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The snow had stopped falling sometime in the night.

Duncan Stark stood at the window of their chambers in Winterfell, watching the last traces of moonlight fade from the sky. The hour was indecently early—the sort of hour when only guardsmen on the walls and maesters tending to the dying had any business being awake. Yet he had not slept. Not truly. Three days past, Aerion's words had lodged themselves between his ribs like crossbow bolts, and every hour since had only driven them deeper. Sleep came in ragged fragments, when it came at all, and always fled before morning.

"The year is over."

Aerion had said it at supper, his voice flat, his gaze never leaving the wine, as though Duncan were too insignificant to warrant even the courtesy of a glance.

"The year is over, and I have fulfilled my obligation to crown and country. We will go to Summerhall. My father will dissolve this farce. I shall be free of you."

Duncan had not replied. Not because he had nothing to say—his mind was a storm of words, each one beginning with "but" and ending with "please," each one dying on his tongue before it could draw breath. Twelve moons had taught him that dragons were hunters at heart; they craved the chase, the flight, the sweet terror of prey that knew it was doomed. So he sat perfectly still, a wolf who had learned to play dead, and let the arrows lodge where they would. The silence was his only shield

From the first, Duncan had understood the nature of their marriage. Aerion Targaryen did not want him. Had never wanted him. The prince had made this plain through a thousand small cruelties, each one designed to remind Duncan that he was tolerated rather than loved, endured rather than cherished.

Duncan knew himself for a fool. He had always known. A fool counts moments the way a merchant counts coppers, each one a small treasure, each one worthless the moment it passes from his hand. Hope is the currency of the stupid, and Duncan had been hoarding it for months, stacking his coppers in a pile that would never buy him anything but more hoping.

He remembered the cart.

The road had been rutted that day, frozen mud carved into ridges like the spine of some ancient beast that had died in agony and been half swallowed by the earth. The wheels groaned with every turn, a sound like old men complaining of their aches, and the sky above them was the color of old iron—not the bright steel of a new blade, but the dull grey of something that had been left out in the weather too long.

They had been traveling south, toward the barrowlands, where the First Men had raised their kings beneath earthen mounds and left them to dream of better winters. Duncan knew the country well. He had ridden these roads as a boy, had seen the standing stones and the moss-covered barrows, had listened to his father's hushed warnings about the old magic that still lingered in those hills. But that day, he saw none of it. His attention had been caught elsewhere.

Aerion had been quiet.

Not the sharp, brittle quiet of a man sharpening a blade for a throat he had not yet chosen. Duncan had learned to recognize that silence over the first moon of their marriage, had learned to give it a wide berth and to keep his own tongue still behind his teeth. That silence was a weapon, held in reserve, and the only sensible response was to wait for the strike to come or pass.

This was different.

Aerion's quiet was something else, almost like exhaustion. The prince sat slumped in the cart bed, his silver-gold hair dulled by dust, his fine southern clothes stained with the mud of northern roads.

Duncan had wanted to ask. Had opened his mouth twice, three times, each time closing it again without a word. He had learned that Aerion did not welcome concern, that offering it too freely was like handing a blade to a man who had been looking for an excuse to use one. So he held his tongue and watched the road and tried not to think about the weight of the silence beside him.

They had not spoken for hours.

Duncan had been half-asleep himself, the reins loose in his frozen hands, his thoughts drifting like snow across a fallow field. The cold had seeped into his bones, that particular northern cold that no fire could quite burn away, and he had surrendered to its dull embrace. The horse knew the road. The horse did not need him. He could close his eyes for a moment, just a moment, and no harm would come of it.

Then Aerion's head touched his shoulder.

Not fallen. Not slumped. Leaned. As if some inner buttress had crumbled without permission, as if the weight of keeping himself upright had finally exceeded the weight of his pride. Duncan felt the head settle against him, felt the brush of hair against his neck, felt the warmth of another body seeping through the layers of leather and fur.

He stopped breathing.

His heart hammered against his ribs like a prisoner demanding release. His hands tightened on the reins until his knuckles went white and the leather creaked in protest. The horse flicked an ear but kept plodding, unconcerned, as if the world had not just shifted on its axis.

For one long mile—the wheels groaning, the wind carrying the smell of distant snow, the grey sky pressing down like a lid on a pot—Duncan held himself still as stone. Terrified that any movement, any sound, any breath would shatter whatever strange spell had fallen over them. He had dreamed of this, in the dark hours when sleep would not come. Had imagined Aerion's head on his shoulder, Aerion's hand in his, Aerion's voice saying something soft. He had never believed it would happen. Had told himself, again and again, that such things were not for him, that the prince would never lower his walls, that wanting was a kind of poison that killed you slowly from the inside.

And yet here they were.

The horse plodded on. The wheels groaned. The wind shifted, bringing the scent of pine and frost. Duncan counted his own heartbeats, measured the passing of time in the rise and fall of Aerion's breathing against his shoulder.

Then Aerion stirred.

Muttered something about the cold. Always the cold, as if the North had invented it just to spite him, as if every chill wind were a personal insult directed at his southern blood. He pulled away, straightening his spine, rolling his shoulders like a man shaking off a burden.

Duncan let him go. Did not reach out. Did not speak. Did not give any sign that anything had happened at all.

But he had felt it. The warmth left behind on his shoulder, a ghost of presence that lingered long after Aerion had retreated back into the fortress of his own body. The shape of a head that had, for one fragile mile, chosen to rest on him.

He carried that warmth for days afterward. Pressed his hand to his shoulder in the dark, when the fire had burned low and Aerion lay sleeping in the tent beside him, trying to call it back. Trying to remember the exact weight, the exact angle, the exact quality of the prince's breath against his neck.

He never succeeded.

But he kept trying.

The sorrowroot berries came later. Or maybe earlier. Time had begun to blur in those first moons, when every day was a negotiation and every night a ceasefire. Duncan could no longer distinguish between the moments that mattered and the moments that only seemed to matter in retrospect.

They had been riding through a grove of black-barked trees. The bark was the color of old charcoal, cracked and fissured like the skin of some ancient serpent, and the leaves hung overhead in a canopy of rust and crimson. They rustled like whispers when the wind passed through them, a sound that might have been a warning or might have been a welcome. Duncan could not tell which.

The berries hung low on the branches. Bleeding fruit that glistened like drops of frozen blood, each one a small, round jewel of deepest red. They caught the thin northern light and threw it back in shards, and Duncan knew them at once. Half the men in Winterfell had warned him as a boy, their voices low and grave in the firelight. Sorrowroot berries will twist your guts until you beg the Stranger's kiss. You eat one, you will pray for death before the sun sets. Even a single berry could unman a grown man, could leave him writhing in the mud while his body purged itself of everything it had ever held.

Aerion had looked at them.

A quick flicker of those violet eyes, there and gone again like heat lightning on a summer night. The prince had been pretending indifference, had been affecting that particular boredom he wore like armor against the world. But Duncan had seen. The way Aerion's gaze had lingered on the berries for just a breath longer than necessary. The way his throat had moved, swallowing something that might have been hunger or might have been longing.

He wants them, Duncan had thought. He wants something, and he will not ask.

So Duncan had climbed the tree.

The bark scraped his palms raw. Twigs caught in his hair, pulling strands loose from his braid. His boots found uncertain purchase on branches that creaked beneath his weight, and for a moment he had feared the whole thing would come crashing down around him. He was a lord of the north, a man grown, too large and too heavy for such boyish pursuits. The men of his retinue would laugh if they saw him. The servants would exchange glances. His father, had he still lived, would have called him a fool and a disgrace to the Stark name.

None of that mattered.

He hauled himself up into the branches, one arm hooked around a thick limb, the other reaching for the bleeding fruit. His helm dangled from his belt, and he pulled it free, holding it beneath the clusters of berries. He filled it with the small red berries, working quickly, afraid that any moment Aerion would call him back, would sneer at him, would remind him of his dignity and his station and his complete and utter foolishness.

When he dropped back to the ground, breathless and grinning like an idiot, he had presented the helm to Aerion with both hands. Like a supplicant. Like a knight offering a prize to his lover, though the comparison made his cheeks burn.

For a moment, just a moment, the prince's face had gone soft.

Aerion's lips parted. A sound came out, low and unexpected, almost a sigh. Almost a thank you. The violet eyes widened, and something flickered there that Duncan had never seen before. Something that might have been surprise. Something that might have been tenderness.

Then his expression shuttered.

The walls came up, swift and seamless, as if they had never been lowered at all. Aerion's mouth twisted into a sneer, and he knocked the helm from Duncan's hands with a single sharp blow. Berries scattered across the frost-hard ground, rolling between the roots of the black-barked trees, disappearing into the shadows.

"Poison," Aerion had snarled. His voice was sharp enough to cut, sharp enough to draw blood. "You would feed me poison."

Duncan stood frozen. His hands were empty. His chest ached. He opened his mouth to answer. To explain. To say that he had only wanted to give Aerion something he desired, that he had seen the prince's hunger and tried to satisfy it, that he would never, never do anything to cause him harm.

No words came.

Aerion held his gaze for a long moment, then he turned away. Walked back to the cart without another word. Settled himself among the supplies with his arms crossed and his face turned toward the distant hills.

Duncan did not follow.

He gathered the horse's reins instead. Checked the harness, though it needed no checking. Adjusted the straps, though they needed no adjustment. Gave himself something to do with his hands while the silence stretched between.

Later, when Duncan had turned his back to check the horse's off hind leg, he had seen Aerion crouch down.

The prince moved quickly, furtively, like a thief stealing silver from a sleeping man's purse. He glanced toward Duncan, then away, then down at the ground. His hand darted out, swift as a snake striking, and plucked one berry from the mud.

A single berry. Small as a child's fingernail. Red as a wound.

Aerion held it for a moment, turning it between his thumb and forefinger. The light caught its surface and made it glow. Then he slipped it into the pocket of his coat and stood, brushing the frost from his knees, and walked back to the cart without looking at Duncan once.

Duncan said nothing. Some offerings were accepted only in secret, only in the dark, only when no one was watching.

The sickness came on him at the hour of the wolf.

Duncan had been sleeping the dreamless sleep of the exhausted, that particular void where even the ravens did not venture. The fire had burned down to embers, casting the chamber in a dim orange glow that barely touched the corners. Outside, the wind had died, and the silence had settled over the castle like a shroud.

Then the first retch came from the adjoining chamber.

A sound he knew. He had heard it from dying men after battles, from men who had drunk too deep of bad ale, from men who had eaten something the earth had never meant them to eat. The sound had a particular quality—wet, desperate, the body's last argument against the poison inside it.

He was on his feet before he knew he had moved. The cold stone bit into his soles. His hand found the door, pushed it open without a knock. His heart had lodged itself somewhere in his throat, and he could feel it beating there, a frantic drum against his windpipe.

The berry, he thought. The sorrowroot berry. He ate it after all.

Aerion knelt before the cold hearth. His hands pressed flat against the stone floor, fingers splayed wide as if he were trying to hold the world together, as if letting go would send everything spinning into chaos. His back heaved with each breath, each spasm, the linen of his tunic dark with sweat between his shoulder blades.

He did not look up when Duncan entered. Perhaps he could not. Perhaps looking up would have required admitting that he was not alone in the dark, that someone had witnessed his body's betrayal.

"My prince."

"Go away." Aerion's voice was a wreck, hoarse and splintered. "I am not—"

He stopped. His whole body convulsed, shoulders hunching, spine curving like a bow drawn too tight. Nothing came up but bile and breath. The sound of it scraped against Duncan's ribs like a file on iron.

