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1. Like a Flower, I Rot. by nyxie_z

   Fandoms: Forsaken (Roblox)  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Multi, Other
   • Work in Progress

   13 Aug 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Azure/Two Time (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • 1x1x1x1/Azure (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Azure & John Doe (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • 1x1x1x1 & John Doe (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Azure & Phosphorus (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Azure & Noli (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Azure (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Two Time (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • 1x1x1x1 (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Guest 666 (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • John Doe (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Phosphorus (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Noli (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Diary/Journal
   • Azure Needs A Hug (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Self-Insert
   • Self-Insert as Azurewrath
   • Trauma
   • Abuse
   • Religious Cults
   • Spawnism - Freeform
   • Suffering
   • Past Azure/Two Time (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Why Did I Write This?
   • POV First Person
   • Angst
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Self-Harm
   • AFAB Azure (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Intersex Two Time (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Loss of Virginity
   • Vaginal Fingering
   • Slow Build
   • Slow to Update
   • Unhealthy Relationships
   • Past Relationship(s)
   • Father-Son Relationship
   • Author Is Sleep Deprived
   • Bottom Azure (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Eventual Romance
   • Eventual Smut
   • Eventual Relationships
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Grooming
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Whump
   • Whump
   • Song: the cure (Olivia Rodrigo)
   • Gender Dysphoria
   • Trans Azure (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Plot
   • They/Them Pronouns for 1x1x1x1 (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Temporarily Unrequited Love
   • Boypussy
   • Vaginal Sex
   • Intersex 1x1x1x1 (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Smut
   • Penis in Vagina Sex
   • No Aftercare
   • Azure-centric (Forsaken - Roblox)
   • Miscommunication
   • Mirror Pronouns for Noli (Forsaken - Roblox)

   Summary

   Welcome to hell. You're going to have to kill to survive here. We have no choice, but honestly, I don't really care. It comes natural to me. You seem special, though. Unique...

    

   I grimaced at those words. Special. Unique. Something they'd call me. I hate it.

    

   I'm not a killer.

   Azure’s journal reflects his trauma and his experiences throughout his entire life, from Pre-Saken to Forsaken. He writes about his life up to now.

   (This is a self-insert of the author and would like to be respected as such. Not everything in this is 100% canon and is based on headcanons and the author’s experiences.)

   **Warning, this fanfic contains dark topics and themes such as self-harm, abuse, trauma, grooming, sexual content, and more triggering subjects.. Proceed at your own risk. You have been warned.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   19,119

   Chapters:

   17/?

   Comments:

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