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The envelope is simply titled "Gabe" in David's messy scrawl. The letter reads as follows:
Gabe, if you're reading this, I'm likely already gone. As much as it pains me to leave you, I have always known that I am not long for this world. Please take peace in the fact that this was no sudden decision, I was sober when I sat down to write this. I don't know if that makes it better or not. Please take care of yourself for me. I'm sorry I can't be there to hold you, but to tell the truth, these past few weeks I've felt so numb, I could barely register your touch. It was like a sign, almost, that things are coming to an end, as if this is the natural order of things. I don't want my last memories of us together to be tainted by that. I want to remember the happy moments with you. Thank you for being a guiding light in my life. I'm sorry that it was not enough. It's not your fault, Gabe, I can't help the way my brain works. I've always been like this, really, so it was only a matter of time. I apologise if I come across as selfish. You made me a better person, Gabe, but I am far from perfect. In time you'll realise that this was for the better. I love you, Gabe. I will always love you, more than you can ever imagine. I'm sorry.