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Shane POV.
I feel like a Bus hit me turned around and hit me again.
But I think that is just how you feel if you get clocked while skating as fast as you can to just get a goal against your arch enemies team with the person on said Team who you slept with for nearly a decade, then had a pause because you dated another girl and said girl explains to you that you are gay.
And then the night before this game you talk with your situationship, I googled that, and admitted to him that you are gay and then fucked again after months of silence on both sides and sleeping with other people on both sides.
Actually I don`t know if he slept with another person but how he was at the party I think so.
Anyways these lights are too extreme and I think sometimes I fall asleep again and I don`t know for how long this is happening but i know that there is someone sitting beside me now.
“Ilya” my voice was raspy.
”Shane, how are you?” That wasn’t Ilya it was Hayden, my friend who doesn’t know about my situationship,and I said Ilya’s name right infront of him.
Fuck my life.
I blink because my vision was still blurred and through the blinking I can see Hayden better. “Water.” I just say because my voice is still sounding like sand in my throat.
Hayden POV.
Jessica insisted that I visit my best friend. Because his parents couldn’t come fast to him. And she didn’t want him to be alone when he wakes up and the kids also drew some pictures for uncle Shane because he was hurt. And here I am sitting beside my Teammate slash best friend and waiting for him to wake up and texting with Jessica. Yeah I mean most of the year I am away for games especially if we have mostly out games and not home games.
“-ya” came a raspy voice.
“Shane how are you?” I ask right away he seemed to realise something and that I wasn’t the person he hoped he would see by his side.
”Water.” He said again with this raspy, after surgery, voice and instantly I went to get him some water the nurses put on his side table with the straw, for when he wakes up.
And he drinks it. “For how long was I out?”
“30 hours, but you were in and out sometimes according to the doctors.I am here for just an hour after Jessica threw me out of the house to visit you and bring you the pictures of the kids.”
He smiled.
Then the door is opened and his parents came through it with a nurse that was here to check on his vitals.
“Hey mum and Dad.” “Hi sweety,” his mother answered, “and Hayden.” “Hello mister Hollander it is good to see you up again even if you were in and out sometimes, now that you are awake we will give you anther doses of pain meds. You have a fractured collarbone but if you had a harder hit it would be broken, with a mildly concussion.” The nurse said to Shane and then did I what she said she would and then left again.
Ilya POV.
This is just a visit to a captain from another Team that your Teammate clocked and not something other people could be suspicious of as long as I held this visit brief and just asked how he was and get out of there and then send him texts that he will hopefully answer. ”Hello, I am here to see Shane Hollander.” I said at the reception but my accent was clearly audible because of the stress this situation puts me through and not knowing if Shane is alright, and we had plans for last night and I threw some shit Marlows way for fucking this up.
”Name and relation to the patient?” He asked.
”Ilza Rozanov and I am here to apologise to him on the behalf of my Team for putting him in the Hospital mid game.” After I said this the man sitting behind the desk finally looked up to me.
“Oh mister Rozanov, nice of you to do this. Mister Hollander is in room 81.” And as soon as he finished his sentence and gave me the room that Shane is in. I went for the room he was in but as soon as it came into my view I saw that someone was already there and I shortly debated just to go away again and never come back but before i knew what to do I was pushing the door open after knocking on it.
“Ilya-“ Shane was cut of by Pike “Rozanov what are you doing here.” “I came to apologise, good sportsman no. Good you’re doing okay Hollander and Harlow is sorry. Didn’t want to hurt so badly.” I said my accent was less thick than it was when i talked to the man at the reception.
“It’s okay only bad that he ruined our plans for last night.” Shane said to me, and most likely was he full on pain meds because he seemed to have forgotten that we aren’t alone there was Pike and two people that are most likely his parents.
“Hollander I don’t know what you talking about.” My accent getting slightly thicker because this makes me nervous and Hollander will most likely have a panic attack after someone tells him this.
“Aww he’s trying to deny his feelings for me.”
“Hollander you are on meds, not making you think clearly will regret saying these things with your parents and Pike here.”
“ They won’t spill our secrets, and I will tell them that I am gay later.”
”You told them already, they are here.”
