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it's the very moment you were brought onto this earth- in a way, this day is the embodiment of your life. your carving from another's flesh. you're choosing to share your life with someone else in a different way, but soulfully nonetheless. this is your life. you come across your lifelong friend on this day. smile seeming brighter than before. you've never noticed that their hair reflects so well in the sunlight. and from this day, you decide your life is finally theirs too.
The connection I feel isn't just a bond but our heart and souls connected. I don't doubt our relationship. I bathe in every interaction that we have. From the smallest touch to the hours of conversations.
thus, i devote my life to you. no, i share this life with you. i separated from my mother's blood solely to merge my own with yours. please accept me. please live with me. i don't even dare to say that- living implies that we will die someday and our souls will become stiff. there is no life nor death to us. from this day on, nothing exists except us. life does not drive us and death does not deter us from being. please, be mine. and let me be yours.
i never die. i may be separated from my body, but conscience never ceases.
I crave you. Not your body but you. I'll worship you like a god. Devote everything for you. I'll give you what I don't have. Just for you to see the way I see you. You glow under the sun.
and is it a coincidence that the sun that crowns your head resembles a halo? oh, i see what you are. don't turn me away. i'll become a god for you, too. kill me and let the scarlet run across your limbs. you'd look so divine while doing it. take what's truly me-my soul-and cherish it as you please.
It's everything and nothing around us. I feel like I'm floating with every word you say. The chaos and silence combine to bring us closer. I beg for more. What is there that is the same as this? Nothing. I would choose you over the world.
What is this feeling? It’s like being on top of the world when I’m with you. Even though I’ve never felt this before it’s felt like eternity with you. But not even that much time is long enough with you. You make me go to the peak of my high everytime I see you. You emit pure ecstasy everywhere you go. People stop just to bask in your presence. With each step you take gold seeps into the ground, yet your steps are light like snow. Whenever you glance at someone they melt under your eyes, but you never seem to notice. You're the high I’ve been looking for and it could never be enough.
I can’t help myself from picking it up.
I can't help but accept your embrace. Your soft skin as mine grazes yours. My body is moving on it's own. Mind against everything that's happening but somehow you help. I want to be mad but I just can't when your next to me.
i so desperately wish i could tell you what i want. yet, every word i speak feels like choking on my own blood. i don’t doubt you already know me beyond language, but what good am i if my mouth is for nothing? my mind consists of divine messages, and my body is the prophet that fails me.
This is beyond everything I've felt in any other life time. To finally be blessed with grace after a thousand years. I have nothing to compare to this. Every slight movement I understand. A miniscule adjustment of your face means so much to me. No one seems to understand when I try to explain it. This isn't love or lust. It's perfection in a human body.
in a way, this is also torture. i’m trapped within the language our own kind created. i cannot begin to describe the intricacies inside me, the exact manner of how universes form in my mind because of you. i cannot begin to live like this, or even end living like this. no one will understand, not you. i resent every word in the dictionary for keeping us apart, and i’ll flay the foundations of babel for us. but with you holding me like this, i believe we’re already halfway there.
This can't end. It won't. I'll make sure it doesn't. For me. No, for us. Even if someone steps between us, I'll do everything to make sure it's just us again. It doesn't matter that no one else understands when we have eachother. When we finally complete whatever the end is we'll be one. That's all I need from the world. That is my purpose. To be complete with you and no one else.
if it takes a million moons for us to get what we want, so be it. let the universe collapse on only us. let our blood melt together and flow against the abyss as a new galaxy. i say the big bang wasn’t the universe’s creation, but rather its transformation. never will it fall to such meaningless concepts like time.
Eternity means nothing when your in my arms. When the world around us crumbles; abyss or light I soak in you. We connect our souls become one. Breaths synced when my mind reads yours. Icy blue eyes locked with golden brown. Seeing what I need just from them. Holding you, you seem fragile yet your not.
this vivid imagery you’re describing- should it be heavenly or grotesque? one to some, another to the rest. grotesque in the way our individuality seeps away when your arm brushes against mine. if we become one, we cannot be two. if we are still two, i can never know what it’s like to experience my devotion. heavenly in the way we can finally be rid of words altogether. emotions flow through us the same. we both know we’ll sacrifice all semblance of ourselves to catch a glimpse of each other.
Whether it's grotesque or heavenly I know you see how I see. When our finger tips graze and shoulders bump we feel the same. I know we do. I yearn for true knowledge of this but at the same time I don't. I'm contempt yet I'm not at all. To be touching your face so lightly burns my skin and heart. People question it but we recognize what we miss in ourselves.