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Bigb sits atop the rejects' base, legs hanging over the edge. The cold of the night nips at him, making him shiver. He can hear the other rejects inside, talking, probably about Jimmy's recent accomplishments.
One might think that while he's up, sulking in the night, he must be jealous of all the attention Jimmy is getting. That wasn't the case, though, he was happy for Jimmy, he supposed, it was just...
He felt sick thinking about it. All the blood and death. So soon after Tango, both Ren and Pearl fell. Despite all the voices he could hear below him, and the people he could see off into the distance if he squinted, the server felt empty. Bigb wasn't sure what to do with himself.
He was allies with one of the most feared people on the server at the moment. Grouped with so many others, all to take down the Villies who had just lost one of their own. Shouldn't he feel good? Excited? He was still a green name, and although his plans to team with the Villies might fall through, he could do what he's always done- go off on his own. It's not like he was a prime target at the moment.
Bigb doesn't feel particularly connected to anyone. He's not sure what he'd do if another person died, even though it's very likely to be one of the rejects. Or another one of the Villies... maybe, if Grian had no one else, he would let Bigb stay with him.
It didn't really matter what happened, he thought. They would all find an end, sooner or later.
That... was a horrible way to think, wasn't it?
Bigb sighs. "Would anyone care if I threw myself off of here until I was out?" he asks, then looks up to the moon. "Would you care if I did it- just killed myself?"
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Rain drops start to fall. It doesn't bother him at first, but it quickly starts to grow heavy, and he stumbles back up onto his feet. As he turns around to head back inside, he hears thunder crash down somewhere nearby.
"Eek! Eek...!" he shrieks as he runs inside. He's already soaked by the time he makes it in, bumping to Joel.
"Hey, watch where you're going! Eugh- you're all soaked, what happened?" Joel asks.
"Can't you hear the thunder out there?" Bigb explains as he takes off his arm warmers to wring them out. Thunder strikes somewhere else after he speaks, making Joel jump a bit.
He walks past Joel and the others and takes a quiet seat down on one of their beds.
Well. He wouldn't be killing himself tonight.