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The manor is quiet in that thick, unnatural way places get after a funeral (not silent, exactly, but something heavier, something like absence stretched too wide across old floors and older ghosts), with that uncanny kind of calm that lingers when the walls remember things the people won’t say aloud.
But there was no coffin this time.
No stone marking the place where she should be buried.
No final rites.
Because Dixie Wayne has already been buried once.
And now she is sitting in the old study, the leather couch creaking under her weight, like a ghost that refused to stay dead.
She has pulled her legs beneath her, body folded into itself the way she used to when she was small, when the weight of the cape was still heavier than the grief (and the grief was already there, even then, in the shape of the two ghosts whose shadows she still calls ‘home'). She is wrapped in the scent of leather and firewood, of old books and older ghosts. The room still smells like childhood, and yet it feels more like a prison.
The fire crackles, just like it always did when she was a kid, more for atmosphere than warmth. It's pointless. She doesn’t need warmth anymore. She hasn’t needed it since the night Jason helped her crawl out of her grave, heart silent, blood wrong, body not quite her own anymore.
Behind her, Bruce circles the room with restless, brittle energy. His pacing is slow, measured, methodical, silent in the way it is when he doesn’t know how to fix something. His footsteps tick against the wood like a clock that’s running out of time.
He is not speaking to her. He is not touching her. He is not even reaching for her. Just circling, waiting for something: an answer, a sentence, a verdict she’s not sure she can give.
She lets him. She doesn’t speak. Not until the silence turns unbearable.
“You don’t have to watch me like I’m some fragile thing ready to vanish,” she says without turning.
Bruce stops. His voice is low, quiet. “I’m not.”
A lie. His oldest habit. It lands between them like ash.
She lets out a bitter, hollow laugh. “I already did that once.”
He says nothing.
Then the door opens, and the air shifts. Sharp, foreign, expensive perfume cuts through the scent of ash and grief.
Talia enters like she owns the room and all its occupants. Because, in a way, she does. Because she always has.
Dixie’s heart clenches, not with fear exactly, but with a primitive, ragged ache, and that ache…that ache is something older than fear. Something more complex too.
There’s something about Talia, something ghostly and raw, like a memory resurfacing from a place Dixie thought she’d left behind forever. Not just a mother returned, but a specter becoming flesh.
The mother (HER mother) who was never really gone, only buried beneath layers of silence and secrets. The mother who was once an absence, a silence, a hole Dixie’s heart tried not to feel, now stands before her: alive, demanding, impossibly real.
“You could have knocked,” Bruce mutters, edged with steel.
“I did.” Talia's eyes set onto Dixie with a kind of intensity that makes her uneasy. For a mad moment Dixie wonders if that uneasiness is born in their matching blood. In the identical curves of their mouths and slopes of their necks. In the fact that Talia, her mother of smoke and shadows and charcoal smears, is no ghost anymore. She is flesh. She is fire. She is the woman who gave her life. And that terrifies her.
”You’re awake.”
Dixie doesn’t rise. Doesn’t blink.
“Awake is a strong word,” she replies at some point, high and dry. “But yeah. Up and kicking.”
Talia steps forward with that dangerous, predatory grace Dixie remembers from stories Damian whispered to her in the dark: too poised, too cold, too certain, too real.
She is controlled. Lethal. Like a queen walking into a ruined throne room. Every step practiced, but not performative. It’s not for show. It’s who she is (and Dixie wonders, she wonders, if she has ever been that in control, that sure, that real. The answer to that question haunts her).
“You’re different.” Talia (her MOTHER) murmurs at some point.
“Death tends to do that.” Dixie replies, bitterness seeping into her every word.
“I didn’t expect gratitude,” a pause. An intake of breath Dixie feels from the very bottom of her shriveled lungs “But I did expect recognition for my troubles."
Bruce bristles. His jaw tightens in that way Dixie has long since known conveys barely contained fury “She didn’t ask to be brought back.”
“And you think I did it because she asked me to?” Talia snaps eyes, now fixed in Bruce’s direction, flaring,“Please. I did it because she’s mine. Because I refuse to bury another child.”
Dixie stands, slowly. She is steady. Too steady. Something no longer human in the fluidity her body now has.
