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4E 206
When Ophelia follows him into the woods, Miraak pretends not to notice. She’s too small to be subtle. Every branch catches at her skirts. Every patch of old snow gives beneath her boots with a soft, wet crunch. She breathes through her nose with great concentration, as if stealth is a matter of will rather than weight and practice. Once, when a twig snaps beneath her foot, she freezes so abruptly that the silence afterward becomes more suspicious than the sound itself.
Miraak pauses beside a pine and studies the line of the fence as if it deserves the full severity of his attention.
Behind him, Ophelia doesn’t move.
He gives her time. That has become a rule in the house, though no one has written it down.
Give Ophelia time.
Do not snatch answers from her mouth. Do not ask the same question three different ways because silence makes adults uneasy. Do not decide that lack of speech means lack of thought. Do not praise her too loudly when she does speak, as if language is a trick performed for their pleasure.
Give Ophelia time, and she will show you what she means.
Miraak kneels beside the fence post and presses two fingers to the split in the wood. Frost has worried its way into the grain over winter. The damage is not severe yet, but it will worsen if neglected.
Behind him, a small breath. He waits. Another crunch, softer this time. She’s learning.
“You are too close to the deadfall,” he says without turning. Silence, then a careful shuffle to the left. “Better.”
He can feel her attention sharpen at the word. Not pride, exactly. Ophelia doesn’t bloom under praise the way most seem to expect children to do. Praise startles her. Too much of it makes her retreat into the private chamber of herself and bolt the door from within.
But accurate acknowledgment — that she accepts.
Better.
Correct.
Again.
Enough.
These are words she trusts.
Miraak draws a knife from his belt and begins shaving rot from the post. Long curls of damp wood fall over the snow. He works slowly, not because the task requires slowness, but because the child is watching.
The first few times she followed him, he sent her back. Not sharply. Never sharply. He had turned, crouched, and said, “You are not dressed for this,” or “The ground is unsafe today,” or “Your uncle Elikar is expecting you.”
She had gone each time without complaint. That had been worse. A child who argued could be met. A child who obeyed too readily forced him to examine the shape of every command before he spoke it. So, eventually, he had stopped sending her away unless there was a true danger.
Now she follows him, becoming his own little shadow, wearing a face remarkably like his own.
Sometimes to the edge of the woods. Sometimes to the stable. Sometimes only to the threshold of whatever room he enters, where she stands with one hand on the doorframe and watches as if memorising his movements in case the knowledge becomes necessary later.
Today, she’s made it some sixty paces beyond the house. A record, perhaps. He won’t say so.
The knife catches on a stubborn knot. Miraak adjusts his grip and cuts beneath it. Ophelia shifts behind him. “You may come here,” he says. “Not in front of the blade.”
For a moment, nothing.
Then she appears at the edge of his vision, small and solemn in a dark green cloak Serana had found for her. The hood sits too far forward, shadowing green eyes that are too much like his. Brown curls escape along her cheeks, hair texture taken from Lilliandra, catching bits of pine needle and melting snow.
She looks at the knife, then at the fence, then at the strips of wood on the ground.
Miraak turns the blade and offers her the handle. Her eyes flick to his face. “It’s sharp,” he says. “You will hold it only if you can hold it correctly.”
Ophelia’s hand lifts, then pauses. Good. No snatching. No greed. No assumption.
He adjusts the knife, so the handle faces her more clearly. She takes it with both hands. The weapon’s too large for her. Her grip is clumsy, but careful. Very careful. She stares down at it with an expression of such grave responsibility that, absurdly, Miraak thinks of priests taking up ceremonial blades beneath vaulted stone.
“Do not point it at yourself,” he says. She corrects the angle. “Do not point it at me.” Another correction. “Good.”
Her thumb brushes the carved line on the hilt. Miraak watches her watching the knife.
He had expected parenthood to feel like a siege.
Some days, it does.
There are nights when Ophelia wakes screaming from dreams she cannot explain, and Lilliandra wakes to the sound and crumples under the weight of not knowing whether to go to her. There are mornings when the child refuses food because the texture is wrong, and Elikar tries alternatives before Serana tells him he is making it worse. There are afternoons when Ophelia sits beneath the table with both hands clamped over her ears because too many people have spoken too quickly in the same room.
