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I still can’t believe you’re marrying her
The blond girl you met when we weren’t sure
I’d never hope that this day would occur
Our memories now, are just a blur
I still hope you’re happy, but I’ll just stir
the pot of love that has become sour
I don’t know how much I can still endure
Watching her kiss the lips given to her
I know compared to her, I’m just a slur
To your parents, she’s the one they prefer
I can’t compete with a girl that’s a fleur
You definitely don’t remember me
I feel like a jester in court for thee
Those turquoise eyes is all I can still see
I watch you talk with her, eye’s full of glee
Still can’t cry, I wanna have somebody
I remember the day you had left me
No call goodbye, just a broken door key
I saw you the year after, you’re happy
Dying with every technicality
I still sleep with the pillow you bought me
A pillow of pain, cushions the debris
I run and run, but I’m still undersea
I don’t have her pretty hair
I don’t have that chocolate stare
I don’t have her radiant smiles
I don’t have money for miles
I don’t have her slender body
I don’t have a title; a nobody
The frost of winter will come
and you’re still not home
I miss that perfect face
and your love-filled palace
Tears have been shed,
but I still have ached
My willing heart is now open
Cried for months, maybe seven
And as I stay here at in our home
I still wait for you to realize and then some
I watch from afar, you’re marrying that girl
I guess I lose and I might just hurl
My whole life destined to swirl
If I must end it here,
I’ll go all out just so you can peer,
into the life I gave away for a dear
A promise I won’t make
I’ll fade to black
Never to feel the ache
Held all the way back
I hope you find solace at her place,
but please don’t forget my embrace
To let you go, is my biggest pain,
but you were never mine to gain
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And here I lay next to her
Wondering if I was 100% sure
I will never see those hazel eyes again
I love her, but I miss what we were
She’ll never keep me that warm
I do remember your face
Park Ave, that fateful place
I’m sorry I left
I wish I wasn’t so blind
All I can do now is pull and shine
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry..
I’m sorry…
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"Last night, you called to me
It almost killed me
To hear you scream my name
Your smile still kills the same
I almost turned around
You chased me to the ground
You asked me how I've been, but how do I begin
To tell you I should've chased you 'cross every single state
I lay down my sword for fate
'Cause it's too little way too late"
- Laufey 林冰 Jónsdóttir
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