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It was Christmas.
As it turned out, my dad and Elizabeth, Lila’s mom, were very serious. That night I met the two of them, they told me they were living together. Lila was sleeping in my old room. If I’m being honest, the entire experience hurt. It made me miss my mom. But I know my dad deserved to move on.
At work, I managed to keep my distance from Sebastian…usually. There was this one night where…
Okay so it was really cold outside and there was a torrential downpour. It was raining so hard, that we had to close early. Everyone went home, except for me. As head chef, my duties had multiplied overnight and one of them was putting in an ingredient order list. I was counting the number of pomegranates we had left when the lights went out. The back up generator kicked in and I walked out of the pantry into the kitchen where Sebastian was messing with a fuse box.
“It’s getting bad out there.” I said
“We might be locked in.”
“What?”
“The new gates I put in only open if there’s electricity to power them”
“We can go out the front”
“But our cars are still inside the gates”
“We’ll uber”
“I can’t get a signal on my phone and the generator prioritizes the fridge and the freezer. Not the WiFi”
“So…sleepover?”
“I have a couch in my office you can sleep on”
I sighed and followed him into his office. He sat in his chair and I sat on the couch
The light of the lamp on his desk flickered. We talked to break the awkward tension. I told him about mom, dad and his new girlfriend, Belly and Conrad. I even got into the messiness between us three. He gave me a sympathetic look. I told him it was all in the past. He told me about his life. How he came from nothing and built his wealth. How his parents were both gone; his father when he was a toddler, and his mother when he was 8. He told me about growing up in foster care, and made me cry with some of the things he experienced. It got late into the night. I was laying down to sleep and I kept shivering. There was no heat and the chill from outside was creeping in from every crack. He saw me shaking and got on the couch with me. He wrapped his arms around me. I told myself it was platonic. The next morning, we were spooning and I pressed myself back against his morning wood. I told myself it was an accident. He shifted a bit, his hand moving down to my member. I kept grinding against him. He pressed himself into me. I was getting so hard I felt my precum dripping onto my thigh. We kept grinding against each other until I climaxed from the erotic tension. But kept grinding against him. He kissed the back of my neck and when he climaxed, he squeezed me tight.
We laid there for a while until he let go and got up. I went home and jerked off until I couldn’t cum anymore.
A couple of days after that, he brought a guy to the restaurant. They were dating, he said. I shouldn’t have been jealous but I was. Deeply so. I haven’t talked to him since, but I, embarrassingly, have tried to seduce him. Pressing myself against him as he walks behind me, accidentally grazing his member as he tells me his commands. He started calling me “Jerbear” once he got the new boyfriend. He uses it in front of everyone. They all think it’s a funny little nickname.
Anyways, it was Christmas now and my dad had invited everyone over to his house for a party. He invited Sebastian too. Adam was still angling to get Sebastian to be his client.
Sebastian brought his new boyfriend.
I was so unreasonably angry. I spent most of the night drinking. Belly kept asking me what was wrong but I couldn’t bring myself to tell her.
Later in the night, we started playing board games. Lila needed a place to sit so I invited her to sit next to me. She was so bad at every game that I couldn’t help but laugh. Honestly, it made me feel better. We had too many people when we started playing Chameleon, so I asked if she wanted to team up. She was so relieved to finally have some help. Elizabeth decided she wanted to play too, and I offered for Lila to sit on my lap so Elizabeth would have a spot to sit.
Lila happily took her place on my lap. I don’t know why I offered, maybe I was a little too tipsy. We started playing and every time she laughed, she’d wiggle on my lap. It took everything in me to not get hard. I didn’t want to be a creep.
When we finished, Elizabeth pulled out Twister, Lila’s favorite apparently. Only she wanted to play. Everyone else moved on to talking about their lives. She sat there pouting and my drunk ass decided to play too.
Sebastian said he’d spin for us.
It started off innocent enough but eventually we were in very compromising positions. She was on all fours in front of me and I could see up her tiny skirt. Her underwear was light pink except for a dark spot that gave away how wet she was. I looked away. But the next position was much worse. I could barely hold my balance and I fell on top of her.
She giggled and wrapped her leg around me. I tried to get off but just then I saw a look of pure jealousy in Sebastian’s eyes. It was exactly what I wanted. I looked down at Lila and pressed myself down against her. She lifted her hips to grind against me. I looked back at Sebastian but by now he’d walked away. I got off of Lila but she stayed on the ground looking up at me, her legs parted.
I adjusted myself and looked around. Thank god nobody noticed. I rejoined the others. Told them I lost.