There are still days when Lilliandra cannot bear to be looked at by the evidence of her own motherhood.
There are days when Miraak resents everyone in the house for needing him at once.
But then there are these moments.
A child in the snow, holding a knife as if it is a treaty between them.
He closes his hand over hers, not tightly, and turns the blade away from both their bodies. “This is how you pass it to another person.”
Ophelia looks at their hands. He releases her at once. She does not move away.
That, too, is trust.
Slowly, she turns the knife and offers it back to him handle-first.
“Correct,” he says.
Her mouth moves. No sound comes.
Miraak takes the knife and returns his attention to the fence post. He does not ask her to repeat herself.
For several minutes, they work in silence. Or rather, he works and she observes, which in Ophelia’s case is often the same thing. She crouches beside the shavings and begins sorting them by length. Then by curl. Then, after some private correction of her system, by dampness.
Miraak glances down. The arrangement makes no decorative sense. It’s not a child’s pattern in the way Elikar might expect: not a flower, not a sun, not a house.
But it is a system.
He recognizes the difference between disorder and a logic not yet explained. “What is the rule?” he asks.
Ophelia doesn’t answer. Her fingers continue moving. Longest pieces to the left. Tightly curled pieces above them. Darker wet ones below. Pale dry ones near her knee.
Miraak watches long enough to understand. “Moisture first,” he says. “Then shape.”
Her hand stills.
He looks at her.
Something opens in her face. Not a smile. Not yet. But recognition, bright and startled. He’s guessed correctly. She nods once. Miraak returns the nod with the solemnity it deserves.
Then he reaches for a strip of wood near his boot and places it deliberately in the wrong group.
Ophelia freezes.
Her head turns toward him with exquisite slowness.
Miraak keeps his face still.
She looks from him to the shaving, then back again. The offense in her silence is magnificent. At last, she picks up the misplaced strip and sets it in the correct group with more force than necessary. “No,” she says. The word is small, certain.
Miraak inclines his head. “No.”
Ophelia stares at him.
He moves another shaving.
This time, she snatches it almost immediately, corrects it, and presses her palm over the group as if guarding it from further corruption. “No.”
Miraak considers her, then moves a third.
Her eyes narrow. The expression is so like Lilliandra that for a moment he is struck entirely still. Not the shape of the face. Not the colouring. The look. That precise, withering assessment of someone behaving beneath the standards of civilization.
“No,” Ophelia says again, sharper.
Miraak feels something in his chest shift.
He has been feared by men. Worshiped by fools. Hated by those with cause. Claimed by a Prince. Desired by one impossible elf with more teeth than tenderness.
None of it has prepared him for being scolded by a three-year-old over wood shavings.
He moves one more.
Ophelia gasps — a tiny, outraged sound. She then reaches across the snow and places both hands over his wrist to stop him.
Miraak looks down at her fingers.
She realizes what she has done a heartbeat later. Her hands lift away. Too quickly. As if touch itself might have been an offense. And perhaps it might have been nearly a century ago before he met her mother.
His anger rises so fast it nearly startles him. Not at her. Never at her. But at the world that has already taught her to withdraw before she’s pushed away. At Lilliandra’s illness. At his own first months of stiffness, when he held the child like she was an object that could break or bind him. At every old ghost in the house that leans over her shoulder and whispers that wanting contact is dangerous.
He lowers his hand into the snow between them, palm upward. An offering, always an offering.
Ophelia stares at it.
The wind moves through the pines. From the house, faintly, comes Elikar’s voice. He is singing something while doing some unnecessary chore. Serana’s answering remark is too low to hear, but Miraak can imagine its dryness. Smoke rises from the chimney. Behind one upper window, a curtain shifts.
Lilliandra may be awake. She may be watching.
He doesn’t turn to fully check.
Ophelia places one finger against his palm. Then another. Then her whole small hand.
Miraak closes his fingers only halfway around hers, loose enough that she can leave whenever she chooses. “You may stop me,” he says. Her eyes lift to his. “When I interfere with your work.”
