Archive of Our Own

The thing about editing was that it required a specific kind of attention.

Not the broad, sweeping attention of watching something for the first time — that attention was easy, almost passive, the kind that let you miss things. Editing was the other kind. The close kind. The kind where you moved through twenty seconds of footage for forty minutes, where you learned the exact shape of a pause, where you could tell the difference between someone laughing because something was funny and someone laughing because they didn't know what else to do.

Hannah had been doing this for over a year. She was very good at it.

It was 2:14am on a Thursday, and she was on her third pass through the restaurant footage.

Her setup was the same as always — laptop on the left for the project file, monitor on the right for the full frame, headphones around her neck because she'd stopped needing them an hour ago and forgotten to take them off. The room was dark except for the screens. This was intentional. Hannah edited in the dark the way some people meditated in the dark — not because it was comfortable but because it removed everything that wasn't the work.

The footage on screen was from the Italian restaurant. Three weeks ago. The blind date video.

She had cut it four times already. The version that had gone up on the channel was tight, funny, warm — forty minutes of two people at a table distilled into something that landed. She knew it was good. She'd known it the first time she watched the raw footage back, sitting in this exact chair, headphones on, and had felt something settle in her chest with the specific weight of: oh. so that's what that is.

But the cut she was looking at now was not the cut that had gone up on the channel.

This was the full footage. Unedited. Raw.

She didn't usually do this — come back to the raw after the cut was done. There was no professional reason to. The video was up, it was performing, the comment section had been making noise for three weeks about the moment at 55:58 and the Illinois thing and the fact that Will had clearly orchestrated the whole thing on purpose. There was nothing left to do with this footage.

She was watching it anyway.

On screen: Anthony arrived at the restaurant at 7:12. He was wearing the grey shirt. He looked around, found the table, and his face did the thing.

Hannah had catalogued this thing over a year of footage. The settle. The shift. The thing his face did when he saw someone he was genuinely glad to see rather than professionally glad to see — and there was a difference, she'd learned that early, Anthony had a professional warmth that he deployed in public situations and a real warmth that he didn't always know he was deploying. The real one was smaller. More still.

He was doing the real one, walking toward Coy.

She scrubbed back. Watched it again.

Then she scrubbed to 55:58.

Hannah had started editing Anthony's videos in college.

Not Bunch of Friends — there was no Bunch of Friends then. This was the College Experience era, the kitchen-table era, the hey can you look at this cut and tell me if it's too long era that had somehow evolved into hey I've been exporting this to you every week for seven months, I think you're my editor now.

She had not agreed to this explicitly. It had just become true, the way most things with Anthony became true — through the sheer forward momentum of his conviction that this was how things were going to be.

She hadn't minded. This was the other thing that was simply true.

She was good at it and she liked doing it and Anthony's instincts were interesting enough that editing his footage was never boring. He had an eye for the moment. He couldn't always articulate what made something land, but he could feel when it didn't, and he trusted her to find the language for it. That trust — specific, creative, earned — was the foundation of something that had taken a while to name but was now simply: her longest friendship.

She'd been the only one, in those college years, who got it. Who understood what he was trying to make. His other friends had been great, warm, fun — genuinely fun in a way that college friendships often were — but when he talked about the channel, about wanting it to be something, about the specific shape of the thing he was building, the other faces had gone politely supportive in the way faces went when they didn't quite follow but cared about the person enough to nod.

Hannah had nodded because she followed.

Me and her couldn't do it alone, he'd said, in an interview she'd watched back on her laptop three weeks ago in this same chair. And just when I thought bunch of friends was going to just die out, that's when Coy and Will were like, hey, we live here and we can do this thing too.

She'd watched that clip twice.

Not because it was news — she'd been there, she knew the timeline — but because hearing him say it out loud, in an interview, for a camera, did something that she hadn't quite anticipated. It landed differently in the archive. In the record.

Me and her couldn't do it alone.

She kept that in the project file. Under no category. Just a clip she'd kept.

On screen: 55:58. The theater moment.

Coy was talking about wanting to do musical theater, and his voice had that quality it sometimes got when he wasn't performing — slightly lower, slightly more careful, like he was handling something he didn't want to drop. Anthony was listening the way Anthony listened to things that mattered to him, which meant his whole body had gone still and his head had tilted approximately four degrees to the left.

