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1. anything that's bad for me (you're killing me) by paris_is_not_burning

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M, Multi
   • Work in Progress

   09 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Yuna Hollander
   • David Hollander
   • Hayden Pike
   • Scott Hunter (Game Changers)
   • Rose Landry
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Eating Disorders
   • Anorexia
   • Shane Hollander Has an Eating Disorder
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • Good Parents David Hollander/Yuna Hollander
   • Relapses
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Eventual recovery
   • Following the timeline of the show but things are changed around a little bit
   • Anxiety
   • Protective Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov is Trying His Best
   • Explicit Eating Disorder Content
   • mentions of weight
   • Work In Progress
   • Love Confessions
   • Feelings Realization
   • Denial of Feelings
   • smut?
   • we'll see
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • He Just Doesn't Know It Yet
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • he kind of knows it

   Summary

   What starts as a post-loss ritual spirals into an all-consuming sickness that Shane was sure he had buried with his 17 year old self. Shane nonetheless believes that he can hide his ugly secret from the world- until Ilya uncovers all of the instabilities that even Shane himself would rather run from.

   OR
   Shane's anorexia relapses during his third season with the Metros, and Ilya is determined to help him (and not only because he's maybe in love with him).

   TW: Eating Disorders and explicit mentions of calories, weight, restrictive eating, relapses, and more. Please do not read this if you are not in a stable enough state to do so. Recovery is possible and necessary. Stay safe <3

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