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I remember falling, it felt like there was no bottom just infinitely spanning darkness.
So this is how it ends
I remember a fight.. I think it was between Susie and Kris maybe Ralsei was involved I remember it was a bad fight I know it was because of me or maybe Kris too now that I think about it something to do with the Knight.
Now I remember, we were going into the bunker after finally getting all the codes,we didn't know what we would find maybe a passed out officer Undyne but no; it was just dark;dark that kept getting darker and darker and darker.
A thud is what breaks me out of my thoughts, I open my eyes and see what looks like a floor or at least what feels like it.I look around and my eyes immediately focus on the one thing in front of me;Kris
They were just laying there almost almost like a corpse; “No…no…no!! Not them!!” they couldn’t be dead they couldn’t be.I know full well that you cant really die in a dark world…right?
“Kris!” I yell to them hoping they would wake up just from that “Kris please wake up,we’re away from the Knight but I need you to wake up!!”I yell again,but they didn’t respond. Something was pricking at my eyes but I ignored it as I summoned what little strength I had to stand up and yell “Susie!! Ralsei!! Anyone!! Please!!!”I yell to the top but inevitably my legs give out as I’m m brought to my knees “Kris..needs you”I whisper hoping someone maybe Kris would hear it…
but nobody came…
I finally register the felling welling up in my eyes, it takes me a second to realize their tears as I wipe them away.Kris would want me to focus,really focus instead of just interacting with every nook and cranny for a line of funny text.I need to stay strong for Kris.I promised them I would, I promised them their freedom and I would like to honor that promise but; I can’t t do it right now,not like this. Thats when I notice something,it manages to break me out of mental rant and force my eyes off of Kris.A different line of text floats infront of me,something only I can see and one I’ve become very familiar with from countless deaths that Kris doesnt remember but I do.
GAME OVER
Give up ❤️ Give up
It’s giving me a choice, a choice I dont want to make, a choice I reuse to make, Im not giving up on this world yet. Im not giving up on Them yet. I look around,I don’t know what I’m looking for but I hope it’s s something that can help,something that can help Them,but all I see is debris and shards of what looks like Kris health bar that appears in battles,by the looks of it Kris is swooned
-999/360…
I feel tears well up again. I look forward at my options; both end up the same…
A flicker…another flicker from the font…
my curiosity gets the best of me and I reach out towards the Give up option to the left of me.thankfully it doesnt shroud this world in darkness like I was told it would do, instead it moves.
Instead of pressing on it like I would usually to interact with a prompt I move it to the side and behind it was a white star.Glowing brightly I reach out and hold it in my hands.I can interact with it, curious I decided to try something.
Act
use ❤️info toss
*Rhapsotea A smooth, silvery drink.it sounds like whispered singing as it;s poured
I almost drop the star but was able to quickly catch it in my hands,afraid it might shatter.These were Kris’s items. I turned my gaze unnaturally quickly towards Kris and with trembling hands and feet crawled towards them and put the little white star near their mouth unsure how to do this.surprisingly their mouth parted more to quickly chomp down at the little white star which caused me to jump backwards at the sudden movement.it was almost instant like if you were focused on something else you would miss it but my full attention was on Kriss lifeless body as a green line of text appeared above Kris’s head.
+115
I look down looking for a piece of Kris’s shattered health bar and see that it was able to heal them,as it changed their health to HP -884/360.
My mouth was wide open in shock maybe because of the sudden movement of Kris’s mouth chomping down on the little star or because said star managed to heal them I didn’t know but as I stood there my mouth slept turned into a hopeful smile.“okay”I say as I slowly rise up to my feet slightly wobbling from a lack of energy,as I do I gaze back at Kris and whispered “hang in there Kris.just please hang in there.help is coming”as I flash a smile for myself to get me in a positive mindset.
Memories.thats what invades my mind as pick at debris looking for the items that had scattered in this void.a memory back at Kris’s house in their bedroom after the events at the Church came flooding back to me.
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“Are you okay?” I ask to them as they climb in through the window they previously leaped out of. “Why do you care?”They say in a very hushed voice but just enough that I could hear them.they dont talk much they are rather silent usually I just have their facial expressions to work with but their voice…
their voice is just beautiful…
it feels like an addiction I can’t get rid of no matter how hard I try not to think about it. Its something that can stay and replace everything thats in my head.it feels warm even in the confines of the bird cage.
