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1. When I close my eyes, you replace him. by betweenp4anels

   Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games)  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   29 May 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • John "Soap" MacTavish/Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • John Price (Call of Duty)
   • Kyle "Gaz" Garrick
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Original Male Character(s)
   • Original Female Character(s)
   • I'm Bad at Tagging
   • Eventual Smut
   • Eventual Happy Ending
   • Abusive Relationships
   • not with the main couple
   • Rape/Non-con Elements
   • agian not with the main couple
   • Self-Harm
   • Self-Worth Issues
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Coming Out
   • one sided love for a bit
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley Loves John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Protective Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • Kyle "Gaz" Garrick & John "Soap" MacTavish Friendship
   • Good Friend Kyle "Gaz" Garrick
   • Supportive John Price (Call of Duty)
   • Touch Aversion
   • Minor Violence
   • Anxiety Attacks
   • Bottom John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Jealous Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • Bad Writing
   • I Tried
   • One Shot
   • Top Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • Sexually Inexperienced Simon "Ghost" Riley
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley has never been in a relationship
   • Like my boy is so down bad that he gets no play
   • Soap has been in only one relationship
   • Praise Kink
   • John "Soap" MacTavish Has a Praise Kink
   • Simon "Ghost" Riley loves Soap's body
   • like he worships his body
   • this man is down bad ya'll don't even know
   • Gentle Sex
   • Soap is kinda scared of sex
   • Ghost helps him out though
   • even though he is inexperienced
   • trust the process
   • OC female characters
   • OC lesbian couple
   • ofc i make their story sad though
   • doomed yuri basically
   • Love them though
   • Multiple Orgasms
   • Jealous John "Soap" MacTavish
   • Fuck AI

   Summary

   Ghost has always had certain...feelings for soap. He can't quite place what they are or why he has them, but they are there. After an op going well, the team goes to a bar to celebrate, finding out secrets from Soap. The secret affects Ghost the most, but he keeps it in. As time passes, more and more details about it are revealed to Ghost. How can he withhold his secret yearning for his sergeant? How can he keep him safe?

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