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  1. wanting, and other crimes by

    Fandoms: Searching For A World That Doesn't Exist - Wifies (Web Series)  

    02 Jun 2026

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    After preventing Avery from attempting to save his life by becoming Hastur's vessel, Derek cannot untangle himself from the violent web of self-hatred. Nor can he blame the thoughts in his mind wholly on Hastur.

    Derek doesn’t want to be here or anywhere. He wants to not exist, and if he cannot do so, then he wants to be in so much pain that he finds some clarity in justifying his pathetic life. He wants Avery to be so angry at him that he leaves him behind forever and insists upon forging a life worth living for himself, where Derek is neither a memory nor a bad feeling. He wants to be alone until he dies.

    Instead, Avery takes his silence as an invitation to lie next to him.

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