tooth-rootingly sweet, now become sour and plain. It was all because of keum seongje.
Seongje sighed harshly, rubbing his face hard. He regretted it, for doing what he did to gotak. The gotak that genuinely loves him for who he is, the gotak that found love in him. His go hyeontak.
If he was given time to rewind the time, and change it. He would. But he didn't want to change their outcome, he wants to timetravel even before they started to catch feelings for each other. He wants gotak to find someone that is better more than him.
He wants gotak to be happy with someone that loves him until their last breath. Not like seongje, who started to lose interest in gotak after 3 years and cruelly told gotak he never loves gotak when gotak asked him for the last time.
"Fuck, keum seongje.. What the hell are you thinking."
Gotak knocked on the door, waiting for his mom to come and open it. Tears rolling on his cheeks, breaking down even before he get to tell his mom. He's scared that his mom will be disappointed too, he knows at how his mom really loves seongje.
His mom would called seongje to tell him to bring gotak to come eat at her house. She called seongje more than her own son, that's how much she really loves seongje.
She opened the door, and found gotak crouching while crying his heart out. Her heart broke seeing him like that, so she immediately bring her son into her hug. Gotak tried to tell her but failed, but she understands him without him saying it.
"It's okay, baby. Just cry, eomma will be here for you." The break up broke him so bad, to the point he went to sleep hugging his mom. 3 years sleeping while hugging seongje, making him couldnt sleep without someone to hold him.
When seongje sometimes didn't come home, gotak didn't sleep. He ended up suffering with insomnia, couldn't close his eyes. The bed on seongje's side was cold and empty, made him cried waiting for his boyfriend to come home and tell him he loves him. Tell him that what happened was just a nightmare, but seongje never did.
He woke up, feeling tired from bawling out his eyes yesterday nonstop. He opened his phone and saw the messages he got from his friends, he send the message about the broke up while he was on the way to his mom's house.
All the supportive messages coming from his friends, telling him to cry, telling him to cheer up and all. The knock on the door startled him, he stood up and opened the door. The sight of his friends in front of him smiling, making him broke down once again.
All of them surrounded gotak and hugged him, patting his back while he sobbed. They know how the couple used to be, they used to jokingly pretend to puke when seongje and gotak flirted in front of them. Now, they didn't understand what went wrong too.
The break up broke him so bad, his friends ended up taking 3 days off to sleep over being there for him. He was very grateful for sieun, baku, juntae, suho, youngyi and beomseok for being there. He knows that seongje did him bad, but he's glad that his friends didn't badmouth about seongje to him.
No matter how hurt he is, he wants the best for seongje. He knows that seongje loves him, he blamed himself. Maybe seongje changed because he did something that made him changed.
He bid his friends farewell, nodding when they wished him to be better. Pretending he's good, even though he's still not good inside. He feels like he just got stabbed, the wound was still there.
He sat on his bed for a long time, not moving an inch. He stares at the floor, reminiscing their past memories together. Used to be enemies that would swing their hands at each other, turned into lovers that would kill for each other.
But now, he wants to kill himself.
He stood up, deciding to get out of the house and get some fresh air. Trying to distract himself from thinking about everything — about seongje.
If anyone saw his condition right now, they would see how much the break up affected him so much. He couldn't stomach the food his mom cook for him, so he looks very pale. He accidentally bumped into someone's shoulder, making the other person got pushed back.
The guy scoffed, scolding gotak for bumping into him. Gotak couldn't hear what the guy was saying, his head was hurting. He didn't hear what the guy was saying, all he know was that he got pulled into the dark alley by the guy's friends.
Got beaten up without he even get to say anything, didn't even to try to fight back. His head was hurting too much. He needs seongje, he needs him. He reached out to his phone that fell out of his pocket not too far from him, before he gets to dialed it, he stopped.
The kick to his stomach made him hugging himself, thinking that he shouldn't call seongje. He shouldn't bother seongje, seongje didn't care about him anymore. Seongje wasn't the seongje he knows anymore, he wasn't his seongje anymore.
