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The quiet after Hawkins fell was wrong.
It wasn’t the peaceful stillness of a town finally at rest. It wasn’t earned. It sat heavy, like the air before a thunderstorm that never came, like the town was holding its breath and waiting to see who would notice first.
For the Party, the aftermath was a blur of grief and static. Max was back, but the price had been astronomical. Eleven was gone.
The realization hit Dustin Henderson with the force of a physical blow. It never softened. He woke up braced for it now, the way you brace for pain you know is coming. He was already drowning in the wake of Eddie’s death, a grief he carried with him like a stone in his pocket. Now, he had to fold El’s death into that same dark space. It felt like the permanent end of his childhood. He had stopped being a "kid" a long time ago, but now the transition into adulthood felt like a forced march toward a cliff.
Dustin never said it out loud. It felt like a betrayal to his friendship with Mike and Mike’s connection to her, but he felt he and Eleven understood each other in a way the others couldn’t.
They were the weird ones. Eleven had her powers, her shaved head, and her laboratory scars; Dustin had his cleidocranial dysplasia, his late-coming teeth, and his "misfit" status that had made him a target long before he ever met a Demogorgon. They both knew what it was like to be stared at. They both knew the specific sting of being looked at as something different or broken.
He should have told her. He should have sat her down and told her that she wasn't just the group's "mage" or "superweapon.” Eleven was his peer. He felt the same guilt he felt for Eddie. Eddie knew he was loved, deep down, but El? El had spent her whole life wondering if she was a monster. Maybe that was why she’d sacrificed herself so readily. Maybe she thought her life was a fair trade for a world that never quite knew where to put her.
Now, Dustin saw her everywhere.
He saw her in the school cafeteria, in the empty seat where she should’ve been, worrying about geometry quizzes instead of the end of the world. He caught glimpses of her in his friends’ faces—Mike’s dark hair, Max’s smile, Will’s eyes—and every time, it felt like reaching for something that vanished the second he noticed it.
He wondered, for a long time, if she’d survived.
They’d searched. Of course they had. They’d followed every lead, chased every rumor, combed every scorched field and half-collapsed building. The official story said she was gone. Sacrificed. A hero.
Dustin hated that word.
Heroes were stories you told after the fact, when you couldn’t bring someone home.
While the rest of the world tried to pivot away from that day, while the town put up an "Upside Down" memorial and his friends discussed graduation, Dustin felt stuck. He had college applications spread across his desk, looming like a threat. In five months, he would be gone. He was looking at schools out of state, somewhere far from the smell of sulfur and the pits in the asphalt. He couldn't stay in a town that was just a map of everything he’d lost.
Maybe then, he could move on like everybody else.
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If Dustin wasn’t screaming in his sleep, he wasn’t sleeping at all.
It had been like that since Eddie died, when all he saw in his dreams were demobats tearing Eddie limb for limb. He could hear the leathery wings like it was yesterday. He could feel the blood staining his hands crimson. And now, he saw Eleven’s face staring at them as the Upside Down ultimately swallowed her up. He usually woke up with his throat raw, the echo of a name he couldn't save still hanging in the air.
Tonight shouldn’t have been any different.
Dustin had been sitting at his desk, attempting to focus on his college applications and picking out a major. He couldn’t decide between astrophysics and engineering. He loved both, an easy way to distract himself and fall into what he loved most: science.
Now, the letters on the pamphlets blurred into unrecognizable shapes. His eyelids felt like they were lined with sand. He leaned back and looked up at the ceiling. The glow-in-the-dark stars were still there, faint but stubborn. Exhaustion finally won. He didn't even make it to the bed; he just slumped forward, his head resting on his arms on a sea of college brochures.
He didn’t know when sleep hit him, but his dream was different. The transition wasn't like a normal dream. There was no "falling" sensation.
Suddenly, Dustin was standing in a vast, dark void. The ground was a thin layer of cold, black water that didn't splash when he moved. It was a place of absolute nothingness.
"Okay," he whispered, his voice sounding thin and tiny. "Cool. Awesome. This is just a stress-induced hallucination. Standard stuff, Henderson. Keep it together."
Then, someone called his name.
“Dustin.”
The voice didn't come from behind him; it seemed to vibrate through the water at his feet. He spun around, his heart hammering against his ribs like a trapped bird.
It was impossible.
Eleven was standing a few yards away. She looked different—not the girl from the final battle, but not quite the girl he remembered either. Her hair was short and jagged, her face thinner. Her eyes—gosh, her eyes—were focused on him like he was the only solid thing in the world.
His chest ached. Tears burned.
"El?" The name broke in his throat. "No. No, it can’t be you.”
She took a step toward him. She didn't walk so much as glide, her bare feet barely disturbing the surface of the black water. The air between them felt charged, like the moment before a lightning strike. He could see the tiny freckles on her nose, constellations like the stars on his ceiling. It was too detailed for a dream.
“I didn’t know who else to try,” she said, fast, like she was afraid the sentence might fall apart if she didn’t finish it quickly. She reached out, her fingers trembling.
He took a step toward her. The ground didn’t feel like ground, but it held.
“This is a dream,” he said, because that was the safest explanation. “I’m dreaming. Or I finally snapped, which—honestly—long time coming.”
Dustin froze as she stepped into his personal space. "El, you're dead. We saw it. We searched for weeks."
"I am not dead, Dustin," she said, her voice gaining a sudden, terrifying clarity.
She reached out and gripped his shoulder. Her hand wasn't cold like a ghost’s; it was burning hot, a searing heat that felt like a brand through his shirt. It was the most real thing he had felt in months.
Then, suddenly, the heat flared into a blinding white light, and Dustin’s eyes snapped open.
He was back at his desk, gasping for air. His heart was racing, and his room was silent. But as he clutched his shoulder, he could still feel the faint, lingering warmth of her fingers through the fabric of his shirt.