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1. The (Worst) Fucking Feeling by AmethystButterfly

   Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America - All Media Types, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies)  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M, F/M
   • Complete Work

   08 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • James "Bucky" Barnes & Natasha Romanov
   • Steve Rogers & Natasha Romanov
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • Clint Barton/Natasha Romanov
   • Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Steve Rogers
   • Black Widow Program (Marvel)
   • Bucky Barnes Trained Black Widows in the Red Room
   • Natasha Romanov is a Black Widow (Marvel)
   • Winter Soldier Bucky Barnes
   • Bucky Barnes Recovering from Being The Winter Soldier
   • Steve Rogers as Captain America (Marvel)
   • Past Bucky Barnes/Natasha Romanov
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • POV Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Recovery
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • CPTSD
   • Trauma
   • Childhood Trauma
   • Angst
   • Identity Issues
   • Natasha Romanov Needs a Hug (Marvel)
   • Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug
   • Past Child Abuse
   • past suicidal ideation
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Forgiveness
   • Tenderness
   • lots of tea & coffee
   • Misogyny
   • Ballet
   • Canon-Typical Winter Soldier Trauma (Marvel)
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • Angst and Humor
   • Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con
   • Healing

   Summary

   Natasha is the Black Widow. A goddamn Avenger. She clawed her way to the top and she intends to stay there. She does not have issues with Barnes. Everyone who says she's noticeably colder towards the most recent addition to the Avengers is projecting. She's a professional. And she certainly doesn't trip over ghosts from her past.

   (Or: the introspective superspy recovery fic about Natasha and Bucky's complicated past)

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   English

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