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Disheveled, fluffy blonde hair. A faint, sweet scent of peach and raspberry body wash. A grey sleeveless tee and a pair of white pants hugging his slim body.
This is how Tomoya decides to appear in the dorm right after he takes a shower at night. Especially after he is done with hiding in the individual practice room, stressing out over the incomplete songwriting task even when he spent the whole day staring at his laptop and his messy notes.
Now, the clock points its tiny hands towards 12. Then, in a split second, the lights in his and Haru's shared room are unknowingly switched off by someone.
However, he remembered that the members were hiding something when he arrived at the dorm one hour ago. Tomoya obviously catches onto the situation really quick since today is his...
“1, 2, 3. Happy birthday, Tomoya!” A very loud cheer erupts from the living room when Tomoya opens the door and he sees his members showing him a cute birthday cake — a Ppomoya cake, which makes him feel so touched.
Haru, who is holding the cake now instructs Hyui to place the party hat on his head, while Yuki and Geon are busy blowing the colourful birthday whistles. Seita, on the other hand, guides Tomoya to sit on the chair near the table which is full with delicious cuisines specifically made for the birthday boy.
“Now, Tomoya, make your wish!” Yu says while he softly smiles at Tomoya.
As soon as he is done wishing for only good things to happen to himself, his members, the fans and his loved ones, Tomoya joyfully blows out the candles and starts admiring everything around the living room.
He sees some homemade meals placed in front of him, with karaage and okonomiyaki catching his full attention right now. He immediately knows that the official chefs of the team, Yu and Hyui must be the ones who cooked these Japanese dishes. I should try these first, Tomoya thinks to himself.
Tomoya also sees the decorations covering the wall, with some balloons spelling out his name and a happy birthday banner sticking on top of those alphabet balloons.
“All of you did these for me? Thank you, I'm so so so happy right now!” He then proceeds to embrace the members one by one in a possibly-bone-crushing hug, and only releasing them once they start complaining about them feeling suffocated by his overwhelming affection.
And the last member to be hugged by him is the oldest one, Yu.
You can call it having favouritism with the way Tomoya just warmly hugs Yu, rather than crushing all of his bones just like what he did to other beloved members of his.
All of a sudden, Tomoya hears something.
I'm also happy if he looks this happy.
“What was that?” Tomoya silently tells himself. It doesn't even seem like Yu says that out loud to him. As they loosen the warm hug, Yu delicately holds onto Tomoya's hands and gently rubs his thumbs on his pale skin.
I wish that we can stay like this a little longer.
Somehow, the lingering sensation of Yu's soft yet burning touches on his hands successfully sends a strong wave of electricity throughout his entire body.
Feeling clueless, Tomoya desperately wants to think more about those thoughts — to be exact, Yu's thoughts about him, that he just unexpectedly heard but he tries to ignore it for the time being.
—
“What is happening to me?”
Tomoya is sure that he heard everything correctly. He never saw it coming but he truly believed that he, somehow, could listen to Yu's thoughts. Or maybe, due to him being mentally exhausted on that day, he started hallucinating and thought that he had an ability to read someone's mind.
“Maybe I was so tired. Since that's so silly of me to suddenly have that kind of ability.” Tomoya just shakes his head in disbelief as he finds his way to the JYPE building.
Before arriving at the practice room, he decides to visit the JYP Soul Cup cafe and buy his favourite drink to ease his mind. As he is about to grab his drink, he accidentally touches the barista's hand and to his surprise, he surely can listen to what she is thinking at the moment.
Like always, Tomoya-nim looks so handsome even when he is not wearing any makeup.
Hearing the barista's honest thoughts about him makes him slightly flinch, which causes the barista to hurriedly retract her hand away from him.
The barista then nervously apologises to him, “I'm sorry, Tomoya-nim. I shouldn't touch your hand.”
“That's fine, thank you for making the drink for me.” Tomoya kindly sends a radiant smile to the barista, ensuring that it is not a big deal.
As he walks away from the cafe and starts heading to the practice room, he believes that he is not dreaming and it is indeed a reality.
—
Tomoya knows he needs to do research in secret in order to prove if he can really read someone's mind whenever he touches them, and if the effect is permanent or just temporary. It brings a big confusion to himself since his new ability that he acquired once he turned 20 seems like it is some kind of a mysterious myth. However, he still has no time to discover the truth yet.
Today, he decides to walk together with Yu and Haru to the company, since all three of them agreed to work on the choreography for their upcoming album. Standing in the middle of the dance duo, Tomoya thinks he has a chance to test it out.