Hannah knew that tilt. She had sixteen months of footage containing that tilt. It appeared when Anthony was paying close attention to something and had forgotten to look like he wasn't.

You'd be good, Anthony said.

You don't know that, Coy said.

I've heard you sing. The streams.

And there it was. The frame she'd left in. The one she'd sat with for forty minutes before deciding, and then asked Coy about, and then asked Anthony about, and then made the decision she'd already made before she asked either of them.

Coy's face, receiving that sentence.

She paused it there. 55:59, technically. One second past the timestamp the comment section had found. She studied the frame with the same attention she brought to every edit decision — not emotional attention, or not only that, but the specific craft attention of someone asking: what is this showing? what is it saying? what happens if I leave it in?

She already knew the answer. She'd known it when she left it in. She'd known it when Will had sent the voice memo and she'd sat in this chair at 9am on a Sunday morning listening to him say you owe me five dollars with the smug satisfaction of a man who had been right about something for a long time.

She owed him five dollars.

She closed the project file.

Will knocked on her door at 2:31am.

She knew it was him because Anthony knocked differently — two quick taps, polite, an announcement — and Coy didn't knock at all, just opened the door slightly and waited to be acknowledged, which she'd found alarming the first time and now found endearing in the specific way that things became endearing once you understood them.

Will knocked like someone who wasn't sure if they should be knocking but had decided to knock anyway. Three slow, evenly-spaced taps. Diplomatic.

"It's open," she said.

He came in carrying two mugs, which meant he'd made tea, which meant he'd been in the kitchen having a feeling and had decided to share the feeling via beverage rather than confronting it directly. This was a very Will approach to things. She'd learned it slowly.

"I saw your light," he said, handing her a mug.

"I have a screen. It glows."

"Hence the light." He dropped into the beanbag chair in the corner — her beanbag chair, technically, the one she'd had since sophomore year of college and had moved with her twice — with the ease of someone who'd been doing it long enough to have worn the exact right dent into the filling. "Why are you still up?"

"Footage."

"Which footage."

"The restaurant."

Will was quiet for a moment. She could feel him deciding whether to say anything, which was a thing she'd also learned about him — he had this instinct toward chaos that coexisted, sometimes uncomfortably, with a genuine reluctance to push on things that mattered.

"You've cut that video," he said finally.

"I know."

"Like. Four times."

"I know."

"So what are you—"

"I'm not editing it," she said. "I'm just watching it."

Another pause. Will wrapped both hands around his mug in a way that looked like he was trying to warm them up, which was a tell — he did this when he was thinking carefully. She'd noticed it months ago and filed it away, the way she filed most things.

"Is it good?" he said. Not sarcastically. Actually asking.

"Yeah," she said. "It's really good."

"Good like the video's good or good like—"

"Both."

Will nodded. He looked at the dark monitor, now just a dark rectangle, the footage closed. "I was right," he said, but he said it quietly, not in the chest-puffed way he'd said it in the voice memo. Like a statement of fact rather than a point scored.

"You were right," Hannah agreed.

"I thought you were going to disagree with me longer."

"I disagreed with your timeline, not your conclusion."

"What was wrong with my timeline?"

She looked at him over her mug. "You thought it was already happening when Coy moved in. I thought it was already happening about a month before that."

Will stared at her. "What? When?"

"There's a clip," she said. "From the we move out soon channel. Before the rebrand. October, I think. Anthony's editing something at the table and Coy comes in from outside — he'd been on a walk — and Anthony looks up."

"And?"

"And nothing. He just looks up. That's the clip."

Will processed this. "That's literally nothing."

"I know what his face looks like when it's nothing," Hannah said. "That wasn't it."

The room was quiet. Somewhere in the house, the pipes made their noise — the particular metallic settling sound that happened three or four times a night, that Hannah had stopped hearing consciously months ago but registered now because the room was otherwise completely still.

"You're kind of terrifying," Will said, with something that wasn't quite admiration but was adjacent to it.

"I edit video," she said. "For a living. It's literally my job to know what faces mean."

"It's your job for our YouTube channel."

"Practice is practice."

