Adult Content Warning

This work could have adult content. If you continue, you have agreed that you are willing to see such content.

• Yes, Continue
• No, Go Back

If you accept cookies from our site and you choose "Yes, Continue", you will not be asked again during this session (that is, until you close your browser). If you log in you can store your preference and never be asked again.

1. if you want spotless, i'll always lose by blackstarkink, thistlecat

   Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   10 May 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Sirius Black/Remus Lupin
   • Sirius Black
   • Remus Lupin
   • James Potter
   • Regulus Black
   • Alcoholic Sirius Black
   • Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Alcohol Withdrawal
   • Infidelity
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Guilt
   • Regulus Black Has an Eating Disorder
   • Pathetic Remus Lupin
   • Good Friend James Potter
   • (understatement)
   • Exes to Lovers
   • Eventual Happy Ending
   • Past Regulus Black/Remus Lupin
   • Past Sirius Black/James Potter
   • Minor Regulus Black/Kingsley Shacklebolt
   • Chubby Sirius Black
   • older wolfstar
   • Wolfstar in their 50s
   • Second Chances
   • Alternate Universe - Muggle

   Summary

   Sirius knew starting an affair with his brother’s boyfriend would end terribly, but he underestimated just how hard rock bottom would hit. He also underestimated just how much sobriety could offer him.

   Then, decades later, he and Remus try again.

   Series

   • Part 6 of never craved attention extended universe

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   24,785

   Chapters:

   4/5

   Comments:

   54

   Kudos:

   42

   Bookmarks:

   4

   Hits:

   699