“W-what do you mean?” I stammer out as their face tells me I was taken out of it for a while to get them annoyed.it feels hotter all of a sudden.their expression changes from something stern to something that resembles confusion “why do YOU care so much about me” they give me a gaze that I had barely seen,a mix between confusion and something else,I barely notice anything else as they walk towards me and grip their hands on the cage startling me “I have been very clear about how much I hate you so why do you care about whether Im hurt,starving or dying” it felt like they wanted to yell that part but were afraid Sans and Toriel mightve heard but I doubted it;the music they were playing was loud enough to drown everything else out.
They have a point though these past few days they have ripped me out of their body,hit me with a hockey stick,scared me to death with a hockey puck,and have been keeping secrets from me and their friends.but despite all that I see someone that is hurting.from what?maybe Dess,maybe me,or maybe something else entirely, still I give them an answer. “I know this isn’t convenient for either of us but;while were both linked together I want to see this through,I want to see how this story ends not because of some need to be apart of this world,but because I want to make sure that however this story ends that it will be ok for you,that you will be ok at the end of this”
I look for their face for anything that might give away what they are thinking but eventually I decide to look away as their gaze makes it hard to focus,especially when their eyes are trained on me like that. They eventually turn away as well and sit on the edge of their bed,just sitting there in silence…
I hate when theyre silent,at times it’s understandable but this, this! Is just infuriating,I have been truthful to them ever since I had found out that I was controlling them,yes I know it’s hard to apologize for possessing you for a whole day but over these past few days I have been trying to rack my brain how to properly apologize to you.but every time I make an attempt you shove me back in your body and make me move on with the day.
“Ok” I say as a sigh I didnt realize I was holding was let out “at least answer me this…please”I wait a second to make sure they are listening,when I realize they are I take a deep breath and ask “is this about De-“
I dont get to finish that sentence as Kris grips at the cage and throws it to the other side of the room as I yelp out of shock and at the slight sensation of pain “Aghh! Kris!! What was that f-“ I stop dead in my tracks as I look over at Kris their eyes on full display,Bright Red and glaring right at me.They continue their assault by picking up the cage and throwing it again at the wall causing another cry of pain from me “Kris please sto-“ I dont get to finish it as they kick as hard as they can at the cage,at me.
“Kris!!! I can barely feel this!!!”I yell to try to get through to them
“your jus-agh!! Hur-ugh-ting yourself!!!But they dont listen,they refuse to listen they continue to kick at the cages bars, I notice they are starting to bend
“Kris!! I said I cant feel this y-your just h-hurting y-yourself!!” But they didn’t respond “I-im sorry!! I wont bring it up again please!!!”But they didnt respond
“Kris!!please, your going to k-kill yourself!!!”…
they staggered
They lift the cage above their hands and smashed it on the ground breaking the cage thus freeing me from the bars,the shock registered as I was back into the form of the soul,just when I though it was over they pounced on the soul trapping it between their hands and reached behind them and grabbed their knife and raised it above their head to strike. But before they could, I gripped their arm using what little energy I had to manifest my ghostly body to stop them I had stopped the knife from puncturing the soul and begged to Kris
“P-please…please stop…I cant s e e y o u d I e , y o u l l O n l y k I l l. Y o u r s e…” I lose my grip on my form and revert back to the soul with Kris still holding me down with knife in hand,I can read their expression clearly know:theyre hesitating.
I see what rage was left in them dissipate as they set the knife down beside them and gently pick up the soul holding it close to their face,close enough I could feel their warm breath.