Will laughed — a real one, short and surprised. He turned the mug in his hands. Hannah watched him do it and waited for the thing he'd actually come in to say, because he hadn't come in at 2:31am to talk about the restaurant footage. That much was clear.

"Can I ask you something," he said.

"You were going to regardless."

"True." He looked at the beanbag's surface rather than at her. "Do you ever feel like — okay, this is going to sound weird."

"You can be weird. It's late."

"Do you ever feel like you see all of it," he said, "and nobody sees you?"

The question landed in the room with the specific weight of something that had been sitting somewhere for a while, waiting for the right moment to come out.

Hannah held her mug. She thought about the edit file. The October clip of Anthony looking up. The way she watched footage in the dark at 2am because that was where she did her best seeing.

"Sometimes," she said. Honestly.

Will nodded, like this confirmed something. "I feel like that," he said. "Like. I'm in all the videos. I'm funny in them, I think—"

"You're very funny in them."

"—but it's like. I'm always the thing that happens. Not the thing watching things happen." He paused. "That doesn't make sense."

"It makes sense."

"Does it?"

"You're the catalyst," she said. "The blind date thing. The control group. You named it, you proposed it, you set it in motion. The video exists because of you. But the video isn't about you."

Will was quiet.

"That's most of the channel, actually," Hannah said. "The funniest moments involve you. But the story — the thing the channel is building toward — that's the other two."

"And you," Will said.

"And me."

"What's the story we're building toward?"

She looked at the dark monitor. "I don't know yet. That's the thing about editing. You don't know what the story is until you have enough footage to cut it from."

Will absorbed this. He looked like he was sitting with something — not uncomfortable, exactly, more like carefully. Like he was learning the shape of an idea before deciding where to put it.

"I made the control group suggestion," he said, "because I thought it would be funny."

"I know."

"But also because—" He stopped.

"Because it was true," Hannah said. "You can say it. I already know."

"Was it obvious?"

She thought about October. About the look she'd filed away. About sixteen months of footage and one particular tilt of a head. "To me," she said. "I don't think it was obvious to them."

"Is it now?"

"Well," she said, "they've been spending a lot of time in the kitchen at 1am. So."

Will let out a breath that was close to a laugh. "Yeah, I've noticed that."

"Good. Then you see things too."

He looked at her. Something shifted in his expression — the layer he usually kept up, the performance of being Will, dropped slightly. Just for a second. Long enough for her to see what was underneath, which was someone who was twenty-four years old and had been funny his whole life and was slowly figuring out that funny wasn't the whole thing.

"Han," he said.

"Yeah."

"Are you good?"

The question was simple. She turned it over anyway, the way she turned over edit decisions — carefully, with full attention, not rushing to an answer.

"I'm good," she said. "I'm really good, actually."

"Really."

"I'm doing the thing I'm good at," she said. "With people I actually like. That's — that's a lot." She paused. "Are you good?"

Will looked at his tea. He had a habit of going very still when something landed, which most people didn't notice because he was usually moving. She'd noticed it in the footage. She'd noticed it now.

"I think so," he said. "I think I'm getting better at it."

"At what?"

"At being here," he said. "Like — actually here. Not just the funny thing that happens."

Hannah nodded. She didn't say anything for a moment, because some things landed better without immediate response, and she'd learned that from editing too — the value of a beat held, a cut delayed, the space before the next thing.

"That's something," she said finally.

"Yeah." He pushed himself out of the beanbag — the effort it required always made him look momentarily betrayed by gravity — and picked up his mug. "You should sleep."

"I will."

"You're going to watch it again."

"Probably."

He shook his head, but it was fond. He'd developed a fond headshake somewhere in the last six months that he deployed specifically for things she did that he found both exasperating and reasonable. She'd first noticed it in the footage from the stranger dinner video and had thought: oh, that's new.

"Goodnight, Han," he said.

"Night, Will."

He left, closing the door the same way he'd knocked — diplomatically. Three beats. Considered.

She sat for a moment in the quiet.

Then she opened the project file again.

The thing about the October clip — the one she'd never mentioned to anyone, the one that existed in a folder on her hard drive labeled misc bts with thirty other clips that would never be used — was that she hadn't kept it because of Coy.

