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1. but it’ll never be good enough, like I want to believe it is by drkr2pnt0

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Mature
   • Major Character Death
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   07 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Major Character Death
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Suicide
   • Angst
   • Depression
   • References to Depression
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Irina Rozanova Haunts the Narrative
   • POV Ilya Rozanov
   • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Character Study
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Angst with No Happy Ending
   • Emotional Hurt
   • Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms
   • Lack of Communication
   • Childhood Trauma
   • Psychological Trauma
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Heavy Angst
   • Sad Ending
   • Tragedy
   • Generational Trauma

   Summary

   Loving Shane Hollander changes Ilya Rozanov’s life.

   It does not save it.

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   English

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