A pause. Then, very softly, “Bad.”
He studies her. “Interfering with your work?”
She nods.
“Yes,” Miraak admits, “It was badly done.”
Ophelia looks down at the sorted shavings. Her brows draw together. She’s deciding something. He waits through the long silence of it.
Then she picks up one strip and places it in his palm.
Damp. Pale. Slight curl. A category he has not been assigned until now.
“What is this?” he asks.
Ophelia touches the shaving. Then points to the fence post. “Same.”
He looks at the post. The shaving. The exposed pale wound where rot had been cut away. Ah.
“Yes,” he says. “Same wood.”
She leans closer, suddenly intent, and taps the darker section near the base.
“Bad?”
“Damaged.”
“Bad?” she repeats.
Miraak considers the distinction.
The rot must be removed. The damage is real. If neglected, it will spread until the post fails. Bad’s not entirely wrong. But bad is also the word frightened adults use when they mean inconvenient. Bad child. Bad day. Bad thought. Bad mother.
He looks at Ophelia’s solemn face and chooses carefully. “Hurt.”
Ophelia’s gaze remains fixed on the wood.
“Hurt,” she repeats.
“Yes.”
He touches the place where he cut the rot free. “This part could not remain.”
Her eyes flick to the shavings. “Gone.”
“Yes.”
“Hurt gone?”
“Some of it.”
She absorbs this. Then asks, “Fixed?”
“Not yet.”
Her mouth tightens. Again, it’s Lilliandra he sees.
Miraak sets the knife aside and reaches for the resin paste he brought with him. “First, remove what spreads. Then seal what remains. Then brace it until it can bear weight again.”
Ophelia watches the paste touch the pale cut in the wood.
“Does that make sense?” he asks.
She nods. Then, after a long moment, she looks toward the house.
Miraak follows her gaze. The shifted curtain in the upper window has gone still. His heart, traitorous thing, understands before his mind bothers to name it.
Lilliandra.
Ophelia looks back at the damaged post. “Hurt,” she says.
Miraak’s hand stills around the resin knife. There are several answers he could give. A simple one. A comforting one. A cowardly one.
Your mother is better.
Your mother loves you.
Your mother is trying.
All true.
None sufficient.
“Yes,” he says. “She’s hurt.”
Ophelia’s fingers curl around the edge of her cloak.
“Me?” The word is barely sound.
Miraak turns fully toward her. “No.”
Her face doesn’t change, but he sees the question remain. Children are taught even when no one teaches them. And some lessons must be answered more than once.
He sets the resin down, wipes his hand on a cloth, and crouches before her in the snow. “No,” he says again. “You did not hurt her.”
Ophelia watches him, unblinking.
“She was hurt before you were born.” A dangerous truth. One he would not give to every child, but Ophelia has always been listening to the shape of things. Lies would only teach her to distrust the hands that offer safety. “Some days, being near what she loves reminds her of the hurt,” he says. “That is not your doing.”
Ophelia looks at the post. “Like wood?”
Miraak’s throat tightens. He nods once. “Like wood.”
She thinks about this with a seriousness that aches to witness. Then she reaches down, picks up a pale shaving, and places it carefully beside the sealed mark on the post. “Brace,” she says.
Miraak looks at the shaving, then at her. It’s not a solution. It’s a child’s ritual. A small, solemn offering to the idea that hurt things can be held upright until they bear weight again.
He treats it as such. “Yes,” he says. “Brace.”
Ophelia’s shoulders lower.
The work continues.
By the time the post is sealed and bound, Ophelia’s gloves are wet and her nose has gone pink from cold. She doesn’t complain. Miraak suspects she would stay until her fingers froze rather than interrupt the task before it’s complete.
Another trait from both parents, unfortunately.
“That’s enough,” he says. Ophelia looks at the fence. “It will hold.” She looks at him. “For now,” he allows, “then we shall see in the spring time.”
This satisfies her more than false certainty would have.
