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    Summary

    "I’ve never told anyone what truly happened to me at Ferelden’s Circle. I was… not myself after that. I was angry. For years, that anger blinded me. I’m not proud of the man that made me."

    "The way I saw mages… I’m not sure I would have cared about you, and the thought of that sickens me.

    Lyrium withdrawal and the realization that he's desperately in love with the Inquisitor has left Cullen raw. Vulnerable. The horror of his past keeps intruding into his present, and he can't help but wonder whether he's been carrying it with him in more ways than one- whether his desires are his own, or something darker that controls and compels him from deep within his subconsciousness.

    He needs to address it— he needs to come clean in order to move on— but will he lose the woman he loves in the process? Will he lose her to something (or someone) else before he can gather the courage to act?

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    ** Mostly explicit

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    Language:
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