“Kris?!” A voice calls out
Not good
“Kris, are you okay!?a concerned motherly voice calls out
Definitely not good
I watch from my limited perspective as Kris fumbles with themselves and the soul as Toriels voice and footsteps get closer, they were tired,their movements were a bit sluggish after taking out their anger on me after mentioning Dess;Im thankful they stopped I dont think I would move on if they did end up going through with it.Kris just as Toriel walks in through the door shoves the soul back inside and as they do Im met with Toriel face to face,a concerned expression is plainly seen on her face…
She looks around confused her eyes darting between the broken birdcage in the room and Kris themself.her face changes to a worried one to a more confused and an expression that looks like it would say “I can’t with this anymore I just can’t.”
that isn’t what she says but she still replys with saying “what…in the world are you doing? Do you know what time it is?” Her expressions cycle between too tired to deal with this tonight and a stern expression that is barely seen with Toriel
“what is the meaning of this mess?”I was a bit stunned at her expressions that I made Kris blurt out “I was fighting a ghost…”
…well technically I was telling the truth,I could already hear Kris’s disbelief at what I had just said to their mother
“…”
“…”
“well did you win?” She asks but still keeping a disbelieved expression on her face after what I just made Kris say.
I think me and Kris were both shocked at how she replied to our statement that I just said “yep completely kicked their ass”
her expression is still that of disbelief as I feel like trying to find away to jump out of Kris’s body and straight out of Kris’s open window but alas I can’t and it would be rude to explain why Kris’s soul had jumped out the window. And to my knowledge if left they would probably collapse after exerting that much energy on the soul,…on themself…
“…I see” she says as her face turns into that of a smile that is trying to understand why? “Thats…good dear I bet you showed that ghost what for”she replies with a smile “you should get to bed soon honey, it’s late. And I know its the weekend but you should get as much sleep as you can for the festival tommorow!”She replies giddily
“good night honey and maybe apologize to the ghost by the looks of it you roughed them pretty bad” she says as she chuckles to her own little joke and closes the door leaving me and Kris alone in their own room.
…im kinda shocked that worked.
I think both of us are.
I pace around the room to try and clear my thoughts when Kris crouches down to the ground and coughs up blood.Right,I try to check their stats but they just keep coughing,I could see in their eyes they were hurt as little tears threatened to fall from their eyes.i couldn’t do anything but watch and hope that it stops soon so i can check on how theyre doing.i know im probably the last person they want comfort from now but that doesn’t stop me from trying to comfort them as I tried to replace that burning sensation in their body with a comforting warm one,I listen as their breathing goes from scratchy and uneven to a set and even pace,I can feel them calm down not fully but just enough for them to get their bearings and allow me to check on them.
Kris. Ball of junk
LV 1. BlackShard
HP 3/20. Glass
$2. ❤️ Egg
HP 3/20…
they were that close…
I couldnt think
I couldnt focus
Why…why…why!!!
Why would they do that,why would they knowingly hurt themself to prove a point…
I dont understand, why wont they understand that Im trying to help them,trying to apologize,trying to set them free from my control.I feel tears prick at Kris face, theyre probably mine but could also be from Kris.
*you used the egg
It didnt affect their health at all…ok ok, maybe there’s something downstairs that can heal them up so I force myself (and Kris) to their feet.their legs feel weak,wobbly, almost like they can just give in on any moment but thankfully they didnt. As we stepped off the last step of the stair case I hobbled them towards the fridge hopping to find something to heal their pain, the fridge looked just about as empty as it did when they first returned home after the church except for the lone ketchup bottle standing defiantly inside the fridge.
I think I know how Kris was feeling in that moment,I felt it too at some points of my original life,I can’t remember what it was like but I recognized that feeling of discomfort of a complete stranger making themselves comfortable in your house, its one I mustve dealt with before in the past and that Kris is dealing with right now.to quote a friend very briefly,Im contemplating just drinking that smiling trashbags ketchup just for the sake of it but decided against it as I dont think Kris would enjoy drinking straight ketchup even if it did heal them but;thats when I noticed something lodged in the back of the fridge, a plate of something.I made Kris stretch their arm to the far reaches of the fridge and grabbed the mystery plate and mightve accidently(on purpose) knocked over the bottle of ketchup, no big deal.The plate of something was actually the plate of pancakes from the morning now wrapped in plastic wrap to keep them fresh
*Cold pancakes-Even though they’re cold, there’s a certain kind of warmth to them. These would have to do…
hopefully
*(You eat the Cold Pancakes)
*(even cold,they taste buttery and syrupy sweet. You felt your body de-tense)
HP 20/20
They're fine…
its okay…
they’re fine now…
I think to myself as I let out another breath I didn’t realize I was holding in.they’re ok they’re fine I keep repeating in my head as I make my way back to their room;when I do reach their room I try and tidy up the room a bit after our little scuffle and went to (attempt to)fix the birdcage;only the door of the cage was apparently broken so it was a quick fix,a few strands of duck tape should help as I set it down back on the wagon to the side of the room.