Tomoya starts talking first, “Haru, what do you want for your birthday?”
“Wait, you can't do that! You need to give me a gift that you choose by yourself.” Haru whines as he points his finger at the blonde one.
Hearing the response from Haru, Tomoya giggles, “But, it would be easier if you tell me the things that I should buy for you.”
“That's not funny at all.” Haru says as he playfully hits the leader on the shoulder.
Once his roommate touches him, Tomoya quickly reads his mind, testing if he still has the ability.
You can buy me a perfume, you know. That's already good enough.
Nice, I finally knew the perfect birthday gift for Haru, Tomoya reminds himself.
Now, he nervously laughs as he tries to think of the best way to read Yu's mind. After a while, he decides on the easiest way to touch Yu.
Tomoya slowly holds Yu's left hand and intertwines their fingers, knowing that the older one would never reject his affectionate gestures even when they're in public. At the moment, he prepares himself to brace for the impact — which is listening to Yu's thoughts.
I want you to pay more attention to me. Not only this. I want more.
Tomoya unconsciously hums. He is still in denial, not believing that Yu actually has a feeling for him. Is he living in an anime world, where the strangest dreams can exist and haunt the main characters? Feeling frustrated, he then pinches Yu's cheek, wanting to wake up from this recurring dream.
“Ow! What was that, Moya?” Yu proceeds to blink his eyes in confusion as he steadily stares at the person on his left, while still holding the delicate hand.
“I thought you don't feel any pain since you look so strong, that's why I pinched your cheek.”
Yu sighs but somewhat looks so pleased, “Of course I do, I'm a human being.”
But it's more painful if you suddenly ignore me, Moya.
Without a doubt, Tomoya is not hallucinating at all.
—
Another day means it's another chance for Tomoya to figure out Yu's actual feelings for him, by using his odd ability of reading someone's mind to the fullest. And he found the greatest idea ever.
Sitting on the cozy kinako-coloured sofa, Tomoya calmly hugs his white pillow as he calls for his target, “Yu?”
Yu, who is heading towards his own room abruptly stops in his tracks when he hears the alluring voice calling for him, “Yes?”
“I actually,” Tomoya pauses before he continues, “I feel like cuddling with you tonight. Only two of us.”
Tomoya definitely catches a brief glimpse of sparkle in Yu's eyes when he states his request to the older one.
Sounding a little too excited, Yu genuinely agrees and answers back, “Sure! I will grab the futon for us and tell Geon that I'm sleeping in the living room tonight.”
As he is laying out the futon to sleep, Yu visibly glances at Tomoya who is still sitting on the sofa and asks, “Moya, do you need anything else?” He lightly hits the futon with his palms as he waits for the answer.
Tomoya replies as he cutely tilts his head, “I only need you to cuddle me.” And Tomoya swears that he notices how Yu's heart skips a beat, judging from the way his eyes widen as if he just heard someone who he really loved just confessed their feelings to him.
Tomoya neatly places his pillow and turns to look at Yu, who is busy arranging his own pillow and their shared blanket. Lying down on the comfy, clean futon, Tomoya begins to examine Yu's facial features while he waits for the older one to lay down next to him.
Those captivating, almond-shaped dark eyes. And those eyes somewhat resemble the sharp, steady gaze of a black cat. He also has perfect double eyelids along with prominent eye bags — or what everyone calls as aegyo-sal, which lets him have a prince-like charming appearance. Not to forget, that well-shaped sharp nose and those kissable lips...
Tomoya couldn't believe that this man, who is blessed by the whole universe, actually likes him. Or maybe, Yu actually doesn't like him.
His wandering mind finds its way back once he realises that Yu is ruffling his fluffy blonde hair, as he waits for Tomoya to speak.
Cute. How can he look this cute? This hair colour suits him so much.
Tomoya couldn't stop him. Not when Yu is lovingly admiring him right now.
And his bare face. I prefer him looking like this. But his face full of makeup is so pretty too.
Yu somehow possesses the skills to make him forget his actual plan. But thankfully, once Yu stops ruffling his hair, Tomoya finally remembers to start a conversation with him.
The duo usually discusses their current interests and what they have discovered these days — such as the video game that Yu enjoys playing and some Korean idioms that Tomoya just learnt.
One hour later, a few yawns that are escaping from their lips indicate that it's time for them to visit the dreamland. This time, Tomoya carefully turns around and Yu unhurriedly wraps his arms around the tiny waist to snuggle the younger one.
