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The Favorite character awards ceremony was over and everyone was teleported back to the circus, Gangle and Zooble went to the hall so Gangle could show the other her new drawings, Kinger went to get pillows for a fort, Ragatha walked to a random direction understanding that the others probably wanted space and thanks to Kinger, felt a bit better about things. And then there was just the two left, Jax and Pomni. Seeing no other choice, Pomni was the first to start the conversation.
"Why did you snap earlier?" She said, not fully looking at Jax and by only getting an annoyed grunt in response she kept going.
"What did I do that made you mad? what could have posab-" "Just stop" Jax interrupted, "I'm not going to explain what was already obvious.' he said grinding his already combined teeth together.
"Why cant you talk about him withou-" "I said shut the f*boing* up! i don't want to talk about it-i never wanted to i-...never should have brought it up" his tone getting softer as he went on. he turned to get a glance at Pomni before turning back and walking away.
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"Jax wait." Pomni said in a small but urgent voice. To her surprise, he stopped, And she took that as the lead to go on.
"I know you don't like talking about...him, but just because one person left doesn't mean that you can't get close to anyone else. People still want to be friends with you i-...still want to be friends with you. is that too much to ask?"
Jax paused, physically tensing up. questioning the sincerity of her voice. "Yes, it is. its way too much to ask of someone like me, you know who I am and i-" "I know who you are god d*bang*it. I know that you think you're this villain, this horrible person that doesn't deserve what's being given to them. Yes I do know that but you don't have to shield everyone away because of Ribbit!"
Ribbit
Ribbit
That name haunted him day and night. Even after everyone had moved on he was still sitting up at night crying in his abstracted friends room. not attending anyone's funeral because he would hallucinate Ribbits photo in the frame, it would crush him inside, even if it was just his mind playing tricks on him, even for a split second. He wouldn't be able to walk any further than his room without seeing the happiness in the photo displayed with a big X over the frogs face. its been years after his death, but he still finds tears in his eyes when looking at the door too long.
Pitiful.
"Keep" he started off slowly "His name...out of your F*crash*ING MOUTH" He said while turning around quickly to swiftly grab Pomni by her neck and lifting her up to swing her towards the ground, letting her go in time for the throw to be as strong as 100 bears, causing the ceramic floors to crack under her landing spot.
"Ja-" Pomni started to say until the bunny's foot uppercuted her, sending her at least 30 feet away from her prior spot on the floor. Jax was quick to catch up though. Grabbing her by the shoulders and holding her up to meet his eyes, his pupils squiggly and changing every half second. "What makes you think that you have any right to talk about him. Because you don't! Nobody here is that nosy and i-i-i ugh why do you have to be like this I hate everything about you, I hate how you talk I hate how you act, I hate that your just..." he lets her down slowly and turns away from either not wanting to face her or the tears welding up in his eyes as he goes on " I hate that you just like him" he sits on the floor to prevent his legs from going out and breaks into a silent and small cry.
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Pomni rests a reassuring hand on his shoulder. "Jax I-" he flinches at the sudden contact, not knowing what to do he hisses though his teeth. "Don't touch me!' She pulls back quickly and decides that sitting next to him would be a better option. so she does so.
"do you really get joy from seeing other people suffer? or can you just not cease the fact that the one that you gave joy to is making you suffer in return?"
"I-Im sorry what?!" he stutters from the shock of the question being asked.
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"I mean, you said it yourself during your manic episode before the award show. but I don't believe someone is just made like that, you know? You don't have any friends here and he was your...only one...so that means you had to be a bit nicer to keep him around. or is there something your not telling me?" Pomni stated, not expecting much of an answer if any. but it came as a shock when Jax got up and left, walked away like nothing happened.
But deep down he just wasn't ready to face his emotions, he left to prevent himself from crying. Nothing more. he would talk about it to her in the morning, until then he would sit in his room, alone, desperately wanting someone to be there with him.
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