The beating stopped when a cop found them stomped on his body, making them ran away from there. He couldn't answer when the cop asked him questions, letting the cop to call for an ambulance.
It's been days since they broke up, and also days since seongje started to completely lose himself. He couldn't eat, couldn't wash himself, couldn't drink. The worst of all — couldn't even come to work.
When he walked to the kitchen, he would imagine the image of gotak wearing apron laughing nervously trying to cook for him.
When he walked to the toilet, he would imagine the image of gotak screaming at him to get his towel.
When he walked to drink, he would imagine the image of gotak scolding him to stop drinking soda and drink more water.
Everywhere he goes, he thinks of gotak. He wonders, is this affecting gotak the same way its affecting him?
He barely drink alcohol, usually drinks it everytime there's occasion and need it to celebrate with gotak. But he drank it all, chugging down like it's a water. Didn't care the pain on his stomach because he didn't eat at all.
Torturing himself, maybe trying to find a reason so he could earn some empathy from gotak. Maybe if gotak finds out that seongje pass out from malnourished, maybe he wants seongje back. Maybe..
He's walking around the mall, trying to find some fun so he could distract himself from overthinking about everything. He come across of jewelry shop, where they sell rings and all.
He remember that one time where him and gotak went there for fun, pointing this and there while joking around.
"I love this design, it's so pretty. It would've been nice if we can wear this as matching ring." Gotak said, as he stares at the ring he was talking about. Seongje nodded, he thinks the ring was pretty too but they couldn't afford it because they used too much money for rent and food to buy it.
So they dismissed it as a joke, but seongje really wish he could put that nice ring on gotak's pretty finger. Maybe in another life, he thinks.. If that next life, he didn't mess up too.
But he didn't expect instead of gotak gets the call from hospital because of him, it was him who got the call from hospital about gotak. His stomach turned at the news of gotak was in hospital, probably alone because it seems like he just got there.
He didn't even thought about how nice it is because gotak still have him as emergency contact, he just took his jacket and ran toward his car. He's worried for gotak, he hopes gotak is doing okay before he gets there.
The moment he reached at the hospital, he immediately went to the counter and asked for gotak's room number. Before he gets to walk into the room, the doctor that took care of gotak walked out of the room. Apparently, gotak was malnourished and had a broken wrist from getting beaten up.
When seongje heard the news, he rubbed his face too hard that it made his face redden. He regretted for letting gotak walked out their house, regretted for being such a neglectful boyfriend to gotak.
Now, he's facing the consequences from the actions he did.
He knocked on the door before he walked inside, he saw that gotak didn't reply because he's still unconscious. Could be seen at how bruised his face was, with his hand wrapped in bandages. Silence in the room, what he could heard was only the beeping sound from the machine.
He sat down beside the bed, reaching out and hold gotak's hand. He kissed it for a long time, nuzzling his face into gotak's hand. Praying for his safety, for gotak to wake up from whatever he's going through right now.
He didn't care if the moment gotak wakes up, he would throw everything at him, telling him to get out of the room. He didn't care. As long as he could see the pretty eyes of gotak open, he would be so grateful.
It took for a long time, making seongje to fall asleep on the side of gotak's bed while holding his hand tight. He thinks that if he lets go of his hand, gotak will disappear like that night again. He won't let it go anymore.
Gotak woke up, touching his head that was hurting. Looking around, and saw seongje sleeping on his side. Holding his hand tight, couldn't even try to pull it out. The grip was so tight.
Gotak's attempt to retreat his hand, making seongje that holds it woke up from his nap. He realised that gotak already woke up, sitting up while staring at him. Something in him shattered the way how tired gotak looks like, like something shattered inside him too.
He stood up, making gotak's hand to be free from his grip. He went to pour water in the cup, and passed it to gotak so he could wet his throat. Gotak took it without saying anything, his throat got dry over what situation he's in right now.