She'd kept it because of Anthony.

Because she'd been there, in the apartment, that October. She'd been sitting at the table where Anthony was editing, running sound on something of her own, and she'd been watching him work in the peripheral way you watched people you'd known long enough to have a sense of without looking directly. And when the door had opened and Coy had come in from outside — face red from the cold, scarf half-unwound, still wearing the particular slightly-dazed expression of someone who'd been on a long walk alone — she'd seen Anthony look up.

And she'd seen his face.

And she'd thought, with a quiet that had nothing performative about it: oh, no. okay.

Not a bad oh no. Just the oh no of something becoming true that was going to be complicated before it became simple.

She'd started filming because it was what she did. Automatic. The camera on the table, angled toward the room, the way she always kept a camera going when she had a feeling something was happening. She had a year of footage she'd taken this way — not for the channel, not for anything, just because she was a person who saw things and had learned that the best way to prove to herself she hadn't imagined them was to have evidence.

The clip was twelve seconds long. Anthony looking up. His face in the looking-up. The specific quality of his stillness.

She'd watched it probably thirty times.

She'd also, separately, watched a different clip from around the same period — Coy on a stream, late October, doing the Rent phase that Anthony had mentioned in the restaurant. She'd been watching the stream live that night, half-present, editing something, and Coy had been doing Seasons of Love in the particular way that he sang things when he'd stopped thinking about the audience and was just singing. And she'd thought: Anthony's watching this right now.

She hadn't had any evidence for that. She'd just known.

She filed things she knew without evidence in a separate category. She was very careful about which category she operated from professionally.

The monitor glowed.

She was looking at a different clip now — not the restaurant, not October. This was from earlier in the year, the first real Bunch of Friends video she'd edited. The stranger dinner. Footage from before she'd even been sure this was going to be a real thing and not just a very long hang that someone happened to film.

She watched herself on screen, in the corner of the frame, laughing at something the dog walker had said. She looked the same as she looked now, give or take the exhaustion. She'd looked the same for most of the last year. The thing that had changed was harder to see in footage — more the texture of the days, the specific weight of belonging to something that was becoming something, the feeling of knowing you were in the middle of a story that was still happening.

She'd been making content online for years. She knew what it felt like when something was just content and when something was alive.

This was alive.

Anthony had known it first. He'd been the one with the vision — had always been the one with the vision, even in the college years when the vision had been bigger than the execution. The difference now was the people. Coy and Will had moved in and something had clicked into place that hadn't been there before, some configuration of personalities that made the sum feel like more than the parts, and Hannah had watched it happen from the editing chair and thought: this is going to work.

She'd been right. They all knew she'd been right. Nobody said it that way, but the 100k subscribers said it that way, and the comment section said it, and the interview where the journalist had described her as having done the whole thing while taped to a garage door — which was true, and had been her own idea, because the concept of being literally attached to the structure that housed the thing felt right and she'd said so and Anthony had said that is so you, Han and she'd taken it as the compliment it was meant to be.

She watched the stranger dinner clip until it ended. Then she scrubbed back to the beginning.

We're making art, Anthony had said, in the interview, being partly funny and partly genuine in the specific way he was sometimes both simultaneously. If you think about it.

She did think about it.

She thought he was right.

Her phone buzzed at 3:02am.

She looked at it. The group chat — bof (no berto) — had a message from a number she didn't have to check to identify.

hey are you awake

She looked at the name. Typed back: obviously. why are you awake.

Three dots. Then: couldn't sleep. brain's loud.

go drink some water and look at something that isn't a screen

this IS a screen

you know what I mean

A longer pause. She watched the dots appear and disappear twice.

Then: han

She waited.

are you happy

She looked at the monitor. At the stranger dinner footage. At herself in the corner of the frame, laughing, not for the camera, just because something was funny.

She typed: yeah. are you?

The dots appeared.

getting there

She put the phone face-down on the desk.

The timestamp read 3:17am when the door opened.

Not a knock this time — just the door, very slowly, a sliver of hallway light and then a person-shaped silhouette that she recognized before it resolved into details. The particular way of standing in a doorway. The one that waited to be acknowledged.

"Hey," Coy said.

"Hey."