"You ate more than just one berry." Duncan knelt beside the prince, close enough to feel the heat radiating from his fevered skin, close enough to smell the sour tang of sickness, but not touching. He had learned that touch required permission, and permission was a currency Aerion hoarded like a dragon its gold.

"I ate nothing." Aerion's head snapped up. His violet eyes were wild, fever-bright, ringed with red. The whites had gone pink and raw. His lips were pale, trembling. "I am not some—"

Another spasm cut him off. He doubled over, gasping, and Duncan saw the fine tremor running through his hands where they pressed against the stone.

"You are a terrible liar," Duncan said. "The worst I have ever known. A child could deceive better than you."

He had braced himself for the usual response. The flinch. The snarl. The whole repertoire of a man who treated physical contact as an offense, who had spent their entire marriage constructing an invisible wall of sharp words and sharper silences. Their wedding night had been a transaction conducted in darkness, all duty and no tenderness, and Aerion had spent every day since constructing an invisible wall around himself. A brush of sleeves earned a glare. An accidental touch in the corridor provoked a hiss.

So when Duncan's palm settled between those trembling shoulder blades, he expected to have it bitten off. Metaphorically if not literally.

Instead, Aerion simply knelt there. Shaking like a leaf in a autumn gale, his breath coming in short, ragged gasps that fogged the cold air before his face. He did not move away. Did not tense. Did not even comment, which was the most alarming part because Aerion commented on everything. The food, the weather, the quality of the wine, the shape of a cloud, the way Duncan breathed too loudly when he slept.

Duncan's heart stopped. Then resumed, faster than before, a wild drumming against his ribs.

"The cramps pass," he said. His voice sounded strange to his own ears, too careful, as if he were speaking to a wounded animal. "The sickness passes. But they are cruel while they last. The body fights the poison, and the fighting is worse than the wound."

"I am not weak." Aerion's voice was barely a whisper, a thread pulled thin by exhaustion.

"I know."

"I am not."

"I know."

"I am exhausted."

"I know that too."

"You are mocking me."

"No."

"Then why do you say I know like a septon reciting prayers?"

"Because you keep saying things I already know. You are not weak. You are not a fool, though you have acted like one tonight."

"Then say something else."

Duncan did not say what he was thinking. Certain thoughts were like live eels, best kept in a bucket with a very heavy lid. You are the strongest creature I have ever encountered, he did not say. Also the most ridiculous. Also, and I cannot stress this enough, the most beautiful. Also the most alone, though you would rather eat your own boot than admit it.

He said none of it. The words would have been unwelcome. They would have been weapons, and Aerion would have used them to wound them both.

The prince's breathing slowed. The tremors that had wracked his slender frame eased by degrees. First the shoulders, which had been hunched up around his ears. Then the hands, which had been pressed white-knuckled against the stone. Finally the fine tremor in his jaw, that small, persistent quiver that Duncan had watched with a fear he refused to name.

As Aerion lifted his head, Duncan noticed first the parchment color of his face. That particular pallor that the maester reserved for listing the names of children who had not survived the winter, a shade that spoke of loss and resignation and the cold mathematics of survival. Strange, he thought, how sickness could strip a dragon down to something almost ordinary. The violet eyes that had blazed last night, fierce as a cornered fox, had gone soft as old tallow. Not defeated, exactly. Just human. Just a boy who had cried into his own hands an hour ago and now lacked the energy to pretend otherwise.

He looks breakable, Duncan thought, and the observation frightened him more than any beast he had ever faced. More than the cold and the hunger and the long northern nights.

"The berries," Aerion said. His voice had lost its edge. "The ones from the tree. The sorrowroot berries."

Duncan nodded, waiting for him to continue.

"They were..." Aerion swallowed. A flush came up his neck. It was not the flush of fever, Duncan realized with a start. It was something else. Something that colored the pale skin pink, from his collarbone to the tips of his ears. "They were extraordinarily good. The best I have ever tasted. I would eat them again. Even with the sickness. Even with all of it."

He said it like a man confessing to a crime, and Duncan wondered if the sickness had addled his wits entirely. Because no food, no matter how divine, was worth this level of emotional investment. No fruit was worth the retching, the cramps, the trembling, the long dark hours of the wolf.

His eyes met Duncan's for a heartbeat. Then they slid away, fixing on the cold hearth, on the grey ashes of a fire that had died hours ago.

Duncan's chest commenced a peculiar performance. A squeeze, as if someone had taken hold of his heart and given it a firm handshake. A release, as if the same someone had thought better of it. A spreading warmth, like the afterglow of a tall drink on a cold night, radiating outward from his sternum to his fingers and toes.

Oh, he thought. This again.

He had felt this before. The memory surfaced unbidden. The feast at Winterfell, early in their marriage, when Aerion had spent the evening skewering the northern lords with his tongue, reducing proud men to stammering apologies with nothing more than a raised eyebrow and a carefully placed insult. A young woman—foolish or brave, Duncan could never decide which—had cornered him into a dance. And for a handful of heartbeats, the prince had danced. Not well. He had moved with the grace of a cat on ice, all sharp angles and desperate corrections. But with a fierce, unguarded joy that had made Duncan's breath catch and his chest ache.

He had watched Aerion that night. Watched him laugh, truly laugh, and had felt something crack open inside himself. Something he had been trying to close ever since.

Now, watching Aerion suffer through the aftermath of sorrowroot, Duncan felt a shameful warmth behind his ribs. A warmth he recognized and despised.

He was glad the sickness had come.

Glad because it had made the prince soft. Reachable. His. The thought was selfish. He knew it. He did not care enough to move his hand.

The next morning, before the sun had fully cleared the walls of Winterfell, Duncan climbed the narrow stairs to the maester's turret.

He found the old man at his workbench, surrounded by jars and dried herbs and the peculiar smell of knowledge left too long in the dark. A single candle burned beside an open ledger, its flame steady in the still air. The maester did not look up when Duncan entered. He had outlived kings, weathered three rebellions, and watched enough green lords with foolish questions come and go that he had learned the value of making them wait.

Duncan waited.

Outside, a bird called once, twice, and then fell silent.

"The sorrowroot," Duncan said at last. "The sickness it brings. Is there nothing to take the edge off? Something to make the cruelty kinder?"

The maester peered at him over the rim of his spectacles. His eyes were pale as a winter sky and runny as a soft-boiled egg, but they had seen everything worth seeing in the North and most things that were not. He set down his quill with a soft click.

"Why would you want to eat them, my lord?" The old man's voice had all the warmth of a crypt in midwinter. "Terribly inconvenient things, sorrowroot berries. The seeds alone require the patience of a holy septon, and I have yet to meet a septon with such questionable taste. Most sensible people leave sorrowroot to the birds, who have no sense, and the desperate, who have no choice."

He paused, his pale eyes narrowing.

"You, I assume, have both?"

Duncan shifted his weight from one foot to the other. His ears had begun to glow, a phenomenon he had first noticed at age twelve when a serving girl caught him staring at her across the great hall. The affliction had not improved in the intervening decade. If anything, it had grown worse, spreading now to his neck and the tips of his fingers.

"My prince," he said. He enunciated each word carefully, as if the syllables themselves might bite him if he spoke too quickly. "My prince wishes to eat more."

The silence that followed was the kind of silence that usually preceded either a thunderstorm or a very pointed remark. The maester removed his spectacles. He polished them on his sleeve, a slow, deliberate motion that seemed to take an age. He put them back on. He looked at Duncan as though the Lord of Winterfell had just announced his intention to marry a goat and produce a line of woolly heirs.

"Your prince," the maester repeated slowly. He drew out the words, tasting each one, as if he could not quite believe they had crossed another man's lips.

Duncan's ears were now the colour of ripe beets. "Yes."

The maester sighed. It was a long world-weary sound, the sigh of a man who had long ago stopped trying to understand the young. Especially the young in love, who were, in his considered opinion, a species of mad entirely unto themselves. He had seen it before. He would see it again. He had learned to simply provide the remedy and keep his judgments to himself, though his face had never quite mastered the art of neutrality.

He rose from his stool with a grunt and shuffled to the shelves that lined the far wall. His fingers moved along the jars with the certainty of long practice, finding each vessel without hesitation. He pulled down a jar of dried mint, its leaves brittle and fragrant. A pouch of chamomile, the flowers crushed to powder. A small clay pot of honey, its surface sticky with age.

He measured with his fingers, not with spoons, his movements deliberate and almost ritual. He looked like a man preparing a sacrament for a faith he had never quite believed in but had learned to respect. The mint went into a small leather pouch. The chamomile followed. The honey remained in its pot, waiting.

"Brew this," the maester said, pressing the pouch into Duncan's hands. "A pinch of mint, a pinch of chamomile, a spoon of honey. Steep it in boiling water for the space of fifty heartbeats. No more, no less. Have him drink it before the berries. The cramps will ease. The sweat will still come, I cannot prevent that, but his stomach will not rebel so violently."

Duncan frowned. His fingers closed around the pouch, feeling the dry herbs shift inside. "He will still suffer?"

"Sorrowroot is no gentle fruit, my lord." The maester's voice had softened, though not by much. "It demands a price for its sweetness. Every pleasure has its cost, and the cost of sorrowroot is paid in sweat and bile. The tea merely reduces the toll. It does not waive it entirely."

He paused, his hand hovering over the jar of mint as if reconsidering something.

"The seeds are the true danger. You must tell him, beg him if you must, to spit every single seed. Every one, my lord. If he swallows them, the cramps will return threefold, and all the tea in my turret will not spare him. The seeds carry the heart of the poison. The flesh around them is merely the messenger."

Duncan shifted again, his boots scuffing the stone floor. A fine dust rose from the cracks between the flagstones. "And if he drinks the tea and spits the seeds? Will he feel nothing? Will there be no pain at all?"

The maester met his eyes. His gaze was kind, the  kindness of a man who had delivered stillborn babes and held dying lords and learned that some truths were too harsh to soften. He had seen young men ask this question before, in different words, for different reasons, and he had never found a way to answer that did not wound them.

"There will be discomfort, my lord." He spoke slowly, choosing each word with care. "His belly will churn. His brow will sweat. He will feel as though he has eaten something that does not wish to be eaten. But he will live. The poison will not kill him, and the sickness will pass by morning."

He pressed the clay pot of honey into Duncan's other hand, his fingers cold against Duncan's own.

"Now go. I have real ailments to attend to. People who have accidentally stabbed themselves with their own daggers. People who have fallen off horses they had no business riding. People who have not voluntarily ingested poison because someone looked at a berry with longing eyes."

Duncan's ears went pink again. He opened his mouth to speak, thought better of it, and closed his mouth. He turned and left without another word, the herbs rustling in his hand, the honey pot warm against his palm.

The maester's words followed him down the turret stairs, each step carrying the echo of that sigh.

He crossed the yard to the kitchens, where the cook was already shaping bread for the morning meal. The woman looked up from her work, flour dusting her apron and forearms, and opened her mouth to speak.

"Bowl," Duncan said before she could ask. "A large one. Wooden, not clay."

The cook blinked. Her hands stilled on the dough.

"He will throw it if he is in a mood," Duncan explained, though he had not meant to explain anything. "Clay shatters. Wood merely bruises."

The cook did not ask who would throw it. She had served at Winterfell long enough to know that some questions were better left unasked, that some answers carried more weight than any servant should bear. She wiped her hands on her apron, crossed to the shelf by the door, and produced a wooden bowl. Wide, shallow, the kind used for serving stew to a table of hungry men. The wood was dark with age, stained by a hundred meals and a thousand washings.