They gather the tools together. Or rather, Miraak gathers them while Ophelia supervises the placement of each item in the satchel with silent, exacting judgment. When he puts the cloth beside the resin instead of beneath it, she gives him a look.
He corrects it.
“Better,” she says.
Miraak pauses. Then, with great gravity, “Thank you.”
Ophelia’s mouth moves again. This time, something almost like a smile appears and vanishes.
They walk back toward the house together.
She does not take his hand at first. The path is uneven, but familiar now. Her boots sink into his prints when the snow deepens, one small step placed inside the hollow of his larger one. He slows without appearing to slow, shortening his stride without comment.
Halfway back, a crow launches from a branch overhead. Ophelia startles. Her hand finds his — quick and instinctive. Miraak stops. The crow beats upward through the pines, black against the pale sky. Ophelia watches it go with wide eyes, breath caught in her throat.
Then she says, with careful offense, “Bird.”
When she calms, they continue, her hand remaining in his all the way to the door.
Inside, warmth rolls over them: hearth-smoke, food, drying wool, the faint chemical bitterness of whatever Lilliandra brewed the night before and refused to identify. Elikar looks up from the table where he has been repairing one of Ophelia’s wooden toys with far too much emotional investment.
“There you are,” he says, too brightly, then sees the mud on Ophelia’s hem and Miraak’s expression and wisely lowers his volume. “Productive expedition?”
Ophelia steps behind Miraak’s leg. Not hiding, but positioning.
Miraak removes his cloak. “Well enough.” Ophelia’s fingers tighten around his.
From upstairs comes the faintest creak of boards. Lilliandra is awake, then.
Ophelia hears it too. Her eyes lift. Fear crosses her face first. Then want. Then caution, older than it should be.
Miraak crouches in front of her, blocking none of the room this time. “You may go up,” he offers. “Or you may stay here.” Ophelia looks at the stairs. “She may still be tired,” he says. “You do not need to fix that.”
Her gaze returns to him.
“But,” he adds, “you may say good morning, if you wish.”
Ophelia thinks. No one interrupts her. At last, she releases his hand and reaches into the pocket of her cloak. From it, she withdraws one pale curl of wood shaving, carefully preserved despite the damp.
She holds it out to him.
Miraak takes it. “For her?” he asks.
Ophelia nods. Then, after another pause, she takes it back. No. Not through him, then.
Good.
Miraak rises.
Ophelia looks up at him.
He understands his part. Together, they climb the stairs. At Lilliandra’s door, Ophelia stops. Her hand reaches for his again, then does not quite touch. Miraak offers his palm. She takes two fingers.
He knocks once. A pause. Then Lilliandra’s voice, rough with sleep. “Yes?”
Miraak opens the door only a handspan. Lilliandra’s seated by the window, wrapped in the ugly blanket, her golden curls loose over one shoulder. She looks pale, tired, but present. Her golden eyes go first to Miraak, then to Ophelia. The pain’s there. It always is, in some form, but this time, Lilliandra doesn’t look away.
Ophelia presses closer to Miraak’s leg. He does not speak for her; he waits.
Their daughter lifts the wood shaving in both hands. Lilliandra looks at it as if the child has offered her a relic. “Brace,” Ophelia says. The word is barely louder than breath.
Lilliandra’s face changes. He watches her understand too much and not enough. Watches her brilliant, wounded mind reach for all possible meanings and then stop, for once, before it can ruin the gift by dissecting it. She lowers one hand, palm upward — not reaching, but receiving.
Ophelia looks to Miraak. He gives one small nod. She crosses the room with careful steps and places the shaving in Lilliandra’s hand.
Lilliandra’s fingers close around it. “Thank you,” she says, her voice breaks on the second word.
Ophelia retreats immediately, but not all the way to the door. She returns to Miraak’s side and leans against his leg, one hand gripping his trousers.
Miraak rests his hand lightly on her hood. Just once. Then removes it.
Lilliandra sees. Her expression’s terrible for a moment with grief, love, envy, and relief, but she doesn’t look away from them.
Outside, the repaired fence stands unseen beneath the pines, sealed and bound against the weather. Not fixed forever. Holding for now.
In this house, for now, that is no small thing.