The room went heavy silence, without any of them try to break the silence. It broke the moment gotak's mom came inside the room, she came to bring some things for gotak to use while he's being held here.
She already met seongje earlier before gotak woke up, he got a lot of scolding but she didn't blame him. She said she could see that seongje still loves gotak, and told him to fix it before it broke more than he could fix it.
"Seongje, i know i was supposed to hate you for breaking my son apart. But i could see that you two couldn't live without each other. Fix it before you regret your choices."
Seongje leave the room, letting gotak be with her mom.
Gotak watched as seongje left the room, his stomach turned. Even if he's in hospital looking like he's going to die in any minute, seongje still leave him? Seongje didn't want to be here for him?
He nodded when his mom told him the things she brought for him to use, and shake his head when she apologized that she need to go because she need to work. He didn't want to burden his mom for whatever he's going through.
He bid his mom farewell, and sighed.
His alone moment got interrupted the moment the door opened again, he thought it's his mom that forgot something. But its seongje, who hold a container. Gotak didn't know what to do, just staring down at his fingers.
Seongje ended up sitting at the seat beside his bed, opening the container that have porridge inside it. Gotak could smell it, its the smell of the octopus porridge seongje always cook for him whenever he's sick.
Seongje fed him, spoon by spoon waiting for him every bite to make sure he's not choking even though its just a porridge. It was supposed to be awkward between them, but gotak found peace in this situation.
It feels like he didn't need to say it, yet seongje already understood him.
4 days had passed, seongje did the same thing everyday. Feeding him food, helping him drinking, holding him when he need to use the toilet, wipe his body when he's asleep, staying beside him when he's asleep, holding his tight.
And the weird thing was that they didn't talk not even one word to each other. Not even once. Today is the discharge day, and seongje was here to help him to pack the things gotak's mom bring.
After seongje finished packing the things, he went to gotak and took gotak's hands to walked out of the hospital. He was the one who paid the bills, gotak's mom scolded him for doing it but he said he couldn't stand it. He thinks what happened to gotak was his fault, if he was there, no one could dare to even look at gotak's way.
He put the bag at the back of the seat, opening the passenger seat's door to help gotak get in. Gotak get in, and look outside. Seongje get in the car, and look at gotak that look at outside. He didn't blame gotak, seongje was a shitty boyfriend, everyone would do the same as gotak.
When they reached gotak's mom's house, seongje put the bags inside gotak's room. Walking toward gotak and pull him to his room, wants gotak to rest. Before he gets to take off gotak's socks, gotak muttered something.
"Why?"
Seongje didn't look up, he didn't want to because he knows if he do, his heart will shatter into broken pieces. He didn't answer either, he knows gotak has more to say.
"Why did you come back? Why did you treat me nicely? Acting like we didn't broke up a week ago?" Question by question asking for him to answer, the voice crack at the end made his stomach turned.
"I love you."
"You don't, get out. Get out of my house."
Gotak pushed him, but seongje didn't move. He still tried to take off gotak's socks, he knows that gotak's feet full of bruises that he need to put some cream on it.
"Get out, keum seongje. Don't act like you love me all of sudden. I know all of this are just fake, and some entertainment for you." Gotak screamed, pushing seongje away from him while tears streaming down his face.
Seongje stood up, he didn't want to make gotak to hate him more.
"I'm sorry." Was what he said before he left gotak inside his room, leaving gotak crying alone. When he heard the sound of his front door closed, he stood up to walked to the kitchen to drink some water. But because his hand both are injured, he broke the glass down instead.
He broke down, screaming as he crouched shaking uncontrollably. He couldn't breathe, trying to. He didn't even notice that seongje was beside him pulling him into the hug. Apparently, seongje never try to go home, he just stood in front of the door and wait in case gotak need some help.
"Breathe, slowly. Follow my breathing. You're doing good." Was what seongje said as he guides gotak to calm down from his panic attack.
He needs this. He needs this hug. He needs seongje.
