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1. i get what i want, then i just get sick by canoneer_zakura (Lady_ofthelake)

   Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Gen
   • Complete Work

   26 May 2026

   Tags

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   • Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester
   • Sam Winchester
   • Dean Winchester
   • Sam Winchester is Not Okay
   • Demon Blood Addict Sam Winchester
   • Manipulative Ruby (Supernatural)
   • Late Night Conversations
   • Hallucinations
   • Hallucinating Sam Winchester
   • Why is that a tag what is WONG with us as a fandom
   • Hurt Sam Winchester
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide Attempts
   • Dean Winchester in Hell
   • Episode: s04e09 I Know What You Did Last Summer (Supernatural)
   • Dean Winchester is Sam Winchester's Parent
   • Drug Withdrawal
   • Vomiting
   • No Smut
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Codependent Winchesters (Supernatural)

   Summary

   Sam leans into the touch like it’s a promise, like it’s a prayer. “I miss you,” he says as he lets his eyes slip closed to better memorize the feeling. “Something inside me is cracking,” he continues, far away and soft like the moonlight bathing them in the silver glow. “I don’t think I’m a good person anymore. I don’t know if I ever was.”

   or, there’s another reason Sam keeps going back to the demon blood, and it’s not just the high it gives him.

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