“But I am only gay for you.” He said, I don’t think he realised my word and the other people in the room stared between him and me with wide eyes and by Pike i sense a bit of anger but I think they don’t want to partake in this conversation anymore and leave the room and the mother drags Pike with her.
“Moy lyubimyy you outed us to your parents and Pike, Pike seemed not happy.” I said after they left but Shane signaled me to come to him by stretchings is arm, that wasn’t in a sling towards me.
”mhmmm…” was the only thing that came from him so I came after his request and hold his hand it was cold, it wasn’t under the blanket while he slept.
He still looked tried and he couldn’t really keep his eyes open and you could still see the blue marks around his nose and eyes. But his freckles were still there and I couldn’t keep me from touching them.
”I was gonna ask you-“
“Hollander.”
”Will you come to my cottage this summer. Don’t go to Russia. Come to my house. It’s so private. No one will know-“
”Your parents will know.”
”We could be completely alone. Together.”
”Hollander you know we can’t do that.”
”mmmmmmhmm…” Great now he is sad but If this ever gets out I can’t go back to Russia even if nothing holds me there anymore.
All I ever wanted is here with Shane, Moy limuibyy.
I wanted to lean over give him a kiss on the head or even the lips just to feel them on mine again. Because I can’t do that till next season and I don’t want to go out without a kiss.
We once didn’t kiss and it was too late to go after him, after I realised that. And I didn’t want to look desperate that was reserved for him, because he is the princess. And he deserves everything he wants and I know he just has to ask me for something and he would get it.
But then a nurse came in. You got to be kidding me.
“I hope you don’t try smother him with a pillow mister Rozanov.”
”No, but good thinking, I just was on my way out.”
And with that I go to the door but not without looking a last time at Shane.
“ Bye Bye.” Love, that is what I wanted to say.
Shane POV.
I hate this nurse. Because of her Ilya had to go.
And he wouldn’t see him again before the next season because he doubts Ilya will say yes without a great miracle and, gaining the guts trough said miracle. But I doubt it.
The nurse left again after checking my Vitals and no doses of pain meds. Which was good because Tey really fuck with your mind and I have the feeling that I said something very dumb in the beginning, but because my memory is foggy I don’t know what it is.
After the nurse left again I thought I could have some quiet piece for me because these meds make you really sleepy but that could also be because of my mild concussion.
But this quiet piece was disturbed by my parents and Hayden coming into the room looking quiet surprised, I would say or astonished but not really in a good way and Hayden looked a little bit stunned and angry.
“Shane sweety is there anything you would like to tell us.” My mother asked in a tone that they knew but wanted to hear it from me again.
“Yeah bro, when were you going to tell me that you have been hooking up with our enemie.”
Oh fuck.
Oh fuck.
Oh fuck.
Fuck my life.
I spilled a secret that was a careful built lie or more secret.
”So I… dn’t know what to tell you but Ilya wasn’t really my enemie but the Media said we were enemies just because we were the two most promising players drafted in Teams that were archenemies. It’s not really our fault. We never hated each other.”
”But you had a girlfriend and hooked up with other girls and what about Lily- don’t tell me.”
“So yeah I had a girlfriend but now we are only good friends because she helped me coming to terms with being gay in one of the most Homophobic workplaces you can have. She wanted to hook me up with one of her guy friend that were also gay but U declined because I had Ilya and even when we weren’t speaking at that point. Coming together with another man felt like cheating so I talked with him and we decided to go on as we normally did, because it wouldn’t be save for him to go back to Russia if we were out with our relationship.”
They seemed to understand why we did what we did.
”That’s cool, and I’m sorry if I ever gave you the feeling that you couldn’t talk about these things with me, and if someone on the Teams knows and gives shit about it I will deal with them personally and also with Royanov if he ever breaks your heart or gives you shit.”
came from Hayden I never really thought that about him but I reallz had to come to terms with it first and I didn’t know how he would react to the whole sleeping with your ‘worst’ enemie of all time.
“We are sorry too sweets but if I may ask for how long has this been going on.”
”Since that campaign that we did together before our rookie year but we aren’t dating or anything just meetin up when we are in the same town and fore you ask, no I would never let him win because even if we are prod of each other when the other wins, we both want to win every game we play .”
Ende