Unlike before, Tomoya is now ready to read his mind.
He smells so nice. Like peaches and some type of berry. So sweet, it's addictive.
Tomoya tries to calm his erratic heart as he listens more.
I want to kiss him. I know I can kiss him for hours if he lets me do it. Will he let me do it? His pink, plump lips look tasty.
Tomoya thinks that it's fortunate that he learnt something new about Yu, but it's unfortunate to know that his crazy thoughts are all about him.
Even a soft smooch on the forehead is enough for now. I need you, Moya. I think I'm going crazy.
Being trapped in a cuddle is such an understatement when Yu has tightly locked him in his warm embrace. Knowing that he couldn't escape, Tomoya just falls into a deep slumber.
—
Now, Tomoya believes that he should try reading everyone's minds during the dance practice session. Why? As their leader, he needs to know if the members are doing fine while preparing for the next comeback.
And it should be so easy. He just needs to hold their hands or hug them for a few seconds and carefully listen to their thoughts.
As soon as he announces to the whole team to take a short break, he starts doing his mission by walking towards Haru, who is lying down on the floor. In a flash, Tomoya rests his head on Haru's open arm and slightly tickles him.
Haru annoyedly exclaims, “Why are you this clingy? I'm so sweaty right now.”
“That's because I missed you.”
“Yeah sure. It's been ten years since the last time you slept in our room, especially when you keep using that living room’s bed of yours.” Haru might exaggerate the fact but Tomoya knows that Haru has no hard feelings against him.
Anyway, it's so nice to cuddle Moya like this. It's been a while.
It leaves Tomoya feeling so giddy, knowing that Haru likes the clingy side of him.
Next, he hunts for his next prey — the maknaes, Hyui and Yuki. Standing behind Hyui, he wraps his arms around the torso for a hug and sways their bodies from side to side.
Tomo hyung? Wait, is he playing some tricks on me?
Knowing that Hyui is a little confused but still doing fine, Tomoya proceeds to sit next to Yuki and grabs his hand. He now listens to Yuki's thoughts.
Tomoya hyung is in a good mood. I hope he gives us a longer break.
Sure, I can do that. Tomoya tells himself.
Looking for his next target, he sees Geon mindlessly walking around the practice room like a lost puppy so he decides to approach him. Now, the duo are holding hands and doing some twirls while giggling.
Our leader. I like our leader so much, he's the best mood booster ever.
Tomoya smiles contentedly as he listens to the compliment by Geon. Once both of them end their mini dancing session, he searches for Seita before he checks on his last target of the day.
Tomoya sees that Seita is currently looking through his phone while leaning on the practice room’s mirror. In a heartbeat, he clings onto Seita’s unoccupied hand while looking through the said phone. After a while, he notices how Seita curiously takes a little peep at him while smiling.
Tomoya hyung’s hair looks so cute today. He looks like a really soft ragdoll.
He already knows it but it never fails to make him feel super satisfied when he knows that the members view him as a cheerful, playful and outgoing leader, rather than seeing him as an unreasonably strict one.
And now, Tomoya takes a deep breath as he begins to approach the main subject of his mind reading mission. He feels a little bit nervous to approach the older one, who currently combs his fingers through his healthy, jet-black hair.
As he turns towards the direction of where Yu is sitting on the couch, Tomoya slightly smirks and signals the older one for something. Tomoya then sits on Yu’s lap as the older one, with full affection, tenderly runs his fingers on Tomoya’s thighs.
Adorable.
While he continues kneading the younger one’s legs, Yu asks, “What’s going on, Tomoya?”
“Oh, nothing. I just want to recharge my energy.” Tomoya cutely chuckles.
“Yeah, I saw you messing around with them. Did any one of them ignore you?”
“Hyui did! Please scold him for me~” Tomoya also adds some whiny sounds as he pouts.
The shrieks of laughter coming out from Yu indicates that he is truly delighted with how Tomoya acts around him.
Cute. The cutest. So adorable. I don’t want anyone else to see him like this. He’s mine.
And even if Tomoya feels a little bit dizzy after hearing that, he never admits to it.
—
With all of the tests that he has done so far, Tomoya considers that it is the right time to learn more about Japanese folktales or any ancient story that originated from Fukuoka.
He knows that Fukuoka's vibrant heritage actually hides a lot of lesser-known traditions and beliefs. He also knows about some yokai like kappa who landed in the Kyushu area, specifically at the Hakata Bay in Fukuoka, but they are water deities and have no correlation with any mind reading ability.