Her eyes burn. Maybe. She is so disconnected from herself she can't really tell. But in her mind they DO burn, gleaming gold in the fire-light: wrong, unnatural, alive in all the ways that don’t make sense. She is so beyond furious her voice sounds flat even to her own ears. “You don’t get to say that. You didn’t bury the first one either.”
That lands. Talia flinches. Just barely. But Dixie sees it. Marks it down for future use (she doesn’t let herself wonder when she started jutting down in her head other people’s weaknesses, doesn’t let herself think if Talia or even Ra’s do the same too).
“I didn’t raise you, no,” she says. “That was his doing” her eyes flick to Bruce, “the Graysons' doing. But don’t mistake absence for apathy.”
Her voice is steady, certain, like absence might be something other than abandonment, and it twists something in Dixie’s unmoving chest. It’s not just the cold logic of survival she’s facing, but the tangled treads of excuses that once tried to hold together the too-complex web of lies her entire life has been built upon. It’s the hollow silence that defined her childhood. It’s the echo of NOTHING that always followed her unanswered questions to Bruce.
But she doesn't say that. Not yet. She waits instead. She doesn’t know what she expects, standing there between Bruce and Talia, but whatever it is, it doesn’t come.
Not clarity.
Not warmth.
Not absolution.
Only silence.
The kind that stretches too long.
The kind that breaks bones.
The kind that has echoed in her skull ever since her parents died.
She speaks first. Of course she does. She has learned to do so in Bruce’s too-long silences, back when she was still an only child. But her voice isn’t sharp, isn’t cruel, isn’t even composed. It’s hollow.
“Why didn't you ever tell me?” She’s not looking at Bruce, but the question is his. It always has been. He doesn’t answer.
Talia shifts slightly behind her, but Dixie doesn’t turn to her either.
“I asked you for years. Every time. Every damn time I got close to that truth, close to her, you shut me down. Lied to me. Told me I wasn’t meant to know. That it was love."
Her lip curls, not in rage, not anymore, but in disbelief. Disgust.
“Was it love when you erased her name from my story? Was it love when you let me bury Mary twice, first in her corpse and then in the stupid, childish notion that I could have been born from something as…as good as she was?”
Bruce flinches. Good. She wants him to flinch. She wants him to bleed in the same way nineteen years of not knowing have made her. But she doesn’t raise her voice. She’s too tired for that. Too…other.
“You said she left me,” eyes finally settling on Bruce. Her voice cracks. “That it was an act of love. Do you even hear yourself? What kind of love is that?”
“The same kind I gave you,” Bruce murmurs, and his voice is barely above a whisper. “The only kind I know.”
And there it is. The tragedy of him. Of them.
He always loved her in the way that felt right to him, and never once stopped to ask what she needed.
Dixie turns slowly to Talia. And Talia, cold, poised, unreadable Talia, isn’t unreadable now. There is grief in her. Something sharp. Something raw. But Dixie doesn’t let herself be swayed.
“And YOU. You gave me away.” A breath. She doesn’t breathe, not really, but the pause feels like one. “Why?”
Not an accusation. Not a scream. Just a daughter asking a mother to tell her why she wasn’t the one she kept.
Talia’s gaze doesn’t waver. Her voice is calm, steady. Too steady.
“Because my father would have made you a weapon.”
“And Bruce didn’t?” Dixie snaps, and it’s the first time her voice rises.
“He didn’t raise a weapon. He raised a daughter,” Talia says. “I gave you to the Graysons because I couldn’t do it myself. Because I thought they could love you freely. Because I thought… if I stayed, my father would have ruined you.”
“YOU did. YOU ruined me anyway. In silence. In absence. You ruined me with the shape of your face I didn’t know how to hate.”
Talia swallows. Bruce takes a step forward. Not close. Not daring. Just… nearer. She wonders if he does so for her sake or because in some strange, twisted way, he still loves Talia.
“I didn’t tell you because I was afraid of what you’d do with the truth,” he says quietly.
“The truth?” Dixie echoes. “The truth didn’t change anything. It only explained everything. It only allowed me to stop wondering.”
She looks at both of them. Mother. Father. Liars.
“You made me a story I didn’t belong to. You cut me out of my own blood.”
“We tried to protect you,” Bruce says, and his voice pleads, for the first time. “You were just a child…”
“I was always just a child to you,” she spits. “Until I became Robin. Until you needed a soldier. Until I could raise your sons. Until I could do what your sons couldn’t. And even then, EVEN THEN, you didn’t trust me with the truth of myself.”
