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1. forgive me if i jump at the rattle of your keys by justhockey

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   11 May 2026

   Tags

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   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Post-Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Insecure Ilya Rozanov
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Depression
   • Autistic Shane Hollander
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Arguing
   • Misunderstandings
   • Communication
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov is Shane Hollander’s Baby
   • 5+1 Things

   Summary

   Ilya knew, right from the very moment he met Shane Hollander, that he would never be good enough for him. He’d seemed so…pristine, when they first met. Untouched. And Ilya knew his unclean hands would only dirty him up. He’s always been selfish, though; his father used to tell him that.

   So it’s no surprise, really, that Shane has finally gotten tired of it. Of him, always needing more from Shane than he deserves - always begging for more than he has earned.

   Ilya would leave himself, too, if he could.

   (Or, five time Ilya thought Shane would leave, and one time he knew he wasn’t going anywhere.)

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