Duncan took it without his usual thanks. His mind was already elsewhere, climbing trees he had not yet reached, picking berries that still hung on distant branches.

The tree was waiting.

He climbed with the bowl tucked under his arm, a decision that made the ascent three times more awkward than it needed to be. Bark scraped his palms, leaving shallow cuts that beaded with blood.
At one point, he nearly dropped the bowl. His heart performed a manoeuvre that would have impressed a tournament rider, lurching up into his throat and then dropping back into his chest with a sickening thud. But he held on. He always held on.

He filled the bowl carefully, deliberately, placing each berry with the same attention he might give to arranging troops before a battle. He chose the largest first, then the ripest, then those that caught the light in a certain way. The bowl overflowed, dark and glistening, a heap of rubies that stained his fingers red.

When he climbed down, his legs were shaking. He told himself it was from exertion. The lie tasted false on his tongue, but he swallowed it anyway.

The tea was still warm when he reached the lord's chamber. He had brewed it in the kitchen while the cook pretended not to watch. Mint and chamomile and honey, steeped for exactly fifty heartbeats. He had counted each one, his lips moving silently, his finger tapping against the clay pot. The pot sat in his other hand now, sweating a little, smelling of herbs and patience and the warmth of something made by hand for someone else's mouth.

The prince was sitting by the window, wrapped in furs. His face was still pale from the night's sickness, his eyes still shadowed with exhaustion, but something in his posture had changed. The rigid line of his spine had softened. The set of his jaw had relaxed. He looked less like a prince awaiting execution and more like a man watching the morning light creep across the floor.

He turned his head when Duncan entered. His violet eyes found the bowl first, then the pot, then Duncan's face. A small furrow appeared between his brows.

"What is that?" Aerion asked, nodding at the bowl.

Duncan set it on the table between them. The berries tumbled against each other, settling into a new arrangement. A few rolled to the edge and stopped, balanced on the rim, trembling with the memory of motion.

"You went back." Aerion's voice was wondering, as if he could not quite believe that anyone would climb a tree twice for him.

"I brought tea too." Duncan poured a cup, watching the steam rise in a thin spiral. "The maester said to drink it before. It gentles the sickness. Makes the body more forgiving."

Aerion's hand hung above the bowl like a hawk deciding whether to strike. His fingers curled, uncurled, curled again. A small, desperate rhythm that spoke of a mind at war with itself. He withdrew as though burned, pulling his hand back into the safety of his furs.

Then, slowly, the hand returned.

Duncan watched the prince's face. Watched the way his eyes moved across the berries without quite settling on them. He was not looking at the fruit at all. He was looking at something far older, far deeper. A memory of Summerhall, perhaps, or a ghost of a mother's voice, or the cold weight of a father's disapproval. The shadow of a prince who had learned that desire was a weakness to be purged, not a hunger to be fed.

"Why?" The question was tender, almost a whisper. It carried the weight of a thousand unasked questions before it, all the questions Aerion had never allowed himself to voice. Why do you stay? Why do you climb the tree? Why do you look at me as though I am worth looking at? Why do you bring me tea and berries and stand there with your ears burning like a boy caught stealing kisses?

Duncan sat down across from him. The space between them suddenly felt smaller, though neither of them had moved. He placed his hands on his knees, feeling the rough wool of his trousers beneath his palms. His heart had found its way back to his throat, and it beat there, a steady drum.

"Because you like them." He said it simply, the way one might say the sun rises or winter comes. As if the statement required no explanation, no justification, no defense. A fact of the natural world, immutable and eternal.

Aerion's hand stopped hovering. It reached into the bowl.

His eyes did not leave Duncan's face. He picked up a berry, held it between his thumb and forefinger, turned it over slowly. The juice stained his skin, red as the heart of a dying fire. The light caught its surface and made it glow.

"Drink the tea first," Duncan reminded him. "The maester was clear on that point. And spit the seeds. Every single one."

Aerion did not argue.

He lifted the cup with both hands, his fingers wrapped around the clay, and drank. His throat moved with each swallow. When the cup was empty, he set it down with a soft click and returned his attention to the berry in his fingers. He looked at it for a long moment, as if memorizing its shape.

Then he placed it on his tongue.

Duncan had always liked watching people eat.

It was, he had long since concluded, the only honest act left in a world full of oaths that bent like wet willow and lords who smiled while reaching for a dagger. A man could lie about love. A man could lie about loyalty, about courage, about the contents of his heart. But the way he ate? That was truth laid bare on a trencher, truth that could not be disguised or denied.

He remembered a winter when he was seven. A trader from the Reach had brought a bushel of oranges to Winterfell, a rare treasure in those cold months, and his father had given one to each child in the keep. His brother had eaten his in small, reverent bites, his eyes half-closed, her lips shining with juice. He had been happy. Truly happy. Duncan had remembered that happiness longer than he had remembered the taste of the fruit.

And Aerion looked so happy.

He ate the sorrowroot berries like a man who had been told his whole life that dessert was a myth invented by traitors to undermine honest northern appetites. His fingers were red within seconds, stained to the second knuckle. His chin glistened with juice that dripped. A small, undignified noise escaped his throat, something between a sigh and a groan, and he did not even have the decency to look embarrassed about it.

He finished the bowl in silence. Berry after berry disappeared into that unforgiving mouth, each one chewed with the same careful attention, the same intense concentration. By the end, his lips were stained the colour of old blood, and his thumb was wet where he had licked it clean.

Duncan watched him. He would, he realized, climb every tree from here to the Wall just to see that stained expression again. He would brave thorns and frost and the displeasure of northern squirrels. He would risk the maester's sighs and the cook's knowing looks and the whispered speculation of every servant in Winterfell.

This was pure stupidity, the kind that got men stabbed or married or both. A lord did not tie his happiness to some spoiled prince who would rather swallow poison than say "please" like a normal human being. A lord kept his heart in a locked chest and the key in a separate room. A lord did not sit in a chamber with his ears burning and his hands red with berry juice, dreaming of future branches and future fruit.

And yet Duncan sat there, perfectly content, watching a dragon eat his weight in poison and call it breakfast.

A wise man would run. Duncan had never been accused of wisdom. The gods were laughing, he suspected. He could not hear them, but he could feel the shape of their mirth in the air around him, warm as summer and sharp as winter's first frost.

The hand was the cruelest memory.

They had been crossing the ford at dusk, the light thin and blue as skimmed milk, the stones slick with a skin of ice that had formed in the afternoon's fading warmth. The water ran black and swift between banks of grey stone, and the ice crept out from the edges like fingers reaching for something to hold.

Aerion rode ahead. He always rode ahead, as though the distance between them were a form of dignity, a declaration that he needed no one's company and wanted no one's protection. His grey courser picked its way across the stones with the careful steps of a horse that had crossed a hundred fords and knew the treachery of wet rock. But the ice was treacherous that evening, more treacherous than usual, and the horse was tired from a long day's ride, and the prince was not paying attention to either.

He had been looking at something in the trees. A bird, perhaps, or a trick of the fading light, or simply the way the shadows gathered between the branches like secrets waiting to be told. His head had turned, just slightly, just enough to shift his weight in the saddle.

The hoof slipped.

The horse lurched, scrambled for purchase, found none. Its legs went wide, its head dropped low, and for one terrible moment the whole world seemed to tilt sideways. Aerion went over.

Duncan moved before the thought finished. His hand shot out, caught the prince's wrist, and their fingers locked together through the leather of their gloves. The force of the catch pulled him forward in the saddle, and his own horse danced sideways, hooves striking sparks from the stones.

For the space of three heartbeats, they held.

One for the past, for all the moments that had led to this particular crossing on this particular evening. One for the present, for the warmth of Aerion's hand through the deerhide, for the small and terrible proof of life that radiated from his skin. One for a future that might never come, that might be stolen by the black water or the ice or the simple cruelty of a horse's misstep.

His hand was warm. Even through the glove, through the cold that had clawed its way into Duncan's bones from hours in the saddle, he felt it. That warmth. That small, stubborn refusal of the body to surrender to the chill. The cold was in the wind, in the stones, in the very breath he drew—everywhere, in everything, the North's endless claim on all who lived within its borders. Except in Aerion. Except where Aerion touched him.

Duncan held on.

Aerion wrenched free as if the touch had burned through leather and skin and bone to the very marrow. He staggered back, his arms windmilling for balance. His chest heaved with quick, shallow breaths. His eyes had gone wild and wet, the violet irises swallowed by pupils blown wide.

Then the expression passed across his face, the one Duncan had learned to dread like the headsman's stroke. Fury. Lips skinned back from his teeth, white as a corpse's, white as the frost on the stones. His jaw clenched so hard that the cords stood out in his neck.

Or maybe fear.

The distinction mattered, Duncan had learned. Fury was a weapon. Fear was a wound. One could be met with steel. The other required a gentler touch, a softer hand, the patience of a man who knew that some wounds took years to close and would still leave scars.

Later, lying awake in their shared tent while Aerion pretended to sleep, Duncan understood. The fury had been real. The fear had been real as well. But underneath both, deeper than either, there was something else.

Shame.

The shame of a hand that had chosen to stay. The shame of fingers that had interlaced with another's and found the grip pleasing. The shame of a body that had leaned into the catch instead of pulling away, that had surrendered to the warmth before the mind could reassert its authority.

And what was shame, when all was said and done, but the terror of being seen? The terror that someone else might know what you had scarcely dared to admit to yourself in the dark, alone at last and far too tired to go on lying. Aerion had not been angry. Aerion had been caught. Caught needing. Caught in the act of being human, which was, for a prince who had spent his whole life pretending otherwise, the most unforgivable crime of all.

Duncan closed his eyes. He could still feel it. That warmth. That terrible weight of fingers interlaced and not withdrawn. The ghost of Aerion's grip lingered on his palm, a phantom pressure that refused to fade. He flexed his hand, opened and closed his fingers, tried to shake the sensation loose. It stayed.

He did not sleep. He lay in the darkness and listened to Aerion breathe. Too slow, too steady, the measured breathing of a man who wished to convince another that he was not listening for the very same thing Duncan himself was listening for.

He thought, then again, of the weight of a hand that had not pulled away.

It was a terrible thing, he decided, to have your hand held. Terrible and sweet, both at once, a contradiction that the mind could not resolve and the heart could not escape. Because once you had known that specific warmth, you would spend all the rest of your days measuring every other warmth against it. A fire's heat would seem hollow. A fur's embrace would feel insufficient. A lover's touch, should you ever find another, would leave you cold.

Nothing else would ever be enough.

He lay there until the first grey light came seeping through the canvas, thin and reluctant, as if the dawn itself were unsure whether to commit. The shapes of the tent grew visible: the curve of the ceiling, the slump of Aerion's bedding across the way, the dark hump of a saddle near the entrance. Somewhere outside, a horse stamped its foot and blew air through its nose.

He did not move. He kept his breathing even, his body still, his eyes fixed on the canvas above. Somewhere across the tent, Aerion did not move either.

That, Duncan thought, was perhaps the saddest thing of all. They were both, for once, holding on. And neither of them could bring himself to say so.

The first kiss—the real first kiss, not the dry, dutiful peck at the wedding witnessed by a drunk septon who had clearly been sampling the wine since breakfast—happened over something so stupid that Duncan had already forgotten what it was.

A horse, perhaps. Or a bridge. Or the correct way to skin a rabbit, which was a subject that had, against all reason and dignity, nearly escalated into actual bloodshed twice. The third time, there had been no one to separate them but the cold and their own stubborn pride.

