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If You Hold Me Without Hurting Me, You'll Be The First Who Ever Did

Summary:

“You don’t remember the rain.”

“Should I?”

“You ate like someone was going to take the plate.”

OR
 
Martyn had learned to run from sirens before he learned how to work a dryer.

Once upon a time he’d found himself completely lost. No housing and not a single item to his name, he had to confront a hard truth. He had nowhere to go.

That was, until they found him—the most infamous crime group in the city. They took him in when he was young and desperate, and eventually, he began feeling safe. Protected, even. And that was all he’d ever asked for.

Three years later and Martyn’s become one of their best shots. In a team of three others, he’s one of the most feared men around. But as chance encounters with a charismatic officer become something more than coincidence and missions start to fall awry, he finds himself questioning his devotion, identity, and how far he’d truly go for his team.

Does loyalty really matter if family was never a choice?

OR

Martyn believes everyone hurts him.

The tragedy is that sometimes he's the one causing it.

Notes:

Hi, hello, thank you for being here! guess who finally made an ao3 account!!

I first started developing this fic around early March of 2026, but wasn't finished with the first chapter until around April. I am so so excited to share this here, I've really enjoyed writing and creating this and hope you guys can too!! this is also my first fic on ao3, so double excitement there!

I'm very eager to see where this story goes. enjoy! (ര ‿ ര )

Chapter 1: Prologue

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

The kid looked half-dead.

 

Blond hair plastered to his face, hands shaking as he clutched the bowl like someone might take it. 

 

“Easy,” the stranger said.

 

The kid didn’t answer.

 

He just kept eating.

 

Like if he stopped, it might disappear.

 

Like kindness was something that had to be finished before it could be taken away.

Notes:

oooo suspense ..

chat I'm actually terrified of the ao3 curse but fuck it we ball, gotta feed my fandom every once in a while

comments give me motivation btw.. /not sinister (✿◠‿◠)