I stand idly in the middle and just sit them on the carpet…waiting.It seems they got the message as they carefully reached into their body and ripped me out but this time felt different,it felt gentle it was very different to how they usually ripped me out.Kris just stared at me they looked like they were waiting for something…
“why?” They started “why do you care about me? Why would anyone care about me? especially you? after that?”They were kneeling down keeping the soul in-front of them making me face them in return,oh that’s what they’re waiting for.
My form had manifested in front of them I was kneeling as well but refused to look them in the eyes. “its just like I said before…back in de-“ I hesitate finishing that sentence seeing how they almost flinched at what I was going to say so I just continued from there “back in Noelles house i was so confused on h-how you can think that no one could care about you in the slightest?there are always gonna be people who care about you, your just too focused on whatever your duty is you don’t even realize it!” I started slightly raising my voice “you are something really special Kris you just dont realize it yet” I sneaked a look at them and whatever expression was on their face, it was almost breathtaking. They looked taken aback from what I said as they were avoiding my eyes as well and I swear I could see a little hint of red on their cheeks. “You are something special to me…in a way that you can’t imagine,in a way I-I… dont think I should even be feeling this way about you…”
I think I was blushing,I could feel how warm my cheeks were but I continued on “maybe it was the heat of the moment,maybe I just blurted it out as you were hitting me with a hockey stick to try and get your attention but I meant it, I really did mean it!”I practically screamed that last bit as I looked up both me and Kris’s eyes locked in each other,and just as quickly as they were locked to each others eyes we both quickly turned away from each other blushing two different kinds of red. “…take that as you will Kris I’ll wait until your ready to tell me or when you trust me enough to tell me ,I’ll be patient I’ll see this story through to the end and we’ll do it together, I promise”
Kris doesnt respond for a while still looking the other way,maybe afraid that we might lock eyes again and that I’ll see them as red as an apple. just when I thought our heart to no-heart? Was over they respond this time very clearly in a way that captivated my full attention “you really think you can grant me my freedom Angel? And even if you did,would I even deserve it?” I was taken aback from how clear their voice sounded that I didnt speak for….maybe a minute and the way they said Angel…
It was intoxicating,it started off as a small nickname based on my appearance and it was only ever meant as a joke but they sounded so genuine, gone was the whisper and in its place was a silky,smooth voice that I want to hear again.
“I believe I can, and when I do,whatever strings may be attached to grant you your freedom I won’t hesitate to accept the terms.”I speak with what little bravado I had left to mask my own doubt in that statement. I think we had both decided that was enough for today,both of us had traveled at least to three different dark worlds,fight a Titan,sans, and what happened earlier so I decided to leave one last note before we stopped for the night “you were cool when you played the piano” that seemed to give me their full attention.It felt overwhelming but in a good way? Nevertheless I continued “both at Noelles house and at the church”
my knees were in front of my face as I continued trying to shield the growing warmth on my cheeks from them “your voice is nice as well, it’s calming and it feels like the real you, and not just well me taking over your body and forcing you to say random shit” I lift my head a bit to get a look at their face,they were blushing just as much as me at what I was saying about them,it was…
cute.
“but I don’t want you to talk more or play the piano just for me,I want you to play it because you are really great at it,you shouldnt play it for some…
parasite”
I say that last part quietly but I can see that Kris heard it because their expression changed to something of regret probably because that is what they had referred to me in the past before they knew that I didnt know I was controlling them and basically taking away their autonomy “w-what I-im trying t-to say is…”the words feel like theyre dying on my mouth but I forced myself to say them “you shouldnt talk or play piano just because I think your great at it”I see something like hurt on their face,it hurts me to see them this way so I push through again to say my final peace “you should talk or play piano more because Susie thinks that as well” their expression has changed and I dont need to look to know that it has “when all is said and done I probably wont be here to see you talk, to see you play piano...