Adam decided to butt in “yet another loss for Jeremiah”
That started him down a gallery walk of my greatest failures. I got up and went to get another drink. On my way back to the group, I heard their laughter and decided to go to my old room instead. I flopped onto the bed and sipped my beer. I heard the door open. It was Lila. I was shocked for a moment then remembered it was her room now. I went to explain myself but she ran over and jumped on me.
Lila said “please don’t go. I swear I won’t tell anyone. Just please..” she started grinding against me. “Please!”
I looked at her in shock. She took her shirt off. She wasn’t wearing a bra. I finally came to. “No. No, Lila, get off of me
She wiggled and I tried to get her off when she pulled off her own underwear. I flipped on top of her and went to get up, but she grabbed me and pulled me back down. She got back on top of me and the sudden motion made my head spin. I was too drunk for this. I waited for the room to stop spinning and by now she had pulled down my pants and I felt her mouth on my member. I sat up and tried to pull her off but I felt her try to bite me when I did. I laid back in the bed and shut my eyes tight. I told myself this wasn’t happening. When I opened my eyes again, I saw my ceiling fan. It was on. There was a light in the room. I realized where I was. I realized when I was.
I was a kid again. I felt something around my member. Someone. But I was too scared to look at who. I started crying. “It hurts” I heard myself saying.
I shut my eyes tight again and I heard Christmas music coming from downstairs. Lila was on top of me, riding me. She leaned over and tried to kiss me but I moved my face. She pulled my head back towards her despite my resistance and I felt her tongue in my mouth. She pulled away and grabbed my hands, put them on her boobs and kept riding. She climaxed and kept riding until she climaxed again. She laid on top of me, out of breath, and I wanted to die.
She eventually got off of me, and I peeled myself out of the bed and found my pants. I put them on and stumbled out of the room. The stairs looked like they were twisting and I walked down carefully but I missed stepped and fell.
I heard running. I couldn’t move. Didn’t want to move. I felt familiar hands helping me up. It was Sebastian. He saw the dried tears in my face and the tears welling in my eyes. He hugged me, and I hugged him back tight.
Sebastian: what happened?
I knew if I was going to tell anyone, it was going to be him. But I didn’t want him to think I was pathetic. I kept hugging until he let go. I wiped my face and went back to the others. I sat down.
Lila came down the stairs a moment later and sat on me again. Maybe she did that because I had offered it to her first. Maybe she did all of that because of the signals I must’ve sent. I couldn’t remember if I told her to stop or not. Did I ever say no? I looked at Lila and she smiled at me. Did I finish? Did I cum inside of her? I could barely feel my hands. I wanted to cry again. Instead I got up to leave. I couldn’t stand it. I couldn’t stand being here anymore. I grabbed my car keys and Belly walked over. “You’re not seriously going to drive drunk are you?”
“No…” her words hit me “no, no of course not.”
Adam walked over “you can stay the night here.” My face blanched. My mind ran wild with the possibilities of everything Lila could do.
“No. I just..I need a ride.”
Sebastian said “I can take you home”
Belly and Conrad offered as well. Of the two options, I wanted Sebastian. But I knew I had to choose Conrad and Belly.
I got into the back seat of their car and laid back.
Belly turned and looked at me “did you take something? Why are you so out of it?”
Conrad said “it’s Jeremiah. Of course he took something.”
I ran through the drinks I had that night. What if Lila messed with one of them? No. That’s crazy. I’m making Lila into a monster. She’s just a girl. I probably drank too much.
I looked at Conrad’s eyes in the rear view mirror. “Did something happen to me?…when I was a kid?”
Conrad caught my eyes in the mirror. “What are you talking about?”
“I just…I feel like I remembered something tonight and I don’t know…um…did something happen?”
“Yeah. You were dropped on your head.”
Belly stifled a laugh and turned to me. “What was the memory Jere?”
I can’t tell them. But my mouth opened and I heard myself saying “I was in the bed”
I stopped myself there.
“In the bed doing what?” Conrad asked
If I told them to drop it now, they wouldn’t. I covered my eyes. “I was in the bed. Staring at my fan. And I felt someone touching me and it hurt.”
Conrad got quiet and Belly looked at him then reached her hand back and touched my arm. In my mind, she was that little girl again with the glasses. The little girl who would’ve broken into tears if I had told her this. Had I told her this? I lowered my hand and looked at her. She looked so worried and saddened.
Conrad finally broke the silence. “You just drank too much.”
Maybe he was right. I closed my eyes. I didn’t want to be me right now. And I fell asleep and didn’t wake up until Belly shook me awake in front of my house. She and Conrad helped me inside. Conrad all but carried me and Belly opened my bedroom door. Conrad laid me on the bed. I curled up and went back to sleep.