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Spinning gravity around your delicate frame.
The fluorescent lights of the trauma unit hummed with a sound that Michael Robinavitch usually found comforting. It was the sound of controlled chaos, of rhythm, of being exactly where he belonged. But tonight, the rhythm was off. It was off because Dennis Whittaker was standing by the charting station, and for the first time in his twenty-three year career, Michael had completely forgotten how to construct a coherent sentence.
Dennis was… well, he was a structural anomaly. Standing at the terminal, he looked less like a resident physician and more like a stiff breeze might carry him off into the night sky. His brown hair was a soft, perpetually windswept mop, and his skin had the pale, translucent quality of fine porcelain. His limbs were spindly, almost fragile, and his eyes— large, dark, and rimmed with deep, bruised-looking circles that seemed to have been painted on by a melancholic artist— were currently focused on a patient chart with such soul-crushing intensity that Michael felt an inexplicable urge to go buy him a cup of tea, a weighted blanket, and perhaps a puppy.
"Dr. Whittaker," Michael said, his voice dropping an octave deeper than he intended.
Dennis jolted, his entire frame fluttering like a bird. He turned, his expression one of immediate, profound, and devastating tragedy. His downturned eyes and soft, pale features made him look like he had just been informed that the concept of 'joy' was being discontinued.
"Dr. Robinavitch," Dennis said, his voice soft and slightly breathless. "I—I apologize. I was just reviewing the trauma protocols for the incoming MVA. I hope I’m not standing in the way of your workflow."
"You aren't," Michael said, gripping his clipboard so hard his knuckles turned white. "You’re doing fine, Dennis. Deep breaths."
"Right. Breathing. Thank you, sir." Dennis blinked, and the shadow under his eyes seemed to deepen, giving him the appearance of a Victorian child who had just been tasked with sweeping a chimney. "I just... I really want to make sure I don't miss anything. The stakes are so high, aren't they?"
Michael stared. He was fifty-five, a man who had seen everything the streets of Pittsburgh could throw at a human body, a man who prided himself on being the unshakable backbone of this unit. And yet, looking at this spindly, tragic-looking boy who was currently vibrating with nerves, Michael felt his heart do a somersault.
Dennis looked up at him, his expression shifting from 'solemn Victorian orphan' to 'slightly hopeful Victorian orphan.' "That’s very kind of you to say, sir. I’ve heard you’re the best at this. I’m just worried that I look… well, I’ve been told I look a bit like a ghost in the morning."
"You look like a doctor," Michael lied smoothly. He didn't think he was a doctor; he thought he looked like an antique treasure that needed to be kept behind glass. "The sleep deprivation in this ward takes a toll on everyone, Dennis. The circles are just… character."
"Do you think so?" Dennis asked, earnestness radiating off him. "I tried a new eye cream, but I think it just made me look more… teary."
"It’s fine," Michael said, his professional veneer cracking just a little at the edges. "Just focus on the patient. Don't worry about the face."
"I'll take your advice then, sir. Thank you." Dennis remarked with a quiet, shy tone.
"Michael. Call me Michael." He leaned in closer, dropping his voice. "Look, we’re quiet today. Why don't you show me your suturing technique? We’ve got some practice pads in the back."
Dennis’s face lit up with a sudden, fierce determination that contradicted his frail appearance. "I’d love to. I’ve been practicing on fruit at home, but I fear I’m not quite consistent with my tension."
They moved to a small, private alcove. For the next hour, Michael watched, mesmerized. Dennis was precise. Despite his spindly fingers, his movements were deliberate and steady. He was eager to learn, his questions sharp and insightful, even if he still looked like he was one bad news cycle away from a total nervous breakdown.
"Your hands are steady," Michael noted, watching Dennis close a mock wound with surgical perfection.
"I have to be," Dennis whispered, focusing intently on the thread. "I look like I’m about to fall over, so I have to prove I’m not."
Michael stepped into his space, just enough to be noticeable, reaching out to gently nudge Dennis’s shoulder to adjust his posture. The contact was brief, but Michael felt the fragility of the younger man under his hand. "You’re doing just fine, kid. You’re a doctor. A good one."
Dennis looked up at him, a genuine flicker of pride breaking through the 'Victorian doll' exhaustion. "Truly?"
"Truly," Michael said, his own heart feeling suspiciously light. "Now, go grab a seat. You look like you’re going to pass out. I’ll handle the next triage if the doors swing open."
"Thank you, Michael," Dennis said, turning away to find a chair.