After an hour of crying nonstop, he finally stopped crying. Seongje didn't stop caressing his back, didn't stop humming for him. Patiently waiting for gotak to be okay.
"I miss you." Seongje said it, not gotak. He beats gotak from doing it, he did it first. Gotak waits, didn't respond because he feels like seongje has more to say.
"I'm sorry i was being a neglectful boyfriend to you in the past, I'm sorry for telling you that i didn't love you. I do, i love you a lot. I didn't want to give you excuses for did it, i did something bad. I want you to be happy with someone else, but i feel like i would kill everyone if it happens." Seongje said, sighed contently.
Gotak giggles, he's still mad with seongje, but he won't deny that his love is more than his anger toward seongje. So he couldn't help but to nuzzling his face into seongje's neck, the spot he found comfort in.
Seongje pushed gotak back, making gotak to look into his eyes. "I will treat you better than before, so — "
" — do you want to beat up everyone for the rest of our life?" Seongje asked while holding out the box of ring that gotak wanted so much to gotak. Gotak's eyes was wide open seeing the ring him and seongje wanted to buy back then is now in front of him.
"But i hate fighting though." He said replying to seongje's propose, making seongje laughing. Pulling gotak into his hold, tickling gotak making gotak laughing uncontrollably. That's gotak's way of saying yes, i do.
When they announced it to their friends, they were all happy for them. Baku nearly punched seongje for doing that to gotak, but he didn't because gotak pinched his leg under the table. Sieun did side eye seongje for the whole dinner, but seongje didn't dare to complain.
Sieun acts like a tsundere, but he adores gotak as friends. He has been protective of gotak, acting like he's the one that pushed gotak out of his womb. He thinks out of their friendgroup, gotak is the nicest so he's scared someone will take advantage of gotak (like seongje).
When gotak's mom found out that they were back together, she cook some food for them to celebrate. She wasn't that suprise because she knows that even if destiny tried to pull them apart, they would still end up with each other.
Years have passed, seongje didn't lie when he promised he will treat gotak better than before. If the seongje back then was sweet, the seongje now is more sweeter and baby-like boyfriend.
He panicked when he saw gotak holding something heavy, acting like gotak is pregnant. Seongje is becoming more protective, more caring than before.
He worshipped gotak like gotak is the god, pampering his face with kisses telling him he's beautiful. He's too disgustingly in love with gotak, to the point gotak's friends had to sit them apart so they won't flirting with each other in front of them.
Now, they're watching the horror movie seongje put on at their day off.
"Baby, you need to watch this movie. Don't keep nuzzling into my neck." Seongje pat gotak's back, trying to stop gotak from kissing his neck. He laughs slow, he didn't even know why gotak is acting more clingy than him.
"I love you." Gotak whined, still pressing his lips on seongje's neck. The sound kind of making seongje pop a boner, but he didn't want to say it. He wants this moment to be completely soft and tender, not sexy and horny.
"Baby, are you drunk?" Seongje pushed back gotak to make gotak to look at him, trying to distract him before gotak try to grind his butt on seongje. He really didn't want to ruin this moment, but somehow gotak is acting like a rabid dog.
"I'm nwot." Gotak hiccups, trying to shake his head but nearly fall on his side instead. Seongje caught him, and giggles. He thinks he knows why gotak is acting like this, so instead he hold gotak on his left side while the other side checking the content of the chocolate box gotak ate earlier.
Seongje was right. It's the alcohol chocolate, it's that damn sieun's boyfriend who gifted it to gotak while winking. He didn't bother to check because he was more mad at the fact suho winked at his boyfriend.
"Hyung, seongje hyung." Something in seongje snapped. Literal snapped, like thread snapped into half. Him and gotak didn't really have a huge gap between their age, just a month apart. So they always called each other by names or pet names.
But this?
This awakened some feral in him. Making him acts like an alpha that want to claim his dearest omega.
He did. You could say that the night was one of the freakiest and really intimate compared from their nights before.