"You hold the knife there." Aerion pointed with a finger that seemed to find Duncan's every gesture an asperation to the art of butchery. "Unless you were raised by wolves who taught you to hack like a headsman who has lost his taste for the work."

"Wolves would have more sense." Duncan did not look up from the wretched carcass. His hands were red to the wrists, and the rabbit looked less like food. "At least they would have the decency to eat the evidence."

That was when the shouting had begun in earnest.

They had been at it for the better part of an hour in the middle of the training yard. Snow fell around them in thick, lazy flakes, as if the gods had decided to weigh in on the argument and found both parties wanting. The white dust clung to Aerion's silver-gold hair, to the shoulders of his fine wool cloak, to the elegant line of his eyebrows where it collected like tiny, frozen judgments.

Aerion called Duncan a thick-skulled ox with the wit of a rusty hinge and the grace of a collapsing barn.

Duncan called Aerion a preening crow who spent more time on his hair than on his swordwork and whose opinions on butchery were worth exactly as much as his opinions on architecture, which was to say nothing at all.

Aerion pointed out that Duncan's swordwork was exactly why they were having this conversation, because Duncan had somehow managed to gut the rabbit like a fish, which was a feat of such spectacular incompetence that it almost qualified as an art form.

Duncan pointed out that the rabbit was dead either way, so what did it matter, and also that Aerion's hair did look ridiculous in the snow, all oiled and shining like a raven's wing that had been caught in a vain moment.

"You are the most infuriating creature the Seven have ever allowed to draw breath." Aerion said it low and quiet, which was always when he was most dangerous."The most stubborn, the most obtuse, the most willfully, gleefully impossible man in all the Seven Kingdoms."

Duncan should have seen it coming. He should have read the warning in the way Aerion's jaw tightened, in the flush that crept up his neck like wildfire spreading through dry summer grass. The signs were all there, written plainly on that sharp, beautiful face for anyone with eyes to see.

But he was too busy being right about the rabbit. Too busy enjoying the way Aerion's composure cracked around the edges, revealing something rawer beneath.

Aerion's fist twisted in the front of Duncan's tunic and hauled him down.

Down was a long way. Duncan's chin met Aerion's forehead somewhere in the middle, a collision of bone and bone that sent a dull shock through his jaw. Teeth clicked together. Something warm trickled down his lip.

And then, oh.

The kiss was nothing like the songs.

It was too hard, too angry, too full of days of argument and weeks of tension and  moons of pretending that the space between them meant nothing. Aerion tasted of snow and the sour wine from breakfast and something that might have been the metal of his own anger.

His lips were chapped from the cold. Duncan's nose was running. The snow had found its way inside his collar and was melting in a slow, cold trickle down his spine.

And yet when Aerion bit down on his lower lip—just shy of drawing blood—Duncan made a sound that had no business coming out of a man his size. A sound that belonged in a bedchamber, not a snow-covered training yard with the walls of Winterfell watching from every direction.

He pulled back first, breathing hard. "You bit me."

"You deserved worse." Aerion's chest was heaving beneath the fine wool cloak. His hand had not let go of Duncan's tunic. The knuckles were white, the tendons standing out like cords. His eyes were fixed on Duncan's mouth with an intensity that made the snow feel warm. "For skinning that rabbit like a—"

"For skinning a rabbit?"

"The maesters say every man has a purpose." Aerion's voice cracked on the last word, a small, unexpected fracture in the smooth surface of his disdain. He was close enough that Duncan could count the snowflakes melting in his light hair. Close enough that the top of his head barely reached Duncan's shoulder, and yet he managed to look down at Duncan anyway, a trick of posture and pure, concentrated arrogance. "Yours, it seems, is to test how long a reasonable person can watch you be you before reaching for a dagger; and calling it mercy.”

Duncan felt the corner of his mouth twitch. "You're very pretty when you're angry."

"That is not the insult you think it is."

"It was not an insult." He had not moved away, not an inch, and that lack of movement felt like a challenge he had not meant to make.The distance between his hand and Aerion’s waist was nothing at all; he could have wrapped his fingers around the prince’s middle and lifted the whole creature off the ground before Aerion could draw another breath.
What a laugh that would have been. And what a way to die. "You kissed me."

"I committed an act of oral aggression. The terminology is precise."

"Is there a precise term for standing this close afterward?"

"Cowardice. On both our parts."

"I do not feel like a coward."

"Then you are not paying attention."

"You kissed me," Duncan repeated.

Aerion’s breath stumbled. The sound was so faint that a lesser man would have called it wind, but Duncan had stood guard through a thousand silent nights and learned to hear the difference between a rat and a sword. No venom came. No mockery. Only that beautiful, hateful face crumbling into understanding: he had stepped into a trap of his own making, and cleverness would not pry the jaws apart.

"You are thinking very loudly," Duncan murmured.

"I am thinking that I should have let the wolves have you." Aerion's grip tightened on Duncan's tunic. The fabric pulled across Duncan's chest.

"No, you are not."

Aerion's lips found Duncan's with the tentative grace of a man exploring a land he had been taught to fear. The prince moved against him without urgency, without the armor of mockery or the blade of a sneer. A small sound escaped Aerion's throat, something between a sigh and a question, and Duncan felt the shape of it against his own mouth.
His tongue traced the seam of Duncan's mouth with a reverence that made the knight's chest ache. The prince's fingers, which had gripped Duncan's shoulders like a drowning man clutching driftwood, softened. They spread across the broad planes of Duncan's back, pressing, feeling, memorizing.

A warmth bloomed low in Duncan's belly, spreading through his thighs like melted honey. He wanted to pull Aerion closer. He wanted to crush Aerion against the stone wall. He wanted to flee into the snow. He stood trapped in the amber of the moment, letting a dragon teach him the true name of longing.

When Aerion finally pulled back, his eyes were glassy, his lips parted, and a single silver strand still connected them. "You taste of ale and honesty," the prince whispered. "I had forgotten what that was like."

Duncan's voice emerged rougher than he intended. "Have you ever tasted it before?"

The prince's smile arrived unarmed. "Not from a man who did not want something in return."

Duncan's palms settled on the sharp crests of Aerion's hips. He drew the prince forward until no air remained between them—ribs against ribs, the hard ridge of Aerion's belt buckle pressing into his belly, the furnace of the smaller man's thighs bracketing his own. A groan rolled up from the knight's chest and escaped through his nostrils, naked as a wound.

Aerion answered with a broken noise, raw at the edges, and that sound turned Duncan's blood to fire. The prince's tongue swept past his lips without demand, without conquest—a question posed so softly it might have been a whimper. For what? Neither man could name it.

Duncan's fingers—broad, calloused, clumsy as a farrier's at fine work—threaded through Aerion's hair with an ease that shocked them both. Snowmelt had frozen into tiny crystals among the silver-gold strands. Beneath his palm, the prince's scalp radiated heat. When Duncan's nails grazed the tender skin behind Aerion's ear, a shiver raced down the prince's spine and into Duncan's own bones.

Duncan had heard men roar defiance before the charge, had listened to dying knights confess their sins to silent gods. None of those sounds struck him like Aerion's gasp—soft, wounded, honest beyond measure.

Again Aerion pulled away. In the space between their gazes, a fever flickered behind those pale eyes, beautiful as a falling star and just as doomed to drown in the salt dark. "Speak of this," he said, low and steady despite the tremor rattling his hands, "and I'll destroy you in ways your imagination cannot compass. Your name will become a curse across every keep from the Wall to the Summer Sea. Every door will slam. Every lord will spit."

Duncan looked at him and saw the truth beneath the threat. A boy playing at monsters because no one had ever taught him how to be anything else.

He kissed the prince a last time, a kiss that tasted of farewell, then tore himself away and stepped backward into the snow. Duncan wiped his lips with the back of his hand, slow as a man waking from a dream he did not wish to leave, and held Aerion's gaze without lowering his own. The prince's hair lay in disheveled strands, damp and tangled by Duncan's fingers, each clump a small evidence of their ruin. Aerion looked undone—wonderfully, irreversibly undone, like a garden after rain, like a letter crumpled and then smoothed open again. I made him this way, Duncan thought, and the thought itself became a caress. My hands. My mouth. My wanting. He wanted to ruin Aerion again. He wanted to follow that ruin into deeper waters, to drown in the prince’s gasps and rise only for air, to taste that wounded honesty once more before the world rebuilt its walls between them.

"If you breathe a word of this," Aerion said, soft as silk drawn over a knife, "I will say you tore my clothes and split my lip with your hunger. I will weep before your own bannermen, ser. Tears come to me as easily as cruelty comes to other men."

Duncan laughed. The sound skittered across the frozen yard and died against the grey stones.

"Who would believe that? You, weeping? The man who told maester he was wasting good fire while the needle still threaded his flesh?"

Aerion's nostrils flared. "That was competence. This is—"

"This is what?"

The prince's pale eyes slid away—toward the gatehouse, toward the falling snow, anywhere but the knight's face.

"This is a complication."

"You kiss me like a starving man who has stumbled upon a loaf. You gasp against my mouth as though I have slipped a dagger between your ribs and turned it twice. And you call that a complication."

"I call it what it is."

"You are pretty when you're so intimidated." The word tasted better the second time. He would say it again. The hour did not matter, nor the place, nor the storm of outrage it would surely summon.

From this day forward, Duncan resolved to speak it often. So many moments had cried out for the word. The night he watched the prince sleep, silver hair pooled across the pillow like moonlight caught in a fishing net, mouth open, one hand curled against his chest as if guarding a secret. The first joust at Storm's End, when Aerion rode a streak of crimson and black, his slender frame drawn taut as a bowstring before the loosing. His lance found every mark. His seat was so perfect that he seemed less a rider than a centaur, flesh and horse made one. Duncan watched him unhorse a knight twice his size, watched him tear off his helm and shake out those silver strands, sweat tracing runnels through the dust on his cheeks. Pretty in his strength. Pretty in his fury. Pretty in the way he spat blood and grinned.

Even in the training yard, when Aerion's blade sang a song of pure, focused violence – every cut precise, every parry a lesson in controlled rage – Duncan had thought it. The prince fought like a man who had never been taught that size mattered, who believed his speed and his will could conquer any mountain. And often they did. Duncan had seen him drive a seasoned knight to his knees with nothing but a flurry of strikes and a snarl that belonged to a much larger beast. Pretty, Duncan thought then. Pretty in the way he refused to fall. Pretty in the way fire is pretty just before it consumes a hall.

Even their first meeting – a boy of sixteen, struck dumb in the great hall of Summerhall – Duncan had felt the word rise in his throat like bile. He had swallowed it. He would swallow no more. Aerion could rage, could threaten, could call him fool, barbarian from the frozen wastes. Duncan would say pretty again, and again, until the word wore through the prince's armour like water through stone, or until it killed them both.

Aerion's face flushed scarlet. His hands curled into fists at his sides. "Speak that word once more," he threatened, his voice dropping to a whisper that cut like a razor, "and I shall demonstrate upon your person the correct method of skinning a rabbit. The long way. The way that keeps the creature alive until the final cut."

Aerion then performed the elaborate ritual of drawing himself up to his full height—a move that, had he been standing on a small stool or perhaps a very optimistic molehill, might have conveyed the authority he so clearly intended. As it was, the top of his silver-gold head barely grazed the underside of Duncan's chin, a geographical fact that rendered the entire performance rather like a sparrow threatening an eagle by fluffing its feathers.

