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It had never helped being sent to a psychiatric ward at fourteen. That’s what they called it, help. A naive assumption.
To her, it felt more like a sentence. A quiet, suffocating prison that clung to her skin until even breathing made her recoil. They said time would heal her. But time here didn’t move forward—it folded in on itself, looping endlessly, until days bled into nights and nights forgot what morning felt like, what agni feel like.
How old was she now? Seventeen? Eighteen? Or had she been trapped in that same year forever? Was it three years already?
The room—no, the cell—was unbearably cold. It sat somewhere deep beneath the surface, buried where agni was nothing but a thought. The air was thick, unmoving, as if even it had given up trying to escape. The walls didn’t echo anymore. They swallowed everything—every word, every breath, every scream she never let out.
Everything disappeared into them.
Everything except those voices.
Azula sat on the floor, her back against the wall, eyes tracing the jagged veins of cracks that spread like fractures across the surface. She counted them. Over and over. Anything to keep her mind from unraveling completely.
“One… two… three…”
Her voice was barely a whisper, dry and distant, as if it didn’t belong to her anymore. “…four… five…”
She didn’t look. Didn’t even pay attention.
Light harsh and artificial spilled into the room, cutting through the dimness, but she kept her gaze fixed on the wall. On the cracks. On something that didn’t change. If she looked at them, they would become real. And if they became real, she would have to acknowledge they were allowed to be here. She wasn’t ready to grant that.
Footsteps followed. Measured. Careful.
“Hello, Azula. The Fire Lord sent me to look after you.” a man’s voice said, calm in that rehearsed, clinical way.
“Zuko,” she thought flatly
“I’m Doctor Yohi. I’m your therapist. I’m here to provide you with a safe space to explore your thoughts and emotions.” he softly said.
The word felt almost laughable.
“…six… seven…” She didn’t acknowledge him. Didn’t blink. Didn’t move.
Behind her, the doctor hesitated, as if waiting for something—for a reaction, a sign, anything.
“How are you doing today?” he asked slowly, as if softness alone could make the room less heavy, less quiet.
She didn’t answer. Her eyes stayed on the floor, fixed on nothing and everything at once.
“Ten… eleven…” Azula continued instead.
The doctor didn’t push right away. He stepped a little further into the room, careful with his movements, like he was aware the space itself didn’t welcome him.
“I’m going to stay here with you for a bit,” Dr. Yohi said gently. “You don’t have to talk if you’re not ready.”
Silence followed him, thick and unmoving.
“That’s okay,” he added after a pause, his voice still calm. “Silence is still communication.” Still nothing.
Still nothing.
The doctor’s silence didn’t make the room feel any less crowded. If anything, it made it worse—like the quiet itself had weight, like it had slipped into the space between them and decided to stay. It watched. It lingered. It pressed.
It irritated her.Azula’s counting didn’t stop.
Her voice was steady, almost mechanical—detached in a way that made it feel borrowed, like it belonged to someone else speaking through her. Like she was reading from a script no one else could see, no one else could ever understand.
Doctor Yohi lowered himself into the chair across from her with careful precision. Not too close. Not far enough to disappear. The kind of distance that was deliberate, studied—something learned, not felt.
“I notice you count when things feel overwhelming,” he said, his tone even, unthreatening. Honest, or at least meant to sound like it.
She didn’t acknowledge him. Didn’t shift. Didn’t break.
“…fourteen… fifteen…”
A pause stretched between them, thin but unyielding.
Then, softer—testing the space. “Does it help you feel in control?”
Azula’s fingers curled slightly against her palm, nails pressing just enough to ground her, to remind herself that she could still choose something. Even if it was small. Even if it was just this.
Control wasn’t given. It was taken. Held. Protected.
Doctor Yohi followed her gaze briefly, eyes tracing the fractured lines in the wall before returning to her. “You don’t have to answer my questions,” he continued. “But I am going to keep talking to you. That’s part of being here.”
Still nothing.
“…sixteen… seventeen…”
The numbers slipped out, unbroken, but thinner now—like they were being stretched too far.
He adjusted slightly in his seat. A subtle shift. Careful. “You’ve been here for some time, Azula.”
That—barely—reached her.
A pause. A fracture so small it could’ve been mistaken for nothing.
Then—
“…eighteen…”
Her voice resumed, but something about it had changed. Not enough to name. Just enough to feel.
He continued anyway. “Your records mention difficulty distinguishing time. That days can feel repetitive. Disconnected.”
Her eyes narrowed slightly, still fixed on the wall. One crack split into another, branching outward like frozen lightning. It hadn’t been there before.
Or maybe it had.
“…nineteen…”
“I’m not here to correct your experience,” he added, quieter now, as if the wrong word might collapse whatever fragile balance existed. “Only to understand it.”
Silence followed.
Heavy. Immovable.
The room didn’t change. It remained cold, still, indifferent to everything unfolding inside it. The light hummed faintly overhead. The air sat stale against her skin.
Doctor Yohi waited.
And waited.
But whatever he was waiting for—words, eye contact, acknowledgment—it never came.
Azula didn’t look at him. Didn’t stop counting. Didn’t let him in.
Eventually, something in his posture shifted—not defeat, not quite, but acceptance of a wall he couldn’t pass through today.
“I’ll come back tomorrow,” he said gently, rising from his seat.
No reaction.
A step toward the door.
“…twenty…” Another. “…twenty-one…”
His hand paused on the handle. For a second, it seemed like he might say something else—something different, something that might reach her.
He didn’t.
The door opened with a quiet, mechanical click. Light from the hallway spilled in briefly, harsher, whiter—
Then it disappeared.
The door shut.
And just like that—
He was gone.
The room settled again, as if it had been waiting for this. Waiting to close in.
Azula was alone.
The silence wasn’t empty anymore.
It never was. And then—A whisper.