“And You, you left me,” Dixie says, looking Talia in the eyes, searching for something she can’t quite name herself. “You all but erased yourself from my story. I asked him who my mother was and he told me it didn’t matter. Said it was an act of love.” She scoffs. “Like abandonment was something noble.”
Talia’s face is still. Her voice is lower now. “I didn’t give you away.”
“You did,” Dixie says. “You left me with a name that wasn’t real and a grave full of silence. I grew up wondering why my mother left me,” Dixie steps closer, voice raw and trembling. “Wondering why my mother didn’t want me. And now you show up, acting like I’m some broken heirloom you want back. What am I to you, Talia? A relic? A vessel? Or just another failure you’re trying to erase?”
“Damian isn't a failure and you…You are mine.” Talia says firmly.
“I’m not yours,” Dixie spits. “I’m not Bruce's either. I was never yours to begin with.”
“You’re mine, my daughter” Talia repeats, “You always were.”
The possessiveness in that word feels like a chain, and Dixie shudders.
“I was never yours,” Dixie reitherates. “I belong to no one. Not you, not him. Once, maybe, I belonged to my parents, the ones who raised me. The ones who chose me. The ones who loved me. And they have been gone for the last nineteen years.”
Bruce finally steps forward, careful, hesitant. “That’s not what I meant…”
“I know what you meant,” she interrupts him, softer now, but just barely. She is mostly just exhausted.
“You both think love is control. That to love something is to claim it and bind it. Mold it. Hide it. But I’m not a child waiting to be molded anymore. You can’t train me out of me. I died. And one of you buried me in ice while the other raised me from the dead because neither of you could let me go. I came back but you cannot expect me to forget why and how I died. I came back, and now I get to decide what’s mine.”
The silence stretches between them again, like a wound none of them know how to close.
“I just wanted to protect you,” Bruce murmurs, voice barely a whisper (and for a moment, just one, he looks like her too young dad and not the man who kept her whole life from her).
“And I wanted a father who didn’t see me as a mission. As a project” Her voice breaks, and for the first time, she feels small. Young. Wrecked. “But we don’t always get what we want.”
Talia is pensive, Dixie thinks. And then she starts to talk.
“I won’t pretend to be something I’m not. I am not your mom, not if you don't want me to be, but I AM your mother. I carried you inside me. I loved you before you took your first breath. I birthed you. I gave you away because I wanted to protect you. I gave you a brother that was a mirror of everything you were just to keep you safe. I destroyed everything and everyone that hurt you. I gave you back your brothers, the both of them. I tried to save you from the hell HE” and her tone, that had been almost sweet until that moment, suddenly sharpens into something different, into something worse. Into a rage Dixie knows far too well. “Had confined you into. I might not be your mom. But I gave everything for you. And that still makes me your mother.”
Dixie steps back, something cracking inside her. Not in horror, not in anger, not in fear. In Recognition.
She sees it in Talia now, that reflection she never asked for. The shadow she always knew lived inside her but that she was never brave enough to name. Matching bones. Shared wrath. Mirrored regrets.
And for the first time, she knows what it means to be her mother’s daughter (not her dej’s, her MOTHER’s). Not because she wants it. But because it’s true.
Dixie doesn’t trust her. Probably she never will. But she KNOWS her. Knows her in a way so deep and so ancient she might even know her better than she knows Bruce.
Knows her in the parts of herself she’s fought to deny, to bury, the same parts that live in Talia’s eyes like embers waiting to burn.
And in the wake of everything Talia just told her (She was loved. She wasn’t the spare. Damian was born because of her. Jason is alive because of her. Her mother wanted to protect her from everything that, now, only makes her think about Tarantula’s mutilated corpse. Her mother cares for her, even in a way that’s so warped and bent it’s almost inconceivable with love) Bruce, almost imperceptibly, reaches for her hand.
She hesitates. It can’t fix the years or the silence or the grave. It isn’t enough
But she takes his hand (her father’s hand). Not because she forgives. Not because she forgets. But because she’s tired. She’s been tired since (before) she stopped breathing. Tired of being held like a secret. Tired of being treated like a relic. Tired of being the girl everyone mourned without asking if she wanted to live.