Duncan laughed again."You could not reach my hide even if I knelt, little prince. I would have to lie down and spread my arms like a maester's diagram."

That was the wrong thing to say.

Aerion moved like a snake—fast, spiteful, and utterly without warning. He did not draw a knife. He did not need to. He simply launched himself at Duncan's midsection, all one hundred and sixty-eight centimeters of furious prince wrapped in wet wool and bad intentions and the particular, focused aggression of a man who had been waiting for an excuse since their wedding night.

Duncan, for all his height and reach and years of combat training, did not see it coming. His boots slipped in the slush that had accumulated beneath the snow. His arms pinwheeled. The world tilted.

They went down together, rolling through the frozen muck of the training yard like two stable boys settling a grudge.

"Are you mad—" Duncan grunted, trying to get an arm free.

"Quiet, oaf." Aerion's knee drove into his ribs. The impact pushed the air from Duncan's lungs in a whoosh. "This is what you deserve. This is what happens when you—when you say things."

Snow filled Duncan's collar. Mud smeared across his cheek, cold and gritty against his skin. Somewhere in the tangle of limbs and wool and flying snow, Aerion's hand found his belt and yanked hard enough to drag him sideways. They crashed into a half-frozen trough.

Water splashed. The cold hit like a fist.

Aerion cursed in High Valyrian, a language that turned even a request for more wine into a declaration of war. Duncan caught perhaps one word in ten—something about a goat, possibly, or the goat's ancestors—but the tone required no translation. That tone had a history. Duncan had first heard it from the far end of a long corridor, aimed at a serving girl who had dared to pour the prince's breakfast ale at the wrong angle. He had heard it again when a stable boy brought the wrong saddle, and again when a seamstress stitched a hem a finger's breadth too short. The tone was Aerion’s signature, sharper than any seal ring. It meant you have failed me, and I shall now educate you in the many flavours of your inadequacy. Duncan found it strangely comforting. At least the prince’s rage was consistent. And, he admitted to himself, also a little pretty.

Duncan used the moment. He rolled, pinned the smaller man beneath him, and grinned down through the mud dripping from his cheek. "Having fun, my prince?"

Aerion's response was to drive his forehead into Duncan's chin.

The world exploded. Stars burst behind Duncan's eyes – white, then red, then a dull, pulsing grey that reminded him of the time he had fallen from his horse at fourteen and woken to find his father's maester stitching his scalp. He reeled back, his jaw singing with a pain that felt like a blacksmith's hammer, and Aerion slithered free. The prince moved like an eel through river weeds, all oil and spite, scrambling to his feet and kicking a spray of slush straight into Duncan's face.

"You fight like a grandmother." Aerion stood over him, chest heaving, the ruined cloak hanging from one shoulder. His silver-gold hair had become a tangled nest of mud and sweat, plastered to his forehead in dark, wet strands. A smear of brown decorated his cheek like a battle standard after a lost war. "A grandmother who has been dead for several years and is fighting from memory."

Duncan rose slowly, wiping his face with the back of his hand. He took his time. Let the prince catch his breath, let the fire in his jaw settle into a dull ache. He had learned that haste was a young man's game, and Aerion's speed was his greatest weapon. So Duncan stood, rolled his shoulders, and spat a mouthful of mud onto the frost-hard ground.

"That was your best shot?" he asked. "A headbutt? I have taken harder blows from my nephews, and they are seven."

Aerion's eyes narrowed. His chest still rose and fell in quick, shallow bursts, but his hands had stopped trembling. Good. Duncan wanted him calm. Wanted him thinking. Because a thinking Aerion was a predictable Aerion – pride first, caution never, and always, always the need to have the last word.

"You are a simpleton who would lose a battle of wits to a turnip."

Duncan spread his arms wide, mud dripping from his elbows in slow, heavy drops. "Come on then, little dragon. Show me your skills."

Aerion charged.

This time Duncan was ready. He let the prince come close, let that slender frame hurl itself at his chest, and then his hand closed around Aerion's wrist like a man catching a chicken. His other hand found the prince's hip – sharp bone beneath wet wool, a warmth that surprised him even now. They spun. Mud sprayed in a dark arc. Aerion's feet left the ground entirely, his boots kicking at empty air, and for one long heartbeat the prince hung there, suspended, helpless, his violet eyes wide with fury and something else.

Something that looked almost like joy.

He held on.

"Put me down—"

"Make me."

His boots, fine leather from the Reach, scuffed against Duncan's thighs. The prince's face had gone the color of a winter sunset, that particular shade of red that meant fury and humiliation were waging a civil war behind his violet eyes.

"I will have you gelded," Aerion spat. His hand fumbled for the dagger at his belt, caught the hilt, found it trapped between their bodies. "I will have your tongue torn out. I will have your head mounted above the gates of Summerhall and your—your parts sent to your mother in a box."

Duncan laughed and dropped Aerion into the deepest, filthiest puddle he could find.

The prince landed with a spectacular splash. Water erupted in all directions, a dark fountain that caught the grey light and scattered it in diamonds. A howl of pure, concentrated outrage followed, so loud and so raw that birds fled from the battlements in a panicked cloud of wings and feathers.

Aerion lay there, spreadeagled in the mud. He was spitting black water like a disgruntled fountain, his face a mask of such profound indignation that Duncan felt a laugh building in his chest.

Duncan stood over the puddle, mud dripping from his nose, and realized with the sort of dull horror reserved for discovering you have been fighting on the wrong side of an argument that Aerion—soaked, spitting, cursing like a sailor with a wasp in his smallclothes—was still the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.

That was not right, he thought. That was not how the songs went. The hero was supposed to find the prince ridiculous after a mud bath, not want to kiss the mud off his cheekbones. The hero was supposed to maintain some dignity, some distance, some sense of perspective.

But the way Aerion glared up at him—those violet eyes promising seven different kinds of painful death, each one more creative than the last—only made it worse.

I would find him beautiful in rags, Duncan realized. I would find him beautiful covered in pig shit and screaming at me, because the problem is me. All me.

He had already seen the prince in every conceivable state. Silk-draped and sneering at a feast, his tongue sharp enough to draw blood from stone. Fever-sweaty and cursing the gods, his face pale as parchment, his hands shaking as Duncan pressed a cold cloth to his forehead. Once, with a fishbone stuck in his throat and his dignity in tatters, Aerion had glared at Duncan as if the fish had been a  gift from the Lord of Winterfell, designed specifically to humiliate him.

And every single time, Duncan's traitor heart had done the same stupid backflip.

There is not a version, he realized, watching Aerion wring out his sopping sleeve, that I would not want to kiss until we both forgot our own names.

Filthy, furious, or flayed. Did not matter.

And worse—far worse—he could see them all stretching out before him like a road paved with bad decisions. Aerion at fifty, still complaining about the drafts, his silver hair now the color of old pewter and his temper no less volcanic for the years. Aerion at seventy, toothless and grumpy, shouting at servants who had not yet been born when they first argued about rabbit skinning. Aerion on a bad day, on a worse day, on the kind of day that ended with both of them in the stocks for public brawling.

Aerion in the grip of some ghastly pox, his face greenish and his language unprintable, even by his own impressive standards. Aerion so old that he had to be carried to the argument, still winning it, still glaring with those faded violet eyes, still finding new and creative ways to call Duncan an oaf.

And Duncan knew, with the certainty of a man who had just watched his future flash before his eyes, that he would want to kiss every single one of them.

The toothless version. The pox-ridden version. The version that had forgotten his own name but not how to curse Duncan's. The version that could no longer ride a horse or throw a punch, but could still summon enough fury to make a grown man flinch.

There was no escape. There was no cure. That was the madness no septon could pray away, no maester could leech out, no amount of cold northern water could wash clean.

I am going to die of this, Duncan thought. I am going to die of wanting to kiss a grumpy old dragon who will outlive me out of sheer spite.

"You," Aerion said, very quietly, "have made a terrible mistake."

"Have I? You look cooler now. The mud was drying on your cheek. I was worried you might crack."

Aerion lunged again, but the puddle slowed him.  The prince's fingers clawed at empty air, his teeth bared, his Valyrian curses flowing like a river. "I hate you," he said.

"No, you do not."

"I hate you with the fire of a thousand dragons." Aerion announced from the puddle with the conviction of a man declaring war, which Duncan found hilarious given that the prince's left ear had a piece of floating straw stuck to it.

"That is a lot of dragons," Duncan admitted. But the number meant nothing. The only number that mattered was two. Two kisses returned. Two times the prince had chosen to stay rather than flee. "You still kissed me back."

Which meant the hatred might be negotiable.

The prince glanced up. And that was when Duncan's mind, which had been chugging along like a reliable old workhorse, hit a patch of black ice and went straight through the guardrail of rational thought. Gone were the thorns from Aerion's expression. His eyes held a sweetness so unexpected, so disarmingly genuine, that Duncan felt a pang of guilt so sharp he nearly sat down in the puddle himself. He had put that look there. He had taken a dragon and taught it to purr.

"Help me out of this puddle," Aerion said. The prince’s next word hit Duncan like a custard pie thrown by fate itself. "Please." It was not the word itself, which any sensible man used daily when confronted with locked doors and empty flagons. It was the way Aerion said it; as if the word had been pickled in vinegar and then dipped in honey, and now it sat in Duncan's chest cracking ribs like a blacksmith testing a horseshoe.

He sighed, the sound long and weary and full of a strange, helpless affection. Then he reached down.

Aerion stared at the offered hand. The mud had begun to freeze on his cheeks, turning his skin a mottled pink. His eyes traveled from Duncan's fingers to his face and back again, weighing something that Duncan could only guess.

Then, very deliberately, Aerion grabbed the hand.

And yanked.

Hard.

Duncan fell on top of him.

The mud was cold. Duncan felt it in his knees, his elbows, the backs of his thighs where the muck had found its way past his breeches. It squelched beneath them, a wet, intimate sound that seemed too loud in the sudden quiet.

Aerion lay beneath him, pinned by the weight of Duncan's body. His eyes were wide, the pupils dilated, swallowing the violet until only a thin ring of color remained.

"Are you hurt?" Duncan asked as he propped himself on his elbows.

Aerion did not answer. His gaze moved across Duncan's face like a man reading a letter by candlelight, a letter written in a language he had only just begun to learn. The violet eyes traced the lines of Duncan's brow, the bridge of his nose, the hard set of his jaw. They lingered on the small scar above his left eyebrow—a wound from a childhood fall, long since healed, long since forgotten until this moment.

Duncan had received many looks in his four and twenty years. From lords who sought his favor. From women who sought his name. From enemies who sought his blood. He had been appraised like a horse at market, judged like a sword at a smithy, dismissed like a servant who had poured the wine too slowly.

But never this. Never a look that asked nothing and offered everything and left him breathless with the weight of being truly, utterly seen.

And from Aerion—Aerion who looked at everyone as though they were beneath his notice, Aerion who had perfected the art of the cutting glance and the dismissive sneer—this attention was more unsettling than any threat he could have spoken.

Duncan held his breath. He did not know what to do with his hands. Duncan considered, briefly, the tactical advantages of pretending to have been struck by a sudden and debilitating cough.

He did none of these things.

"Aerion."

"I am not hurt." The confession landed soft as snowfall, barely a whisper, each syllable a small exhalation that Duncan felt more than heard. His lips registered the warmth of Aerion's breath before his ears caught the meaning of the words.