Michael stood there for a moment, watching him walk away— spindly, sad, and entirely captivating. He knew he was supposed to be the mentor, the steady hand, the guide. But as he watched Dennis settle into a chair and immediately look like he was pining for a lost love, Michael realized he was the one in trouble
The quiet of the breakroom felt heavy, though not in the way Michael was used to. Usually, he craved the silence of a slow shift like a starving man craves bread. But tonight, his attention was anchored firmly to the corner of the room where Dennis sat, hunched over his knees like a tragic gargoyle, his thumb twitching over the screen of his phone.
Michael leaned against the doorframe, ostensibly checking a chart, though he hadn’t read a single line of data in ten minutes. He watched as Dennis’s thumb swiped the screen again.
Five minutes.
Dennis had done this four times now. Each time he checked the device, his expression didn't change, he remained that same portrait of Victorian melancholy, but his shoulders would tighten just a fraction more, his knuckles turning a stark, bloodless white against the casing of the phone.
Michael walked over, pouring himself a fresh cup of sludge-like coffee. "You’re vibrating, Whittaker. You know that, right?"
Dennis jumped, nearly dropping the phone. He quickly shoved it into his scrub pocket, his face flushed with a sudden, anxious color that made his pallor look even more striking. "I—I’m sorry, Michael. Just… habits. Bad ones. I’m quite jumpy today."
"I noticed," Michael said, taking a slow sip. He decided to lean into it, his tone light, testing the waters. "You waiting for a call? A patient update? Or is the afterlife trying to reach you with a message about your ancestors?"
Dennis let out a small, huffed laugh, though it didn't reach those deep-set, perpetually mourning eyes. He tugged at his scrub top, looking intensely at the linoleum floor. "Neither, I’m afraid. Just… a personal matter. It’s nothing, really. Please don’t mind me. I’m just being a nervous wreck, which, as you’ve surely gathered, is my natural state of being."
Michael frowned. He moved closer, sliding into the chair opposite Dennis. The younger man seemed to fold into himself, his spindly limbs tucking in as if he were trying to occupy as little space as possible. "You don’t have to tell me anything you don’t want to, Dennis. But you’re one of my residents. If something at home is pulling you apart, you’re not going to be able to focus on the floor. And if you aren't focused, you make mistakes."
"I haven't made any mistakes today," Dennis said, his voice quiet but sharp, a flash of defensive pride in his eyes.
"I know you haven't. You were excellent with the sutures," Michael softened, leaning forward. "I’m just saying. You look like you’re carrying the weight of the world, and you’re barely a hundred and forty pounds soaking wet. What’s going on?"
Dennis looked up then, and for a second, Michael saw a raw, terrifying vulnerability that made his own throat ache. Dennis’s phone buzzed in his pocket—a short, insistent vibration. His eyes flickered toward his pocket, and the look of longing was so intense it almost felt like a physical blow to Michael’s gut.
"It's just... a logistical issue," Dennis said, his voice trembling slightly. He pulled the phone out, checked it, and let out a breath so shaky it sounded like a sob. He quickly typed out a short message, his fingers moving with frantic, trembling precision. "My, ah, my support system is having a bit of a crisis. It’s a very demanding situation. Very small, very loud, and completely unable to take care of itself."
Michael blinked. "A pet?"
Dennis hesitated, a faint, sad smile tugging at his mouth. "In a manner of speaking, yes. A very high-maintenance, demanding little creature that refuses to sleep."
Dennis looked down at his lap, his long, spindly fingers interlaced. "I’m just trying to make sure he’s okay," he murmured, so quietly Michael almost missed it.
"He?" Michael asked, a prickle of something undefinable— jealousy? Protective curiosity?— rising in his gut.
"Well, tell the 'creature' that Dr. Robby needs his resident at full capacity," Michael joked, though he felt a pang of jealousy for whatever or whoever was holding Dennis’s attention so captive.
Dennis looked at him, his expression unreadable— a mix of exhaustion and something profoundly gentle. "I’m afraid the creature doesn't take orders from anyone, least of all me. But I appreciate the sentiment, Michael."
Dennis stood up abruptly, his long, spindly frame unfolding like a collapsible ladder. He looked down at the floor, his eyes heavy with those signature shadows. "I should check on the charts in Bay 4. If you don't mind."
"Go," Michael said, watching him walk away.
He watched the way Dennis moved— careful, deliberate, and somehow carrying an invisible weight that had nothing to do with the trauma unit. Michael stared at the back of Dennis’s head, his curiosity piqued and his heart feeling more unsettled than it had in years.
He wanted to know who held the other end of that phone. He wanted to know why the most fragile-looking man in the building looked like he was fighting the hardest battle of his life.
He didn't know who this 'he' was, but he knew one thing: he wanted to be the one who made that look of exhaustion disappear.