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1. know it's for the better / no, it's for the better by selfishambition

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   03 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Depression
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Past Character Death
   • Parental Suicide
   • Child Abuse
   • Homophobia
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Secret Relationship
   • Sochi 2014 Winter Olympics
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Recovery
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Therapy
   • Getting Together
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Dissociation
   • Self-Harm
   • Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Dementia
   • Character Study
   • Found Family
   • Long-Distance Relationship
   • Backstory
   • Bisexual Ilya Rozanov
   • Protective Shane Hollander
   • Rivals to Lovers
   • Heavy Angst
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort

   Summary

   Ilya Rozanov has been carrying his mother's ghost since he was twelve years old.

   Sochi is where the weight finally breaks him. Russia is eliminated in the most humiliating loss in their history, and their captain sits on a twelfth-floor balcony railing thinking about letting go.

   Shane Hollander has a gold medal game in fourteen hours. He comes anyway.

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