He came in. He was wearing the hoodie — not the green one from the restaurant, just the regular one, the grey one he wore when he'd been awake too long — and his hair was doing the thing it did when he'd been lying down but not sleeping. He looked at the glowing monitor, at the footage she'd paused on without meaning to.

"Is that—"

"The stranger dinner," she said. "Yeah."

Coy came and stood near the desk. Not in Will's beanbag — he wasn't a beanbag person, she'd noticed that early on — just standing, looking at the frame she'd paused on. A wide shot of the table with everyone around it, the dog walker in the center, Anthony gesturing about something with both hands.

"You watch the old ones a lot?" he said.

"Sometimes. When I need to remember what the thing is."

He looked at her. "The thing?"

"The reason," she said. "The thing under all the other things. It's easy to lose in the week-to-week." She paused. "Editing gets close. Sometimes too close. You have to step back and watch it like a viewer."

"What do you see when you watch it like a viewer?"

She looked at the paused frame. "People who like each other," she said. "People who are genuinely trying. People who make each other funnier."

Coy was quiet.

"Can I ask you something," she said.

"Yeah."

"The kitchen," she said. "How often."

He knew what she meant. She watched his face do the thing it did when it wasn't performing, which was become very honest very quickly, like he hadn't figured out how to delay honesty long enough to edit it.

"Most nights," he said. "It's not — we don't, like. We just talk."

"I know."

"How do you know?"

"I'm up most nights," she said simply. "I hear you guys."

Coy looked at the floor. She let the moment breathe — another editing instinct, the value of a held beat — and waited.

"Is it obvious," he said. It was almost exactly what Will had asked, an hour and a half ago, in the same room.

"To me," she said. Same answer as before.

"Is it obvious to him?"

She thought about the restaurant footage. The tilt. The October clip. I've heard you sing. The streams.

"I think," she said carefully, "that he knows something. I don't think he's named it yet."

Coy pressed the heel of his hand to his eye. It was a tired gesture. "I don't want to make it weird."

"The channel thing."

"Yeah."

"The friendship thing."

"Yeah."

"The whole — everything," Coy said.

"I know." She turned the mug in her hands. "Can I tell you something about Anthony?"

He looked up.

"He has been making things online for twelve years," she said. "He has been in group projects before. Channels, collabs, friend groups that became content. All of them ended." She paused. "He is more careful about this one than he's ever been about anything. Not with the videos — with the people. He tracks the people."

Coy was listening in the way he listened to things that mattered. Fully. Still.

"He told a journalist that this channel is everything his college content was trying to be," she said. "He said that in college, I was the only one who got it. Me and him, and it wasn't enough." She paused. "Then you and Will showed up."

"He said that?"

"To a camera. On the record." She looked at him. "He doesn't say things to cameras he doesn't mean. I've watched enough of his footage to know."

Coy was quiet for a long moment.

"What did he say about me specifically," he said.

She considered how to answer this. The edit decision.

"He said Coy and Will are two of this generation's best writers and general comedians," she said. "He said Hannah is generational talent." She smiled slightly. "He went alphabetical. I've been in his life longer."

Coy almost laughed. Almost. "And personally. Not the interview."

"Personally," she said, "he said he sees you as a younger version of himself."

Something moved across Coy's face. She watched it carefully, the way she watched footage — not to analyze it in the moment but to have it for later, to understand it better with distance.

"That's either really good or really complicated," he said.

"Probably both," she said. "That's usually how the true things are."

He sat down on the floor — not unusual, she'd noticed he preferred floors to furniture — and leaned his back against the desk. She looked at the top of his head for a moment, the somewhat chaotic hair situation, the way he drew his knees up and folded into himself when he was thinking.

"Why are you still awake," he said, to the floor.

"Footage," she said.

"The restaurant?"

"Among other things."

"Are you going to tell me what the footage looks like?"

She thought about this. The 55:58 frame. The tilt. The October clip in the misc bts folder.

"I think," she said, "you already know what the footage looks like."

He didn't answer. But his shoulders did something — a small movement, downward, like something releasing.

"Han," he said.

"Mm."

"Thank you. For leaving that shot in."

She'd known he was going to say something like this, had felt it coming the way you felt a cut coming when the footage was right and you knew exactly where to land. But it landed anyway.