As he continues scrolling through the Internet to search for more information about the deities, he comes across the mind-reading yokai called satori. He understands that it is an intelligent yokai that is known for its ability to read minds. However, that is a sacred yokai and he is an actual human being.
Maybe Tomoya is wrongly cursed and becomes the first one in his bloodline to be infused with some random supernatural power once he turns 20. So hopefully, his odd ability will perish once he finds the true meaning behind it.
Tomoya just shrugs, as he questions whether Yu also has some yokai-related ability like him or not.
—
Tomoya is about to fall asleep on his simple yet comfortable living room’s bed when Yu slowly pats his right shoulder. “Moya? Should we sleep together again tonight?”
Tomoya weakly rubs his eyes and blinks, “Are you sure? But you need to take the futon.”
Yu cheerily grins and he ruffles the blonde hair, “Okay then, sleepyhead.”
My one and only sleepyhead.
Tomoya would like to call this slumber party between them as a ritual as destruction, since he could never predict what kind of wild thoughts would come out from Yu’s deepest desire. He hopes that he is ready to know whatever that Yu would imagine tonight, as he slouches onto the sofa, lazily eyeing Yu’s every movement.
“And it's done! Come here Tomoya, don't fall asleep on that sofa.” Yu says as he lies down on the neatly laid futon.
In the blink of an eye, Tomoya is engulfed in Yu’s tight embrace. Covered under a thick khaki-coloured blanket, Tomoya can feel that his whole face is gradually turning red.
Moya. Tomoya. Hey, Uemura Tomoya.
Is he going insane? Why does he keep calling my name?
Moya. You're so beautiful, I want to bite you.
Huh? The goosebumps start creeping throughout Tomoya’s body.
Can I bite you here? On your cheeks? On your neck, behind your ears? Sucking on your exposed collarbones? Letting everyone see the beautiful marks I would imprint on your skin.
What the hell. Tomoya really believes that Yu has lost his mind.
I like you so much, do you like me too?
Tomoya can't deny that even without having the ability to read Yu’s mind, he already likes Yu — since the very beginning when he realises how admirable Yu is, but knowing Yu’s craziest fantasy about him certainly makes him blush even harder.
—
In the next morning, Tomoya somehow wakes up with Yu’s morning wood pressing against the curve of his ass. He nervously gulps, swallowing his own saliva. He knows that Yu is packing down there, but he still couldn't understand how the older one manages to fit that massive thing in his pants.
Tomoya also couldn't ignore the slow rutting coming from behind. “Is he still sleeping?” Tomoya asks himself. He contemplates really hard whether he should really wake Yu up or try to escape this sinful paradise.
Tomoya is about to desperately pray to kami-sama, wishing that all sacred deities that have existed for million years can help him when he suddenly hears something.
Heaven is here, baby. Don't go anywhere, just stay safe under this blanket with me.
Fuck. Tomiyasu Yu is insane, indeed.
It's too dangerous outside. Stay here.
The lustful thoughts that are haunting Tomoya right now are followed by the sudden thrusts by Yu too. Tomoya tries to escape but with Yu grabbing his waist and not even waking up, he certainly gets so turned on that he starts feeling lightheaded.
Only a few minutes have passed but it somewhat feels like an hour. Every inch of Tomoya’s body is burning, face painted with the deepest colour of red due to embarrassment.
He needs to wake up. Yu needs to wake up now. They really need to…
“Good morning, Moya.” Yu happily greets the younger one.
Tomoya finally turns around to face Yu. “Yeah, good morning.” He then rubs his eyes, hoping that the rosy blush on his face has faded.
“Did you sleep well? I slept so well that I dreamt of the best thing ever.” Yu’s angelic smile really annoys him but oh well, he just simply nods his head.
“I had a nightmare though.” Tomoya states it as a matter of fact.
Seeing how Yu intently watches him after hearing that stirs something inside Tomoya’s fragile heart but he thinks he will deal with these emotions later.
—
Tomoya keeps thinking about what had happened between him and Yu. But, knowing that his schedules are getting more packed than usual due to comeback preparations, he opts to keep reading his teammates’ minds — preferably Yu’s, whenever he finds an opportunity to do so.
Thus, after Tomoya is done with attending the Korean language class, he sees Yu exiting the individual practice room so he decides to go back to the dorm with him.
When he walks next to Yu, he senses that the older one is in a very good mood as he happily hums to familiar tunes. There is no hint of awkwardness in the air and it feels nice, Tomoya thinks. The peaceful evening walk is even accompanied by a gentle breeze that lightly kisses their cheeks.