and it’s good that I wont be around to see it because that means I wont need to be in this world because I-I know y-youll f-finally be f-free that y-you finally g-got your happy ending” I lift my head up a bit to see Kris in shock at what I just said,I can tell there were tears threatening to fall down from their face but they fought the urge meanwhile I let go,I let them flow down to show im being genuine to them
“so please when you finally get your freedom and Im long gone from this world like you wished, just play for her,play for them,not because of me, please”
I revert back to the soul that was still clenched between Kris hand,they still gripped me with generous amount of force but there was still a gentle stride behind it.I waited for Kris to toss me into the birdcage but I can feel them hesitate for a second,I thought they were crying,tears were threatening to fall earlier from them but; they would never be that vulnerable with me…
They had started walking towards the birdcage and instead of throwing me in the gently placed me down infront of the cage and waited for me to get in.I obliged and hovered inside and watched as they gently locked the door they kneeled down to the cage to say one final thing to me “Goodnight Angel” their face was so close to the bars of the cage not only could I feel their breath but I got to get a clear look at their face.their hair covered only one of their eyes but just one of those eyes was able to make me lost in their features, I could see that they had little freckles to the side of one of their cheeks maybe there were more freckles on their other cheek if it wasn’t covered by their hair and their hair though messy and unkempt just added to their charm that was infectious, they were absolutely breath taking if that wasn’t enough they layed a quick peck to the top of the soul leaving me to process what had just happened as I floated there stunned.
it was only when they had returned to their bed and proceeded to flop down on their bed face first that broke me out of my trance like state.ive never been thankful enough that my soul form doesn’t have any definitive features to give away my expression until now.
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HP -10/360
“No…”
“No no!”
“No no no!!”
“No no no no!!!”
I scream to the endless void. “Please no!!! There has to more,one more healing item, one more star that I had just missed please!!”.I had fed the last of the healing items that i could find amongst the debris I knew it was the last one,I knew that if this didnt bring Kris to full HP that they would…
they would…
“No…no!!! I refuse!!” I Yell in rebuttal “maybe I was remembering wrong Kris could always hold 14 items not 12 right?!” I ask to myself as I picked and tossed whatever debris that an item might be hiding with the rubble but to no avail. My breathing became ragged, uneven but at the same time felt like I was choking on something that wasn’t in my throat
“please no…
I can’t fail them…
n-not now please”
I knew I was trying to deny it,to give me hope I can still save them but deep down I know that this is the end,no big battle to the death,no happy ending,nobody to even watch how the tale of the Cage and the Angel ends…
…I screamed I don’t know how long I screamed but I screamed until my voice gave out,as I lay hunched over Kris’s body sobbing until there were no more tears to cry my pain,my suffering, “heh…heh…hehheheh…
hehahahahahahahaha!!”my crys became cruel laughter that resembling of a certain jester,is this the insanity that Jevil had talked about?…it wasn’t funny.it shouldn’t be funny.
“hahahahahhahahahahahahaha!!!...”it thankfully died down as layed down on my side in-front of Kris and buried my face into their neck I stayed there for who knows how long.long enough that my hysterical crying died to small inaudible whimpers.I managed to lift my head up from their neck and gaze forward at their face.they looked tired almost asleep but there was also something that looked like discomfort,maybe they were stuck in a bad dream, a dream I cant pull them out of,their hair was leaning to one side of their head which gave me a view of both of their eyes,they were both closed but I could imagine myself getting lost if only one of those eyes were opened and gazing right through me,I could see clearly they had little freckles on both sides of their cheeks which didn’t really help with their whole mysterious look but made entrancing nonetheless.i huff out a small laugh nonetheless
I try to tuck a strand of hair over their ears to get a better view of their face but my hand goes right through it,…
it doesn’t matter my knight is gone
the light is gone,
subsumed by the dark,
never to be found
“I-I’m s-s-sorry my Knight”
I cup their cheek and instead of going straight through them,it lingers on their skin,they feel cold, I try to think that if they were awake that they would saw my hand feels warm on their skin “I f-failed you I was supposed to set you free, I was supposed to see this to the end,”
the tears come back choking my voice “I don’t want this ending,not if your not here with me” I take in a large gust of air it almost chokes me “I said we would see the end of this story together, so wake up dammnit!!!” I yell once again hoping it would wake them up, hoping someone would hear me…
But nobody came…
“Please…”
Somebody came…
Somebody listened…
Somebody is interested…
HOW VERY VERY INTERESTING…