"I leave in what's true," she said. "That's the job."

"Is that really just the job?"

She looked at the monitor. The stranger dinner, paused on its wide shot. All of them around the table, slightly chaotic, slightly too loud, the dog walker at the center of something that hadn't been planned.

"No," she said. "It's also because I've been watching you two for six months and I was getting impatient."

Coy laughed — a real one, surprised out of him. It filled the room the way laughter filled rooms when it was honest.

"You're kind of terrifying," he said, which was the same thing Will had said, an hour and a half earlier, in different circumstances.

"I've been told," she said.

He stayed until almost four.

They didn't talk about Anthony again — that had been said, it didn't need repeating. They talked about other things: a video idea she'd been turning over that she hadn't told anyone yet, a song he'd been trying to learn on a ukulele he'd bought on impulse two months ago and barely touched since, whether the water stain on the living room ceiling looked more like a boot or a sitting duck (boot, she maintained; sitting duck, he insisted, and she made a mental note to look at it properly in daylight and see who was right).

He said goodnight at 3:53am and left the door slightly ajar, the way he always left doors.

She sat for a few minutes after.

Then she opened the project file one last time, scrolled to the beginning of the restaurant footage, and let it play.

Not to edit. Not to look for anything. Just to watch it. The way a viewer watched it, with the benefit of distance and the knowledge of what came before and after.

Anthony arrived at 7:12, wearing the grey shirt, and his face did the thing.

She watched it all the way to the end. The restaurant. The car ride. The group chat voice memo that she'd heard Will record from the next room, with the very specific audio signature of someone recording a voice memo in the bathroom because they thought the acoustics were better. They were not. She'd noted this in the audio track but not corrected it, because the imperfection was authentic and authentic things were usually worth keeping.

She watched to the end of the usable footage. Then the footage that came after — the drive home, the conversation that had happened off-mic, the shapes of people in a car that the camera had kept catching even after everyone had forgotten it was on.

She stopped there. Not at anything in particular. Just a frame where all four of them were visible — Will driving, herself in the front, Coy and Anthony in the back, not touching but close in the way that people were close in cars when the world outside was dark and moving and the inside was still.

She looked at the frame for a long time.

Then she saved the file, closed the laptop, and went to bed.

Friday.

She slept until ten, which was late by her standards. When she came downstairs, Will was making pancakes with the focused energy of a person who'd appointed himself to the task. Anthony was on the couch reading something on his phone that was probably a YouTube analytics report even though he always said he didn't check those. Coy was sitting on the floor by the coffee table with a bowl of cereal, looking at something on his own phone, and he looked up when she came in with a brief nod that communicated: we're good, I'm not going to make it weird.

She appreciated that. She nodded back.

"Morning," Anthony said, not looking up from his phone.

"Morning," she said.

"There's coffee," Will said, from the kitchen, with the authority of someone who had made the coffee and wanted acknowledgment of this.

"Thank you, Will," she said.

"You're welcome, Han."

She got her coffee. She came and sat in her corner of the couch. The morning organized itself around her with the ease of a thing that had been happening long enough to have a shape — Will's pancake updates announced at intervals, Anthony's phone put down when Will said something that required visual attention, Coy's bowl put on the coffee table when the cereal was done, the ambient sound of four people sharing a morning without having to perform it.

"I have a video idea," she said.

Everyone looked at her.

This didn't happen often — she brought ideas to Anthony first, or to the group chat. Announcing one in the room was new. She'd decided, somewhere between 3:53am and waking up, that she was going to try doing it differently.

"Hit us," Anthony said.

"We do a thing where each person narrates another person's day," she said. "Not the GRWM thing — not the boys voicing over my stuff. All four of us, two pairs. You follow Person A, but Person B narrates. And you don't know what Person B is going to say."

She watched the idea land. Will stopped stirring.

"Who narrates who," Coy said.

"That's the interesting part," she said. "We vote."

A pause.

Then Anthony said: "I want to narrate Coy."

"Obviously," Will said.

"What does 'obviously' mean—"

"It means obviously," Will said, and turned back to the pancakes with the expression of someone exercising significant restraint.

"I want to narrate Will," Hannah said.