They were close. Closer than he had realized. Their noses almost touched. Their mouths were separated by a handspan of cold air and the shadow of every kiss they had never shared. A handspan that felt, in that moment, like the distance between Winterfell and the Wall, between the North and the South, between everything Duncan had ever wanted and everything he had convinced himself he could not have.

Duncan should move. He should roll off, stand up, offer his hand to help Aerion rise. That was what a knight would do. That was what a husband who respected his spouse's boundaries would do. That was what a prudent man, a man who valued his own survival, would do.

He did not move.

A bead of water rolled down from Duncan's jaw to the hollow of his throat, tracing a cold path through the mud and the sweat and the small, fresh cut where Aerion's headbutt had split his chin. It disappeared into the collar of his ruined tunic, and Aerion's eyes followed it.

The prince's fingers twitched against the mud. They curled, uncurled, curled again, as if reaching for something they were not yet brave enough to grasp. The small, desperate rhythm spoke of a mind at war with itself, of a heart that had not yet decided whether to fight or surrender.

"You are heavy," Aerion said.

"You are not moving."

"Perhaps I cannot move."

"Perhaps you do not want to."

Aerion's face drifted toward his. The movement was slow, almost reluctant, as if the prince were leaning over a cliff to see how far the drop was. That feral gleam had returned to his eyes, the one that promised future regret and present disaster, all of it somehow Duncan's fault.

His mouth hovered there, warm and maddening, close enough that Duncan could taste the wine on his breath.

Duncan did the sensible thing. He closed his eyes and braced for impact. His heart performed a manoeuvre that would have disqualified it from any reputable organ competition, lurching up into his throat and then dropping back into his chest with a sickening thud.

And waited.

And waited.

He opened one eye. Aerion had stopped. His lips were now pursed in what might have been thought or might have been indigestion. The prince's brow was furrowed, his eyes narrowed, and he appeared to be engaged in a rather intense internal debate.

Duncan's brain, which had been preparing for glory, crashed into the hard reality of still not being kissed.

"Get up," Aerion whispered. "You are crushing me."

"You said you were not hurt."

"I lied."

Duncan shifted off him with the haste of a man who had just realized he was lying on a nest of  opinionated ants. His heart hammered against his ribs like a blacksmith who had been promised double wages for overtime and then told the forge had gone cold. The mud, which had been merely unpleasant, now seemed determined to colonize every available inch of his clothing.

Beside him, Aerion made a sound that fell somewhere between a cat being offered a saucer of cream and a cat being offered a bath.

Then, without warning, without permission, without even the courtesy of a by-your-leave, the prince swung a leg over Duncan's hips and settled there.

Duncan's brain, which had only just begun to recover from the near-kiss, threw up its hands and left the building.

"You are sitting on me," Duncan observed. His voice came out strangled.

"I am claiming my rightful place."

Aerion's face drifted toward his. The movement was slow, almost reluctant, as if the prince were leaning over a cliff to see how far the drop was. That feral gleam had returned to his eyes, the one that promised future regret and present disaster, all of it somehow Duncan's fault.

His mouth hovered there, warm and maddening, close enough that Duncan could taste the wine on his breath.

Duncan did the sensible thing. He closed his eyes and braced for impact. His heart performed a manoeuvre that would have disqualified it from any reputable organ competition, lurching up into his throat and then dropping back into his chest with a sickening thud.

And waited.

And waited.

He opened one eye. Aerion had stopped. His lips were now pursed in what might have been thought or might have been indigestion. The prince's brow was furrowed, his eyes narrowed, and he appeared to be engaged in a rather intense internal debate.

Duncan's brain, which had been preparing for glory, crashed into the hard reality of still not being kissed.

"You weigh as much as a dead beast," Aerion said.

"You have not pushed me off."

"Perhaps I enjoy the warmth." Aerion's voice dripped with sarcasm so thick a man could have spread it on bread. "Or perhaps you have cracked my spine and I cannot feel my legs. One of the two."

"You can feel your legs." Duncan had seen Aerion's knee twitch not a moment ago, a small, instinctive movement that betrayed the lie. "You are choosing to keep them still."

Aerion's eyes narrowed. "And what purpose would that serve?"

"That is what I am asking you." He could throw me off, Duncan thought. He has done it before.

"I am thinking," Aerion said at last.

"A dangerous pastime."

"I am thinking about whether to kill you now or later."

"You could have killed me a hundred times this past moon. You did not."

"Perhaps I was saving the pleasure."

"Perhaps," Duncan said, lowering his face until his lips brushed the shell of Aerion's ear, "you were saving something else."

"You are crushing me."

"You said you enjoyed the warmth."

"I lied."

"You always lie."

"Not about this."

Duncan scrambled off him as though his bedroll had filled with vipers. The mud, merely unpleasant a moment before, now seized its chance with a conqueror's zeal. Cold found his elbows, his knees, the small of his back – every gap where wool had pulled loose from his belt.

Then, without warning or leave or the smallest courtesy of a by-your-leave, Aerion swung a leg across Duncan's hips and settled there. His knees pressed into the mud on either side of Duncan's ribs. His palms came to rest flat on Duncan's chest, fingers spread. The prince sat as if carved from the same cold stone as Winterfell's walls – immovable, certain, entirely too pleased with himself.

Duncan's mind, only just beginning to piece itself back together after the near-kiss, abandoned the struggle. It fled the field without sounding a retreat, leaving behind a dull roar of confusion and the dim recognition that he had lost command of this encounter somewhere around the third insult about his intellect.

"You are sitting on me," Duncan heard himself say.

"I am claiming my rightful place."

"Your rightful place is on top of a muddy northern lord in a frozen training yard?"

Aerion's head tilted, and in that subtle shift of bone and sinew, Duncan glimpsed something ancient and terrible and utterly bewitching. He had never laid eyes upon a living dragon, of course; those creatures had passed from the world decades ago, leaving behind only legends and the hollow echo of their roars. Yet as he watched the prince – the way his violet eyes seemed to hold a fire that no winter could extinguish – Duncan knew with certainty that this was what the old songs had tried and failed to capture. A dragon would not be a beast of mere scale and claw. A dragon would be this: a creature of impossible beauty, poised between cruelty and tenderness, his head tilted as if listening to music that no one else could hear. Aerion in that moment was not a prince. He was the dream of fire made flesh, and Duncan, poor mortal that he was, had already fallen under its spell.

"I have had worse thrones."

"I am not a throne."

"You are certainly not. A throne does not talk back." Aerion shifted his weight, settling more firmly onto Duncan's hips. The pressure was warm, and entirely improper for a prince and his husband in full view of the guard towers. "A throne does not smell of horse and stubbornness."

"And a prince does not sit on his husband in the mud."

"This prince does." Aerion's hands came to rest on Duncan's chest, palms flat, fingers spread. "You have a problem with that, ox?"

Duncan had many problems with that. The guards could see them from the north wall. The servants would talk. His reputation as a discret lord would never recover. But the weight of Aerion on his hips felt like a brand, a claim, a question that demanded an answer he was not sure he knew how to give.

"No," he said. The word came out before he could stop it. "No problem."

Aerion's eyebrows rose. "No argument? No lecture about propriety and the eyes of the household?"

"Would you listen?"

"Of course not."

"Then why waste the breath?" Duncan's hands, which had been lying limp in the mud, rose of their own accord. They settled on Aerion's thighs, just above the knees, where the wool of his breeches had gone dark with wet. The prince's muscles tensed beneath his palms. "You are cold," Duncan observed.

Aerion's only answer was a narrowing of those violet eyes. His breath came in short, white puffs, but his hands remained flat on Duncan's chest. He did not pull away. He did not lean closer. He simply sat there, a dragon on a throne of mud and frost, waiting.

"You have gooseflesh," Duncan added. "I can feel it through your breeches."

"That is revulsion," Aerion said. "At your touch."

"Revulsion does not make a man's heart beat faster." Duncan pressed his thumb against the inside of Aerion's thigh, where a pulse fluttered beneath the skin. "This is not revulsion."

Aerion's jaw tightened. His fingers curled into the wool of Duncan's tunic, not pushing, not pulling – just holding. "You are insufferable."

"You are sitting on me."

"That is not an answer."

"It is the only one you are getting." Duncan moved his hands higher, thumbs tracing the line where the prince's thighs met his hips. Aerion's breath caught. His head fell forward a fraction, silver hair brushing Duncan's forehead. "You still have not kissed me."

"Perhaps I am reconsidering the wisdom of the act."

"Decide faster," Duncan said. "The mud is freezing my arse."

Aerion kissed him, and Duncan stopped arguing. His tongue had found more urgent work.

The prince's lips were soft, tentative at first, as if asking permission that Duncan had already given a hundred times in silence. A hundred times in glances across crowded rooms. A hundred times in the careful way he set the table, placing Aerion's cup exactly where Aerion liked it. A hundred times in the small, stupid gestures that Aerion pretended not to notice.

Then Aerion's tongue traced the seam of his mouth, and Duncan opened like a flower turning toward the sun.

He tasted winter and honey and the salt of Aerion's skin. He tasted the sour wine from breakfast and something else, something sweeter, something that might have been the sorrowroot berries Aerion had eaten the night before. He tasted the future in that kiss, all the years stretching out ahead of them, all the arguments and reconciliations and lazy mornings.

His hands rose to cup the prince's face. His thumbs traced the sharp cheekbones, the fine bones that seemed too delicate for a man with such a violent spirit. He kissed back slowly, deeply, the way one drinks water after years of thirst.

Aerion moaned against his mouth. The sound was shy, almost swallowed, but Duncan felt it. He felt it in his chest, in his belly, in the place where his body had begun to ache with a want that had no name.

The kiss broke, and Duncan tensed, expecting the shove. The mud rising up to claim him. The prince's boot planted on his chest. Some cutting remark about his table manners, his complete and utter failure to understand the proper way to skin a rabbit.

That would have been familiar. That would have been safe. That would have been the Aerion he had learned to navigate, the Aerion he had learned to love despite every wall the prince erected between them.

But instead, Aerion leaned in and pressed his lips to Duncan's forehead.

The kiss was soft as a prayer. Warm as a secret kept too long. It lingered there, on the cold skin above his brow, and Duncan felt something crack open inside his chest.

"You have the skull of an ox," Aerion murmured against the skin there. "Thick. Unyielding. I hope it cracks."

Duncan's brain, which had briefly fled to a warmer country, returned just in time to register that Aerion's mouth was now moving to his left eyelid. The kiss was feather-light, reverent, which made the words that followed even more absurd.

"Your eyelashes are too long. It is disgusting. Like a cow's. A very pretty cow."

He opened his mouth to reply, but Aerion had already shifted to the bridge of his nose, where another kiss landed with soft, deliberate care.

"This nose has been broken at least twice. Probably by furniture you walked into. Or a door. Or your own feet."

"That was your elbow," Duncan said flatly. "Last week. You swung at me because I breathed too loudly while you were trying to read."

Aerion ignored him. His lips hovered now at the corner of Duncan's mouth, close enough that the warmth of his breath fogged across Duncan's chapped skin. The prince's eyes were half-closed, his lashes dark against his pale cheeks.

Duncan's hands discovered something extraordinary. Aerion's hips made surprisingly excellent handholds. The bones sat just there, two perfect curves beneath the wet wool, fitting into Duncan's palms like they had been designed by a  mischievous god for exactly this purpose.

Not that he would ever admit it. Admitting anything to Aerion was like handing a raven your shiny possessions and expecting gratitude. You would just get shat on and mocked, and the raven would fly away with your best silver.

