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1. Scared to live, scared to die by GlitchedAffection

   Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   18 Apr 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Suicidal Ilya Rozanov
   • References to Depression
   • Depression
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Married Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Post-Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Hopeful Ending
   • Not Beta Read
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Mentioned Yuna Hollander
   • Mentioned David Hollander
   • Love
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • it ends okay I promise
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Shane Hollander Needs a Hug
   • No AI Used
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Anxious Shane Hollander
   • Whump
   • Ilya Rozanov Whump
   • Minor Injuries

   Summary

   Ilya is having some dark thoughts late at night, where he finds himself in front of a cliff edge. Shane finds him about to do something that breaks his heart.

   Work title is from song lyrics 'Northern Attitude' by Noah Kahan.

   Series

   • Part 1 of Hollanov bits and pieces

   Language:

   English

   Words:

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