Will turned around from the stove. His face did the thing — the one she'd catalogued as the genuine-surprise face, distinct from the performed-surprise face he used for bits. "Me?"

"You," she said. "Is that okay?"

Something happened in his expression. The same small dropping-away she'd seen the night before, briefly, in the dark room. "Yeah," he said. "Yeah, that's — yeah."

"Then I narrate Hanbon," Coy said, like it was obvious, because once she'd said she'd take Will, the only remaining option was her and Coy together, and she heard, in the simplicity of his voice when he said it, that he thought it was a good option.

She thought it was a good option too.

"So," Anthony said, sitting up, already pulling out his phone — the I'm noting this down phone pull, she knew it well. "We've got Anthpo narrating Coy, Hanbon narrating Will—"

"And Coy narrating Han," Will finished.

"When do we film," Coy said.

"This week," Anthony said. "We could do it Tuesday."

"I have a thing Tuesday," Will said.

"Wednesday."

"I have a dentist thing Wednesday."

"Will."

"What? I have teeth."

"Thursday," Hannah said.

"Thursday works," Anthony confirmed, typing.

"Thursday works," Coy said.

"Thursday," Will agreed, then looked at Hannah. Something in his expression — brief, unperformed — said: I see what you did there. She gave him the small smile she reserved for things she didn't need to narrate.

He turned back to the pancakes.

Thursday came.

She spent the day with Coy's voice in her ear, narrating her making tea and answering emails and sitting in the editing chair, and she thought about what she'd said the night of 2:14am — the thing under all the other things — and she thought she was looking at it, in the footage that was also not footage yet, in the room with these specific people on this specific Thursday.

Later, she would edit all of it. Four cameras, four narrators, four days of footage compressed into one video. She would find the moments. She would cut what needed to be cut. She would leave in what was true.

Later, she would watch Will narrating Hannah Bondalo's day and say, in the edit notes she kept in the file, just for herself: keep the one where he says she notices everything and leaves space for it. that's the one.

Later, there would be a clip of Coy narrating her sitting at the editing desk at midnight — he'd filmed it without telling her, she'd find it in the footage and her first response would be mild offense and her second response would be recognition — and he'd narrate it by saying, very quietly: this is where she keeps everything. all the things she sees. she keeps them here and turns them into something.

She would keep that in the cut.

Later, in comments: hanbon's lore is so much deeper than we realized. someone protect her.

Later: the way coy narrated han's editing sessions i'm deceased she really does just see everything.

Later: nobody talks about the fact that han and will have become their own thing. like their own whole thing. it crept up on me.

Later, in the group chat — bof (no berto) — Will would send a voice memo, and it would be shorter than usual, and it would say: hey. i watched the cut. you left in the bit where i said i was trying to be here. i know that was a decision. thanks.

She would type back: practice is practice.

He would send back a single thumbs-up emoji.

She would screenshot it.

File it.

Under no category.

But that was all later. For now it was Thursday morning, and someone was making coffee, and she was in her corner of the couch with her own mug and the morning was organizing itself around her with the ease of a thing that had been happening long enough to have a shape.

She watched it happen.

She watched Coy on the floor and Anthony on the other end of the couch gradually, over the course of forty minutes of a Thursday morning, end up at the same end of the couch, not touching but close in the way they were always close, the orbit having run out of distance.

She watched Will look at this from the kitchen and look at her and make the expression that said: I see it too.

She made the expression back that said: I know.

She drank her coffee.

Outside, the morning continued. The light was the particular flat grey of a New Jersey Thursday in the months that weren't quite spring. Inside, the house made its sounds. The pipes. The fridge. The ambient warmth of a place that had been lived in long enough to know the people living in it.

She was here, and she saw it, and they saw her seeing it, which was the thing she hadn't known she needed until Will had asked her the question at 2:31am, and she had found, in the answering of it, that she did.

She was the editor.

She kept what was true.

This was true.

[in her hard drive, in a folder labeled misc bts, there are 847 clips she has never used. she knows exactly what each one shows. she keeps them because someday she might need to remember. or because she already needs to remember. or because she is the kind of person who knows that the footage is always there, even when the camera isn't. the footage is always there.]

Fim
The End
Fin

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