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Entry 1
I’m making this separate from my usual journal. (My personal notes? It’s not really a ‘journal’…) This is just for recording all of those nightmares and weird dreams that I’ve been having, so hopefully they become less freaky and go away. Master Tighnari suggested this when he noticed how badly I have been sleeping… I really don’t want to bother him too much with nightmares, since I’ve had them before, so if this helps then I will be glad.
I keep seeing that lab again. Or whatever it was called. That would be bad enough, but it keeps changing mid-dream in a really strange way. Cave walls will turn to high iron ceilings and then back again. It’s so rapid sometimes I wake up dizzy—which is also something I am not used to my nightmares doing. Especially not after the Elezaar improved. (The screaming is normal though…)
There is also some different place entirely. A huge building with some sort of… thumping. I keep forgetting it whenever I wake up, but every dream it feels familiar. I’m hoping if I write it down fast enough, I will remember. I don’t really like remembering my nightmares, but this is starting to drive me crazy.
Entry 2
There are purple plants near the Mystery Building. It’s also built into some kind of cliff. I still don’t know what the thumping is, but it might be metal.
Whenever that building comes up in the dream, I think I feel sad, for some reason.
Entry 3
The peaceful night where I didn’t dream (or didn’t remember at least) must have been a fluke. It was worse tonight.
It was the lab one again. I dreamed about him too. In the dream he wanted to take apart my legs. Not just skin grafts like he would do. He… did it, too. In the dream. It hurt enough (in the dream way) that I screamed.
I woke up Master Tighnari again.
Entry 4
There’s often a crackle of electricity. I think that is what it is, anyway. I wasn’t paying attention to it before but Cyno was over today and I thought to ask him to demonstrate again just in case. It sounds the same.
I don’t know where it’s coming from.
Entry 5
I think the clanging is swords.
There was a different man in the dream. Someone nice looking but one I don’t recognize. Maybe my brain made him up?? He was holding a sword.
He looked happy.
I was still sad.
Entry 6
He showed up again. It was the worst one. I… don’t think I want to write this one down.
Entry 7
I woke up Master Tighnari screaming again.
I thought I heard someone else scream too, but Tighnari assured me that it was just me.
Entry 8
This was another confusing one. Maybe not in a bad way? I’m not sure. I had a feeling it was another bad one but then the electricity got so loud that the purple got overwhelming and then it turned into a void. One with monsters. A lot of them.
I couldn’t move. I don’t think I screamed this time but it was suffocatingly bad.
The dream changed before it got worse though. It’s fuzzy. I think it changed to a sunny, green rainforest, which meant it was a good dream.
There’s a tune stuck in my head but I don’t remember much of it.
Entry 9
Lab again. More vaulted ceilings. And a lot of tubes. More than there should be…
And then it happened again.
I wish I could only dream of the rainforest. Or not dream at all.
Entry 10
He keeps taking my heart out.
And making me hold the box.
Entry 11
…Lab again. Normally I’m just really scared in my dreams (Master Tighnari says this is normal, because my subconscious doesn’t have the same logic) but I think I’m angry too. In the dream, I mean. (I am angry that I’m having them at all, but that’s not really special.) I probably did enough cursing in the dream to make even Cyno be disappointed. (I wished I remembered all of what was said. I think there were new ones in there.)
There were other people this time too… At least, people other than him. Made up ones maybe because I don’t recognize them and it was kind of blurry. And cold? Is it possible for dreams to have a temperature? My room feels the same as it has always been. Then again. I get goosebumps sometimes when I’m not cold. I’ve been waking up with them lately… Or getting them thinking about it.
I think I gave them to myself now.
I really want this to be over…
Entry 12
The void is full of Abyss monsters. Rift-hounds, hilichurls, worse… I have a feeling it should have been a scarier dream, but this time the dream logic (?) kicked in or something. I don’t know. I spent the entire dream fighting them and doing a good job at it.
But the weird part is… I fought them without my bow. And with only… electro?
I don’t think it was Cyno in the dream.
Entry 13
Weird building again. The man with the sword was there again. I think he had brown hair and a blue cap on…? The details are fuzzy, but I really don’t think I know someone like that. A stranger I’ve seen in passing, before?
He was nice in the dream. I think. I can’t think of anything he did other than smile and talk.
I woke up angry at him, for some reason.
Entry 14
I’m not that good at drawing, but I tried to sketch that weird place. Cyno and Tighnari both suggested that I show it to Kaveh when we all met up for dinner, so I did. (I could tell he was trying really hard not to judge my poor drawing...) He seemed interested in figuring it out with me, though. He said he would look into it! Also that he thought he recognized (what I could draw) of the architectural style being… not Sumeran at all.
Entry 15
Another bad night. …the heart again.
But.
I don’t think it’s mine.
(That might make it worse.)
Entry 16
Kaveh said he would send a message to me and Master if he found anything, but he came all the way to Gandharva Ville instead.
I’ll admit I couldn’t keep up with everything he was saying. He was doing that thing where he talked really fast and kind of rambled about his thought process, and even Master Tighnari made him slow down. He went from looking into styles to looking for the building itself. Apparently… It’s real.
He showed me a picture. There are differences, I think, but it was really similar to what I kept dreaming about. Which makes it freakier.
It’s called the Mikage Furnace and it’s in Inazuma. I’ve never been to Inazuma before, or anywhere close! I don’t think I saw pictures either.
…it’s really weird.
Entry 17
The heart isn’t mine.
The voice that would scream and curse in the lab… I don’t think it was mine either.
Entry 18
There is someone standing in the snow. Sometimes it was me, and sometimes… it wasn’t. I could look to the side, in blurry dream vision, and see him. Pale white skin and purple… The electro sound comes from him.
I tried to reach out to him, but he scoffed and flew away, dissolving before the dream ended.
I have a really bad headache today. Not even Master’s medicine worked.
I’m going to lay down again. I don’t know if I want to fall asleep or not…
Entry 19
I think if I don’t write this down quickly, I will forget.
The Abyss monsters were back. This time I was aware it was a dream and I looked for that man again. Boy? I think he was older. Still couldn’t see him well. It was all very intense (and bloody) but I pushed past that and tried to follow him, or catch him, or something.
Then everything turned green again.
The dream changed. I was chasing a black cat instead of a man, and the cat ran and hid behind a giant tree. As I write this, I can’t recall anything about the tree, except that it was beautiful.
A small hand stopped me from getting any closer, to the tree or the cat. It sounds silly to write this, but I think it was… the Dendro Archon. It feels wrong to call her anything else.
She thanked me for finding the cat and told me that I didn’t need to worry and that she would take it from there. Then she sent me to a new dream, full of kind animals and bright rainforests and flowers.
Entry… 20???
I don’t remember making this journal. Neither does Master Tighnari.
I don’t remember any of this at all…