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lukey had always struggled with his emotions for as long as he could remember.
He knew that it was a side effect of all the experiments the keepers did to him, and due to how long he was in the null for.
And it made him wonder how emotions were like. How people felt, why they acted like they did. So he learnt it, he watched the keepers whenever they came in to test him. how some looked reluctant to do anything to him, how others looked happy to stick a needle into him.
And due to the constant analysis of basically emotionless entity’s, he knew how to read a normal person without ever thinking about it.
So he hid that, he never commented on how weird he found it to relearn everything he knew about some of the people in the flight world.
He was used to Zam being loud, willing to fight and defend people, used to aimsey running up to him and speaking in a wierd tone. He wasn’t used to the clear rivalry between ros and aimsey, he was so used to them being really good friends.
So now he was sitting in his dorm, unable to process anything. The moonlight casting deep shadows across the room as he tried to make sense of whatever is around him. every friendship he made in the realm was gone, his friends entirely different to the friends he made in the realm.
He knew that this was inevitable, being a world hopper he should have been prepared to run into his first friends that were nothing like he knew.
But it scared him to know that these people where never supposed to know him, was never going to see him.
He was an anomaly in this world.
And he didn’t know how to feel other than fear, because fear is all he knew when the keepers experimented on him. So now it was a default for him.
Sadness,
happiness,
anger,
it all confused him when he tried to apply it to himself.
Maybe he couldn’t feel anything because of him being an anomaly, something that shouldn’t even be breathing in this world.
In the realm, he had a purpose, Something to work towards. But now he had nothing, other’s know more than him, someone else had already become the researcher of the corruption. Everything that made him, him, was not even his.
It scared him to know that everything here was never supposed to be his.
Lukey looked up when he heard the shared door open. Looking at megi who was holding Rex.
“He was in my dorm again, curled up with glyph.”
Lukey nodded.
“Sorry, I didn’t notice, you can go back to sleep.”
He stood up, moving to grab rex.
“Are you… are you okay? It’s midnight and your like, not blinking at all.”
Megi says, looking wearily at lukey.
“Your not a doupleganger.. right”
She moved to shield Rex away from him.
“No im not, I just do that, it’s side effects to some old stuff that happened”
He hummed, glancing at the window. Then back at Rex.
“Can I have him back please.”
Lukey asks, tone devoid of emotion.
“Yes!”
Megi gives Rex to him, and Lukey notices how confused and in nerved she is.
“Why are you confused?”
He clocks his head to the side.
“No reason, I’m going back to bed”
She stutters and goes to her down.
Lukey decides that megi at night is a wierd person.