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1. Can I Dream For A Few Months More? by Swirlingdust

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

   • Not Rated
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   25 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Irina Rozanova
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Angst
   • Fluff
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Bathing/Washing
   • Author Is Sleep Deprived
   • Not Beta Read
   • English Is Not The Author's First Language
   • Title from a Mitski Song
   • I Wrote This While Listening to Mitski's Music
   • Hallucinations

   Summary

   Ilya is depressed, suicidal and lonely. After a few too many drinks he gets the courage to drown himslef in the filthy river that flows through Boston. The world is cruel and Ilya was done with it.

   Shane shows him the kindness that he thought was dead and helps him.

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   English

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