But the prince's breath hitched. A satisfying win. Duncan's thumbs pressed into the hollows just inside those hip bones, and he felt the flutter of Aerion's stomach muscles beneath his fingertips.

"Your breath smells of that awful wine you drink," Duncan said. "The one that costs more than my horse."

"My breath smells of victory." Aerion's lips dragged slow across Duncan's jaw, leaving a trail of warmth in their wake. "You would not recognize it. You have never tasted it."

A magnificent lie, that. Duncan had tasted victory more than once – three tourneys, by his own count, though the first had been more luck than skill, and the second had cost him a tooth and a week of blurred vision. He opened his mouth to argue, to remind Aerion of the scar above his thigh  came from unhorsing a knight of the Reach, but the prince's lips found his chin before a single word could escape. The kiss landed soft and quick, a seal pressed onto hot wax, and Duncan forgot what he had meant to say.

"You forgot to shave this morning. You look like a hedgehog that lost an argument with a thistle."

"I was busy," Duncan said, "pulling you out of—"

Aerion kissed the corner of his mouth.  "You smile too easily," the prince murmured against Duncan's skin. "It is undignified. A lord should have a harder face. Like mine. I have mastered the art of looking displeased."

Duncan snorted. "All that frowning has shrunk your bones. Another year of it and you will vanish entirely – nothing left but a pair of violet eyes floating above a collar, with no shoulders left to hold up your crown."

The prince's eyes flashed, but instead of a retort, Aerion's teeth grazed Duncan's lower lip.

A gesture so delicate it might have been an accident, except that Aerion Targaryen did not do accidents. He did calculations and strategies. He did things that looked like whims but turned out to be traps, and he did them with the same focused attention he brought to everything else.

Duncan made a sound. Under normal circumstances, that sound would have caused him to immediately emigrate to another continent, change his name, and take up sheep farming in obscurity. It was not a sound that belonged in a training yard. It was not a sound that belonged anywhere near witnesses.

But these were not normal circumstances. He was lying in freezing mud with a prince who kissed like a man who had just discovered that bread existed and intended to make up for lost time. Dignity, Duncan reflected, had fled the field approximately two kisses ago. He saw no reason to chase after it.

Aerion's mouth moved lower, finding his throat.

"Your neck is thick as a tree trunk. A stupid tree. A tree that grows in a swamp and has moss on the north side and no one ever visits."

"A sturdy tree," Duncan corrected, tilting his head back despite himself. "A tree that has not fallen over yet."

Aerion's breath came warm against his collarbone, where the torn tunic gaped open to the grey sky. The prince had been tracing patterns there for the better part of a minute; idle circles that might have meant nothing and might have meant everything. His lips brushed the hollow of Duncan's throat, and Duncan felt the touch like a brand.

"You have freckles here," Aerion murmured. "Like a common farmer's boy who spent too long in the sun. A farmer's boy who has never seen a proper bath."

The words should have stung. They had stung, once, in the early days of their acquaintance, when Duncan had not yet learned to read the hidden currents beneath Aerion's barbs.

"And you have a mole behind your left ear," Duncan said quietly. "The size of a lentil. Darker than the others. It sits at an angle that suggests it does not quite trust the company it keeps."

Aerion stopped.

The prince pulled back just enough to stare down at him. His eyes had gone strange—soft in a way that Duncan had never seen before, the violet deepened to something darker, something that might have been the color of twilight or the color of bruises or the color of a sky before a storm. His lips parted. His breath caught.

"You noticed a mole."

"I notice everything about you."

The words hung in the frozen air, heavier than a lord's oath and twice as stupid. Duncan had not meant to say them. They had simply emerged, dragged from some deep place where his better judgment had locked them away for safekeeping. He watched them land, watched the ripple they sent across Aerion's face.

*Gods forgive me*, he thought. *I have gone and done it now.*

For a long moment, he simply stared at Duncan as if seeing him for the first time—not the knight, not the sworn shield, not the northern brute who followed him like a shadow, but something else entirely. Something that made his throat work and his fingers tremble where they pressed against Duncan's chest.

Then Aerion kissed him.

This one was an answer, and the answer was violence.

The prince's mouth slammed into Duncan's with the same focused aggression he brought to the sharpening of a blade—all precision and intent, a terrible, precise hunger that left no room for gentleness. His fingers dug into the damp wool at Duncan's shoulders, twisting, claiming, as if Duncan were a keep he meant to sack and hold against all comers. His teeth caught Duncan's lower lip, not hard enough to draw blood but hard enough to promise that he could.

So this is how a prince apologizes, Duncan thought dimly. The thought scattered when Aerion bit down harder.

Duncan answered with his own teeth. The noise Aerion made was the finest music he had heard since the last harvest feast, when the pipers had played and the girls and boys had danced.

His thumbs had gone rogue. They traced circles on Aerion's hips, pressed into the sharp jut of bone beneath the wet wool. The prince's body yielded before his pride could stop it. A slow, betraying roll of his pelvis ground them together from chest to thigh, and Duncan felt the heat of him even through all those layers. Wool and linen and leather and skin, and still the warmth found its way through, radiating outward like the promise of summer after an endless winter.

For a dizzying moment he forgot which way was up, which way was down, which way led back to the reasonable world where lords did not kiss princes in muddy training yards. There was only Aerion—the taste of him, the smell of him, the desperate cling of his fingers and the frantic beat of his heart.

They broke apart because lungs are traitorous organs, designed by a cruel god to ruin perfect moments with the petty demand for air.

Duncan gasped and laughed, the sound torn from a place behind his ribs where pain and joy had learned to sleep in the same narrow bed. Aerion rested his forehead against Duncan's. Their breath rose together, a single pale plume against the grey, rising until it vanished into the nothing above them like a prayer that had forgotten whom it was meant for. Aerion's eyes were closed. His lashes, pale as frost, lay against his cheeks. The prince looked younger like this, softer, as if the bones of his face had not yet finished growing into the sharpness he wore like armor. Duncan wanted to cup his jaw, to feel the small flutter of the pulse beneath his ear. He did not. The prince's skin was warm despite the cold. Duncan closed his own eyes and let himself feel it. The weight of another human being trusting him enough to rest. The quiet miracle of not being alone.

"You have the emotional intelligence of a siege weapon," Aerion whispered.Duncan opened his eyes again, and Aerion did the same. His lips were split in one place where a tooth had caught, the wound glistening like a stolen jewel. The blood welled up slowly, a thin red line that traced the curve of his lower lip. "A particularly stupid siege weapon. The kind that collapses under its own weight before it ever reaches the wall."

Duncan wanted to kiss him until the split widened. Until blood ran down his chin and mixed with the snow. He had seen it in war, the way men marked their victories on the bodies of the fallen. This was not so different. He wanted Aerion to feel him every time he moved his mouth. Wanted the prince to remember, in the ache of his lip, that Duncan had been there.

"And you are still a dragon who mistakes tantrums for diplomacy," Duncan said.

"You have snow in your hair," the prince observed. "And mud on your face. And a look of general dishevelment that suggests you have been rolling in the dirt like a pig in search of truffles."

"I have been fighting."

"Fighting implies a certain level of skill. What I witnessed was closer to two children wrestling over a toy."

"You started it."

"You finished it poorly."

"We are going to catch our deaths out here."

"Probably."

"This was a terrible idea."

"Which part? The fight, the kiss, or the subsequent lying in frozen mud while discussing the relative merits of our respective body parts?"

"All of it. Every moment from the moment I woke up this morning to the present. Possibly including the moment I woke up. I cannot be certain."

Aerion's hand had migrated to Duncan's neck. His thumb pressed against the pulse point as if counting the beats, as if testing him. "You are warm," the prince said. "Disgustingly warm. Like a hearth that learned to walk. A hearth with opinions. A hearth that refuses to stop talking about rabbits and the correct way to skin them."

"Northern constitution."

"It is deeply offensive." But Aerion's body had already betrayed his words. He leaned into Duncan anyway, settling his weight like a man lowering himself into a bath he had sworn he would not take. His thigh pressed between Duncan's, a warm, insistent pressure. His hips moved in a slow grind, the kind that whores charged extra for, though no coin had changed hands here. Aerion's hand clutched his shoulder, nails digging through wool, and the prince pushed back.

"Do you want to do it again?" Duncan asked. His voice came out rougher than he intended, scraped raw by want and the sheer, idiotic joy of having Aerion this close and not yet stabbed.

He knew the answer before Aerion spoke. It hung between them like a sword suspended by a single hair—visible, inevitable, waiting for the slightest breath to send it falling. A yes so obvious that it might as well have been written on the prince's forehead in letters of fire.

Aerion knew that Duncan knew. The awareness passed between them like a shared secret, silent and electric. Yet the prince made no move to confirm it. He simply watched, those violet eyes half-lidded, gleaming with a sweet cruelty.

He would remember this. Duncan knew that too. Aerion would file every detail away in that sharp, merciless mind: the way Duncan's breath had caught, the way his hands had trembled, the way he had stood frozen in the snow like a boy seeing his first winter. The prince would catalogue it all, store it in the vault of weapons he kept for future arguments, future negotiations, future moments when Duncan least expected the blade between his ribs. The unfairness of it should have staggered him. Should have sent him walking back to the keep with his dignity wrapped around him like a cloak.

But Duncan said nothing. He simply waited, because waiting was the only thing he had left. Because Aerion's smile—rare as a summer thaw, precious as the first green shoot after a long winter—was worth every agonizing second.

"Yes," Aerion said finally. He drew the word out, savoring it, stretching it like a man who had just discovered that surrender could be dressed in velvet and called strategy. "But inside. Where I do not have to feel the cold seeping into places that should never be cold."

He paused, his fingers drummed against Duncan's chest in a rhythm that might have been the beat of some half-remembered song.

"And you will be responsible for removing all clothing that has become wet. Every sodden scrap. Because I am a prince of the blood, and princes do not undress themselves. We have servants for that. Unfortunately, you have dismissed the servants."

"I will manage."

Duncan laughed again. He could not help himself. The sound felt strange in his throat, rusty from disuse, but Aerion's answering smile—small and sharp and genuine—made it worthwhile.

"Inside," Aerion said, but his voice had gone soft. The sharp edges had smoothed, replaced by something quieter. "Now. Before I change my mind and have you flogged and drawn and quartered. Not necessarily in that order. The quartering might come first, depending on my mood."

"As my prince commands."

They rose together.

Slowly. Stiffly. The cold had settled into their bones like an old man settling into a favorite chair, and their bodies complained in the language of aches and pops and the pains that come from lying too long in snow that has no patience for human warmth.

Duncan's back screamed. Aerion's knees announced their displeasure with two distinct cracks.

They looked at each other.

A thin line of blood traced the prince's lower lip, frozen now, a ruby seam in the pale landscape of his face. Duncan's own chin had split where Aerion's head had found it, and he could feel the dried blood pulling at his skin every time he moved his jaw.

Aerion looked like a prince who had fallen from a fairy tale into a pigsty and found, to his own astonishment, that he preferred the mud.

Duncan grinned.

Aerion grinned back.

They stood there, the two of them, mud-spattered and bloodied and smiling like fools who had just discovered that the world was not as cruel as they had been taught. The snow fell around them, indifferent, eternal, the same snow that had fallen on Winterfell for eight thousand years and would fall for eight thousand more.

Something passed between them. Duncan felt it in his chest, a warmth that had nothing to do with the cold or the wet or the long minutes spent lying in the snow. It was the first warm day after a long winter, the moment when the ice cracks and the river remembers how to flow. It was the green shoot pushing through the frost, fragile and fierce and utterly indifferent to the season that had tried to kill it.