As the sun slowly sets and the waves of orange hue spread across the sky, Tomoya lets his fingers intertwine with Yu’s slender ones. He then listens to Yu’s mind.
I’m so lucky that I saw him before he left the building.
As Tomoya listens more, he gets swayed by the emotions that have been occupying his heart.
And look at the sky. It feels a lot more romantic to go home like this, right?
“Yes, I think it feels so romantic too.”
“Huh?” Yu freezes in his tracks.
“Huh, what?” At this moment, Tomoya knows he fucked up.
“Tomoya, did you just read my mind?” Yu asks, but he doesn't sound like he is angry or upset about it.
And then silence.
Yu, who is still holding Tomoya’s hand, just patiently looks at him, waiting for the answer.
“Do you want to know the truth?” Tomoya carefully responds, not wanting to ruin the trust Yu already had in him.
“Sure, Tomoya. Just tell me, I’m not going to be mad at you.”
Tomoya exhales a deep sigh. “Actually, ever since I turned 20, I have this ability to read someone's mind whenever I touch them. And I don't even know why I’m cursed in this way.”
“Don't say that, you're not cursed for sure.” Yu then furrows his eyebrows, “Did you do any research about it?”
“I did, I tried searching about Japanese folktales especially from Fukuoka. I ended up knowing about random yokais including the mind reading one but it's not helping me that much.” Tomoya asks, “Did anything like this ever happen to you before?”
Yu shakes his head, “It never happened to me, but I am so glad that it made you to finally know about my actual feelings.”
“What do you mean?”
“When we went back to Fukuoka during our short winter vacation, I went to the shrine and prayed to kami-sama, begging them to let you know how much I love you.” Yu pauses and turns Tomoya around to face him. “I think that's how you suddenly have this odd ability, so it's all my fault. I’m sorry that I couldn't confess to you way earlier, since I’m not sure if you like me too or not.”
Tomoya closely observes how Yu’s ears turn redder and redder as the older one explains more, “Maybe this is the right way to figure out our real feelings and maybe, this is the best way to bring us closer together.”
Tomoya reads the expressions all over Yu’s perfect face as he answers, “Have you ever looked at someone and you just wanted to keep looking at them forever? That's how I feel every time I’m with you, so I'm scared if I read all of the signals you've given me wrongly.”
Yu looks visibly shocked. “Why would you say that? Look at you! You’re so talented, you can sing, dance, create choreographies, write songs and even do video editing!” Yu shushes Tomoya before he continues, “You even lead us so well, you’re extremely smart and you know how to deal with us without putting too much pressure on us.”
Tomoya starts feeling overwhelmed as he keeps listening to the compliments, “Okay, I know. I know.”
“You're so, so good-looking. But you're also a cutiepie. You're gorgeous, attractive, graceful, adorable, stunning, and a lot more adjectives can be used on you.” Yu lovingly stares straight into Tomoya’s sparkly eyes. “I can even write 500 pages of essays, describing how much I love you.”
“Wait. Give me a chance to confess to you too, please!” Tomoya chuckles. “Tomiyasu Yu, I also like you. I like how you never push me away when I cling to you or hold your hands. I like how you respect my decisions and never turn your back against me. I know I can always rely on you whenever I need someone to share my worries with. And, I also like how you take good care of me, and the members as well. Your homemade meals never fail to make me feel grateful to know you.”
“My homemade meals? That's quite a new way to compliment me.” Yu raises his eyebrows, teasing the blonde one.
Tomoya puckers his lips before he responds, “Why not? I like eating everything that you cook for me!”
“Sure baby, I’m so glad to know that.”
Hearing how Tomoya properly expresses his feelings towards him, Yu can feel an overflowing joy swirling around them in the form of twinkling sparks. Without hesitation, Yu kisses Tomoya so tenderly. Tomoya’s soft, pillowy lips fit so perfectly with his, like fluffy clouds that linger around the serene sky. The kiss tastes so sweet, it's almost addictive.
While Yu gently caresses Tomoya’s face with his fingertips brushing against the reddened cheeks, Tomoya deepens the kiss and wraps his arms around Yu’s neck, engulfing his dearest lover in his warmth. And like a curse that disappears through a magical kiss, Tomoya can no longer read Yu’s mind as Yu’s wish has come true.
As the night begins to fall and the stars begin to glow, Tomoya is content with losing his forbidden ability, when he knows that the affection Yu has for him means everything to both of them.