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1. make you suffer by NotEvenALittle

   Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   16 May 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Rape/Non-Con
   • Castiel/Dean Winchester
   • Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester
   • Dean Winchester
   • Castiel (Supernatural)
   • Alastair (Supernatural)
   • Sam Winchester
   • Original Male Character(s)
   • Original Female Character(s)
   • Original Characters
   • Season/Series 04
   • Season/Series 05
   • Episode: s04e01 Lazarus Rising (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s04e03 In the Beginning (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s04e06 Yellow Fever (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s04e07 It's the Great Pumpkin Sam Winchester
   • Episode: s04e10 Heaven and Hell (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s04e14 Sex and Violence (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s04e15 Death Takes a Holiday (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s04e16 On the Head of a Pin (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s04e19 Jump the Shark (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s04e21 When the Levee Breaks (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s05e01 Sympathy for the Devil (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s05e02 Good God Y'all! (Supernatural)
   • Episode: s05e03 Free to Be You and Me (Supernatural)
   • Post-Episode: s05e03 Free to Be You and Me (Supernatural)
   • Background Case
   • Hell
   • Post-Hell Dean Winchester
   • Dean Winchester in Hell
   • Dean Winchester Has Trauma From Hell
   • Dean Winchester Remembers Hell
   • Dean Winchester Has Flashbacks of Hell
   • Dean Winchester is Tortured in Hell
   • Dean Winchester Dreams About Hell
   • Dreams and Nightmares
   • Flashbacks
   • Dean Winchester Has Nightmares
   • Torture
   • Rape
   • Cannibalism
   • Surgery
   • Medical Torture
   • Psychological Torture
   • Blood and Torture
   • Genital Torture
   • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
   • Graphic Description
   • Blood and Gore
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Castiel Heals Dean Winchester
   • Castiel/Dean Winchester First Kiss
   • Canon Compliant
   • Sickfic
   • Vomiting
   • heatstroke
   • Title from a The Mountain Goats Song
   • Whump
   • Dean Winchester Whump

   Summary

   Dean has dreams and flashbacks of his time in Hell, is haunted by what's been done to him and by what he's done to others.

   It all comes to a head on a case in Texas, late in September.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   16,270

   Chapters:

   6/6

   Comments:

   35

   Kudos:

   74

   Bookmarks:

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