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1. trade my whole life just to be top of the world (but i'm still not free, this is a secret that i keep) by Anonymous

   Fandoms: Figure Skating RPF  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   04 Jun 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Ilia Malinin/Mikhail Shaidorov
   • Ilia Malinin
   • Mikhail Shaidorov
   • other skaters mentioned
   • interviewers & social media
   • Interviews
   • Spiralling
   • Self-Discovery
   • Feminization
   • In a way
   • Crying
   • Crying During Sex
   • Anal Sex
   • Anal Fingering
   • Blow Jobs
   • Switching
   • Kissing
   • Makeup
   • Masturbation
   • ilia goes down a little rabbit hole on social media and is unable to be normal about it
   • obviously they have to fuck about it duh
   • no beta we die like ilia does from humiliation constantly

   Summary

   of interviews, social media, free skates & ilia's utter inability to ever be normal about anything. ever. with a side of insanity and spiralling, but just a tiny little bit, obviously.

   Series

   • Part 4 of man's deadliest weapon

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   English

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