Aerion's eyes held his. The violet had softened to something almost gentle.

"We are a mess," the prince said.

"We are alive."

"That remains to be seen."

They walked toward the keep.

Side by side. Not touching. Not needing to. The space between them was narrow enough that their elbows brushed with every step, a accidental intimacy that neither acknowledged and neither widened.

The snow covered their footprints. The wind erased the last trace of their passage. But the warmth between them remained, small and stubborn, the way a single ember can outlast a fire.

Later, in the dark, after the fire had burned low and the candles had drowned in their own wax, Duncan lay still beneath the weight of the prince's head upon his chest. The room had gone quiet the way old things go quiet—not empty, but full of a different kind of sound. The breathing. The beating. The small, wet click of Aerion's mouth opening and closing as he drifted somewhere between sleep and waking.

His fingers moved across Duncan's skin as if he was searching for meaning in the scars.

Duncan thought of the rabbit. "Was I really skinning it wrong?"

Aerion did not lift his head. His voice came muffled against the hollow of Duncan's shoulder, warm and rough and half-asleep. "Catastrophically wrong. I have never seen such a travesty in all my years."

"How many years?"

"Twenty-five."

"All of them?"

"Each one more discerning than the last."

The prince's maester had told him once—Aerion said this the way a child recites a lesson—that the art of skinning a rabbit separated civilized men from barbarians. By that measure, Aerion said, Duncan was not merely a barbarian. He was the king of the barbarians. The Great Barbarian King of the Frozen North.

Duncan smiled into the darkness. "That is a lot of titles," he answered.

"You have earned them."

He thought of the rabbit again. The way its fur had felt in his hands—warm, still warm, even after the life had left it. The way the knife had slipped. The way Aerion had taken the body from him without a word and shown him, with those long pale fingers, how it was done.

Like this, the prince had said. Not like that. Never like that.

"Will you show me the right way?" Duncan asked. "Tomorrow?"

Aerion did not answer right away. His fingers had stopped their tracing. They lay still against Duncan's ribs, five points of warmth in the cold dark.

Then: "Yes."

"With patience?"

"Do not push your luck."

"I would not dream of it."

Aerion shifted. His leg hooked over Duncan's thigh. His arm wrapped around Duncan's waist. He moved the way water moves—not deciding, simply finding the lowest place, the warmest place, the place where he could rest. When he settled, he fit.

Outside, the snow kept falling. It covered the training yard. It covered the mud. It covered the place where they had lain together, two men tangled in the dirt, their blood seeping into the frozen ground.

The wolves would find that place come morning. They would lick the stains. They would leave nothing behind.

But Duncan would remember.

He would remember the cold. The way it had bitten his fingers and numbed his lips and made his breath come out in white plumes that vanished almost as soon as they appeared. He would remember the taste of the prince's mouth.

And he would remember the laughter. The sound of it, sharp and surprised, cutting through the grey afternoon like the first crack of ice on a frozen river. He had not known Aerion could laugh like that. He had not known anyone could laugh like that.

When he was old—if the gods let him grow old, if the wars and the winters and the thousand small cruelties of the world did not take him first—he would tell the story. To anyone who would listen. To the children, if they wanted to. To the strangers in the taverns. To the ghosts that haunted the long dark hours when sleep would not come.

He would tell them about the rabbit. About the knife. About the way a prince of the blood had lain down in the mud beside a northern lord and pressed their foreheads together and breathed the same air.

He would tell them about the day he learned to skin a rabbit.

He would tell them about the day he learned to kiss a dragon.

About the day everything changed.

The wolves would have eaten the evidence, Duncan thought. The wolves would have taken it all—the blood, the mud, the small white bones of the rabbit's feet—and swallowed it down and made it nothing.

But he was keeping it.

Every last scrap.

In the darkness, Aerion's hand found his. Their fingers laced together. Their palms pressed flat.

Neither of them let go.

The snow fell.

The fire burned low.

And somewhere in the keep, a dog dreamed of rabbits, and the rabbits dreamed of running, and the world turned slowly toward morning, the way it always had, the way it always would.

There were other moments. A thousand of them. Ten thousand.

The way Aerion said his name when he was in a good mood, as if the word itself were something soft and precious that he held in his mouth before letting it go. The way he left the last piece of honeybread on the plate, even though he was hungry, even though he pretended not to notice. The way his hand would brush Duncan's when they walked side by side, a touch so light it might have been the wind, except that the wind did not linger.

Duncan closed his eyes now, and pressed his own hand to his chest. The ghost of that warmth still lived there. It would always live there. He was a miser, yes—a miser of moments, a hoarder of impossible things. But a miser at least knows the value of his coins. And these moments, these fleeting, impossible gifts, were worth more than all the gold in Casterly Rock.

He was a fool. He knew it. The whole of Winterfell knew it. But even fools are granted their small, precious hauntings. And Duncan would not trade a single one of his for salvation.

What do you do, he wondered, when you have more memories than you have future?

The prince was not made for the North, for its grey skies and its frozen ground and its people who spoke too little and meant too much. He would return to the South, to the sun and the scheming and the dragon skulls in the throne room. He would go where he belonged.

And Duncan would stay.

That was the way of things. That was the order of the world. Princes did not marry northern lords. Princes did not stay. Princes left behind a trail of small, precious moments, and the fools who loved them learned to live on the memory of warmth long after the fire had died.

He pressed his palm harder against his chest, as if he could hold the heart still, as if he could stop time with the weight of his own hand.

Let him stay, he thought. Just a little longer. Just until I have memorized the sound of his breathing. Just until I have counted every mole and every scar.

Morning kept passing, the sun rose indifferent, and Duncan knew that prayers were for children and septons. He knew that the gods did not listen, and if they listened, they did not care, and if they cared, they were powerless to answer. He had learned these lessons in blood and tears and the long grey years of watching the people he loved die.

The door to the bedchamber opened.

Duncan did not turn. He knew those footsteps. Light, precise, each step a small declaration of war against the hour. The particular disdain of a man who believed the sun should rise at his command, not before it.

"You are up." Aerion's voice came rough with sleep. The roughness softened the blade, made it almost blunted. Almost.

"I am always up before you."

"A failing of character. One of many." Fabric rustled behind Duncan's back. Wool against wool, the whisper of a coat being pulled from its hook. "The horses are prepared?"

"By now, yes."

"Then why are you standing there like a gargoyle? We have a long journey ahead."

Duncan turned from the window.

Aerion stood by the wardrobe, his back half-turned, his fingers working the last buttons of his traveling coat. A garment of such impractical elegance that it might have been designed to mock the Northern cold. Midnight blue wool, silver thread picking out the Targaryen dragon along the collar. The same dragon that flew on banners, that decorated shields, that had been sewn into the breast of every tunic Aerion owned. As if he needed reminding. As if he could forget.

Neither of them had slept. Not since the announcement. The words had fallen like stones into still water, and the ripples had not stopped spreading.

"My prince." Duncan's voice came rougher than he intended. The night had scraped it raw. "If this is truly what you want—"

"Do not." Aerion's hand stilled on his collar. The sharpness returned, a blade drawn across a whetstone. "Do not make this into something it is not. We agreed to a year. The year is over. I am releasing you from your vows. You should be grateful."

Grateful. Duncan turned the word over on his tongue. It tasted like old roots. Like the memory of something that had spoiled in the dark.

"I am not grateful," he said. "I—"

"What? Heartbroken?" Aerion crossed the room. His boots clicked on the stone, each step a precise punctuation. He stopped close enough that Duncan could smell the almond oil in his hair, that faint floral sweetness that belonged in a southern garden, not a northern keep. "Spare me. You knew what this was. A political arrangement. A treaty sealed with a kiss and a signature. Nothing more."

"I know what it was," he said. "I also know what it became."

Aerion's eyes widened. Just for a moment. Just long enough for Duncan to see the crack, the hairline fracture in the stone wall the prince had spent a year building. Then the mask was back. Cold. Perfect. The face of a man who had learned to hide his heart in childhood and had lost the key.

"It became nothing. It was always nothing. You deluded yourself."

"If I deluded myself, it was because you gave me cause."

"You want a confession?" Aerion sighed. "There is none. I used you. You let me. That is the whole of our story. No hidden chapter. No secret happy ending. Just a year of convenience and now an end."

Duncan looked at him. Really looked. He saw the lie standing in the prince's throat like a splinter, saw the way Aerion's hands had curled into fists at his sides, the knuckles white beneath the pale skin. Aerion could deny the sun at noon. Could call darkness light and expect the world to bend. But the warmth on Duncan's palms from a hundred touches told a different story.

"Aerion."

"Do not."

"Aerion, look at me."

The prince did not look. He stared past Duncan's shoulder, his jaw tight, his throat working. His eyes fixed on the window, on the grey light seeping through the glass, on anything and everything except the man who had spent a year learning the exact temperature of his skin at dawn.

He looked like a man fighting back tears.

That expression decided him.

“Very well,” Duncan heard himself say. “We'll go to Summerhall. We'll present your petition.”

Aerion's throat moved. He did not speak.

“But I want you to know—” Duncan paused. The words felt clumsy in his mouth, the way all true things did. “I want you to know that I don’t regret a single day of this year. Not one.”

Not the mud. Not the insults. Not the mornings you threw boots at my head because the water was too cold. Not the night you burned my only good cloak and called it ‘an improvement.’

Not any of it.

Aerion still would not look at him. But his hands unclenched. Just a little. Just enough.

And for Duncan, that was more than any victory.

"The horses," he said. "We should leave before the roads become impassable."

"As you wish, my prince."

Duncan stepped aside. Aerion walked past him, close enough that their sleeves brushed.

He followed the prince out of the chamber, down the winding stairs, through the great hall still heavy with the smell of last night's fires. The servants who saw them pass bowed low and said nothing. Their eyes flickered from Duncan's face to Aerion's and away again. Too fast. Too knowing.

In the yard, the horses waited.

Aerion swung himself toward his garron with that stiff-backed pride of his, the traveling coat settling over narrow shoulders like a king's robe. Each fold arranged with the precise, furious movements of a man arranging his dignity for a public execution.

Duncan watched him struggle with the stirrup. Watched his jaw tighten, a flush creeping up the pale column of his throat. He stepped forward before he could stop himself.

"Let me."

Aerion's hand froze on the pommel. His breath caught. Those violet eyes fastened upon Duncan with a hunger that masqueraded as contempt.

"I do not need your help."

"You need someone's help. I am the only one here."

Aerion's glare could have melted the Wall. But he released the pommel. He stood aside. He let Duncan adjust the stirrup, let Duncan cup his hands to receive the prince's boot, let Duncan lift him into the saddle.

"Thank you,” Aerion said, and the word sounded wrong in Duncan’s ears.

The prince dug his heels into the garron's ribs. The horse jolted forward, Aerion kept his eyes on the horizon. Didn't glance back. Not once.

Duncan pulled himself into the saddle. The leather had gone stiff with frost, and the cold bit through his woolen breeches before he had settled his weight. Everything felt cold. The reins against his palms. The air in his lungs. The space beside him where Aerion's garron had stood a moment before.

Duncan watched the snow gather on Aerion's shoulders, on the hood of his traveling coat, on the small space between them that neither man seemed willing to close. He wondered if gratitude always felt so much like goodbye. If the word thank you was just another way of saying this is over. If the closing of a door could be disguised as courtesy.

Aerion did not look back. The road stretched ahead, white and endless, and Duncan rode after a man who had just thanked him for the first time in a year.