Talia sees it all (of course she does) and for just a second, something like a smile ghosts across her lips.
“You can decide to not believe me, but I will say this: you are as much mine as you are his, as much as you were your parents. You have my fire and my love. You have his and John's mannerisms. You carry Sandra in your every movement, in your every step”.
And that name…that name is one Dixie knows, even if just barely. The name that sometimes appears in her nightmares. The name that, once upon a time, she associated with her mother of smoke.
Dixie's eyes snap to Talia again and her voice trembles (maybe waiting another lie, maybe fearing the truth) when she mutters,“I thought that was you.” and then, lower still “And I move like Mary”.
Talia’s eyes darken, and for a moment, she looks older than what her unnaturally young face shows, weighed down by secrets she’s carried too long.
“No. It’s not, but yes, you do.”
Dixie leans forward, desperate to understand.
Talia exhales slowly, like she’s pulling memories up from the bottom of a deep, dark well.
“Sandra was… she was Mary, before. Before she had the gall to leave. Before she discovered the courage to fly. Before she managed to understand love.”
And something, something in Dixie shatters. Because Mary was hers. Because Mary was her dej. Because Mary was like her (a woman with no past and far too many masks).
“They weren't a random choice. SHE wasn't a random choice. You KNEW her.” there is something that almost feels like disbelief in her voice, even when she was sure she couldn't feel any anymore.
“Of course I knew her. I wouldn't have given you to her if I didn't. If I wasn't sure she could love you. If I wasn't sure she could protect you.”
“Who was she?”
“My apprentice, first, my teacher, later. My only friend, at some point too, maybe, or at least the closest thing I ever had to a friend. She loved you. Trained you. Protected you. Isn't enough?”
“No. Not after she died. Not after I was alone again. So I'll ask you again: who was she?”
“The world knew her as Lady Shiva.” the response is mechanical. Cold.
“Lady Shiva? The legendary assassin? No. She wouldn't have died as she did if she was.” Dixie almost snorts out, while her eyes search Bruce's own, trying to find in them the lie hidden in Talia's words.
But she doesn't find any. And that, maybe, it's the ultimate betrayal. The ultimate grief. The ultimate dissolution of everything she believed to be true.
Talia’s eyes glisten with pain. “She died protecting you. Against Ra’s plans. Against what he wanted you to become. She died for you, beloved, because she couldn't bear to see him twist you into everything he always wanted.”
Dixie shakes her head, the pieces crashing together like a puzzle she never wanted to solve.
“No. I never asked for any of this. I never asked to be his.”
“And you won’t be,” Talia says, voice soft but resolute. “Not if you don’t want to. But know this, no matter where you go, no matter what you become, you will always be my daughter. And I will never stop fighting for you.”
“Neither will I” Bruce interferes. She had almost forgotten he was there, with them, even with his hand still cradling hers.
“Am I her?” she asks quietly, looking at Talia again. “Am I Ra’s prized heir, the one you feared he would covet?”
Talia doesn’t answer and in that not answer, Dixie reads all the truth of their blood-filled legacy, all the truth that always followed her: in rage, in bloodlust, in coldness, in leadership, even in death.
She is the one Ra's wanted.
The one he waited for, while trying to destroy her baby brother.
The true legacy. The true heir. The true Demon.
Somehow, she isn't even surprised.
Talia keeps being silent. Bruce doesn't. “No, of course you are not.” But even as he says it, Dixie sees the doubt. The fear. She sees her golden eyes reflected in his, and knows he doesn’t believe what he is saying. Not fully.
Silence again.But this one hums. Maybe. She can’t really tell.
She feels too still. Too cracked.
Dixie looks between them. Between the man who tried to love her like a daughter and only managed to shape her like a soldier and the woman who tried to save her by giving her away and then came back to claim her corpse.
She lets go of Bruce’s hand. And she walks out of the study.
She doesn't forgive them. Not yet. Maybe never. But certainly not now. She walks away. Not with rage. Not with fire.
Because Dixie Wayne (because Rabi’a Al-Ghul) is not a daughter reborn. She is not a soldier returned. She is not a heir that was promised. She is not even a ghost come home. She is just the silence of a girl who died with questions, and woke up with scars that no longer show on her skin, but will never stop hurting.