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She was best at forcing open doors that didn’t exist, breaking down steel bulkheads instead of waiting for an invitation.
The former Head of the Petrova Taskforce was supposed to spend the rest of her life in a cell. The second the Hail Mary cleared orbit, governments that had tolerated her authority only because extinction was imminent suddenly rediscovered their principles. They stripped her of her emergency powers, arrested her, and locked her away to answer for a long list of crimes committed in the name of survival.
The arrangement lasted less than three years.
Life, as her undergraduate history major had taught her, was an unrelenting cycle of misery, an endless battle for food and resources where the rules of civilization only applied until they didn’t. As the Sun dimmed further and harvests failed across entire continents, several very important people arrived at the same conclusion: if they wanted civilization to survive long enough for Ryland Grace’s mission to matter, they needed Eva Stratt more than they needed justice.
So they opened the cell door.
The former Head of the Petrova Taskforce knew no days off. She had to manage global rationing, suppress regional resource riots, and negotiate with bureaucratic parasites who still thought national borders mattered on a dying planet. Because of this, she found herself traveling all over a fracturing world. She was, in a sense, a tyrant, and tyrants have their own way of getting around.
For instance, aboard an armored icebreaker cutting through the half-frozen slush of a dying ocean.
The first recovered Beetle, John, had been opened a week ago, its data intact while the tracking arrays continued to monitor the remaining three hulls. For the first time in years, every report crossing Eva Stratt’s desk was a victory. Humanity, as it turned out, responded remarkably well to the sudden prospect of not dying.
It should have made her happy. Instead, she was tired.
People became tired. Even Eva Stratt. She was exhausted in a deep, unpleasant way that sleep did not seem capable of fixing. Though it was not as if this was the first day she had felt that way.
A gloomy sky, a biting winter wind, a pitch-black horizon.
Because the vessel operated as a restricted military facility, the outer deck was deserted. She appreciated this artificial, vacant emptiness far more than the frantic chaos of the war rooms or the concrete walls of her cell in France. She stood at the rail for several minutes, watching black water disappear into black horizon, catching herself wondering what Grace would think of all this. The thought had appeared without permission. Humanity had spent years waiting for an answer from twelve light-years away, and now that it had finally arrived, she found herself wanting to write back.
The impulse was irrational. Worse, it was sentimental. Stratt had never been particularly fond of either.
She returned inside. Within the ship’s fluorescent-lit research block, she found Dr. Hatch, the overly optimistic Canadian aerospace engineer who had built the Beetles and insisted on naming them after his favourite band. The names had always struck Stratt as a peculiar indulgence.
"Dr. Hatch," she called out, tucking her hands into her coat pockets. "A hypothetical question. If we wanted to re-target a tracking chassis, or say, the original ground-test prototype built to the Beetles' exact specifications, and send a data transmission toward 40 Eridani... what would the navigation setup require?"
The scientist paused, looking up from his calculations in surprise. "Re-target? Ma'am, the Beetles don't work that way. They use automated visible-light cameras to recognize stars and identify constellations to find their way. They can navigate toward a coordinate from anywhere in the local cluster, but sending one to a foreign star system without an established Deep Space Network on the other end to decode a return transmission? It’s a blind cast."
"We have the telemetry data from the John return payload," Stratt noted.
"That vector is over sixteen light-years long," Hatch shrugged. "We can program the autonomous navigation matrix to calculate the relativistic flight profile and execute a deceleration burn at the destination, sure. But we have no way of knowing if anyone on Erid could detect a radio transmission. Without a receiver on their end to capture the signal, the craft will simply become a mute object in a system where no one knows to look for it."
"I see," Stratt said. "Forget it, then."
The answer should have ended the matter. Instead, Stratt found herself thinking about it as she walked back through the ship.
For most of her life, Eva Stratt had measured every decision against a simple standard: would it accomplish anything? The habit had served her well. It had built laboratories, launched spacecraft, reorganized governments, and kept several billion people alive considerably longer than statistics suggested they ought to have been.
A message to 40 Eridani accomplished nothing. No one would read it. The transmission would not improve crop yields, stabilize supply chains, accelerate deployment, or reduce projected mortality by a single percentage point. In every measurable sense, it was useless.
Which was perhaps why Hatch’s answer had been so strangely reassuring.
Had there been any realistic expectation that the message would be found, she would have been forced to justify the effort. But the brutal impossibility brought a strange, conflicting comfort. She didn't actually need Ryland Grace to receive it, nor did she need his forgiveness or his understanding. The fact that it would drift blindly into nothingness gave her the shield she needed to finally let it out.
Stratt disliked examining her own motives. Other people were easier. Given enough incentives and pressure, they behaved with reassuring predictability. Her own mind was considerably less cooperative.
She entered her small, cramped cabin. The room was functional, devoid of personal touch. The desk lamp cast a small, lonely circle of amber light across a rugged digital tablet. She sat down and opened a blank document.
For a long time, she stared at the empty, blinking cursor. She had thought about this for years, but she had never actually done it. There was no reason for it. They belonged to different worlds now. She had turned away from him in a high-security cell in Baikonur, leaving him to face the guards and the sedative needles alone, with only his furious, resentful glare fixed on her as the heavy steel door closed between them.
When someone looks at you with that kind of betrayal, the memory acquires a certain permanence even if you leave them behind for a lifetime. A letter could solve nothing. Least of all a letter addressed to a man who would never receive it. But she was going to write it anyway.
Not to mention, they had shared a frantic, compressed year, one that, looking back, she found impossible to disentangle into its terror and its wonder. They had been so inseparable that the scientists in the labs had whispered behind their backs, with DuBois openly assuming they were engaged in some kind of utilitarian sexual congress. Grace had been entirely mortified by the rumors, but the truth was far less scandalous and arguably more intimate: they were simply two people trapped inside the machinery of a crisis, having become each other’s only reliable point of reference.
She leaned forward, her fingers hovering over the keys.
Doctor Grace,
Ryland,
You idiot,
She deleted each one in turn, the screen flashing white against her eyes. For several seconds, she sat perfectly still in the silence of the freezing ocean. Then, despite herself, she felt the corner of her mouth twitch with a strange, bitter nostalgia.
She finally typed a single word, and the cursor blinked patiently beside it.
Grace,
I am writing this because the alternative is continuing to have conversations with you in my head.
The conversations are becoming irritating. You remain just as argumentative in imagination as you were in reality.
The world survived.
I assume that is the first thing you would want to know.
The tracking arrays logged the physical recovery of the first Beetle, John, a week ago. The Taumoeba gene-sequencing and atmospheric tolerance data have been verified. The cultures are stable. Three major facilities have already established breeder lines for the modified strains, and the first deployment launches leave next month.
Stratt paused, her fingers hovering above the digital pad. Outside her cramped cabin, the icebreaker creaked as it pushed through the dense northern slush. This was what he would care about most. If Ryland Grace were sitting across from her right now, his eyes would be wide, his voice rising in that frantic, stuttering pitch of his as he demanded the raw decimals. He didn't care about political leverage or global authority; he cared about the data. She was giving him exactly what he would have asked for, throwing numbers into the dark because numbers were the only language they had ever mutually understood.
The Antarctic warming program generated an estimated two-watts-per-square-meter thermal buffer, delaying the worst of the glacial advance and limiting global winter wheat losses to roughly seventeen percent. Nearly forty percent of coalition-managed food production now comes from enclosed hydroponic systems powered by astrophage reactors. The riots have not stopped, but they are no longer spreading faster than local governments can contain them. There has been no major war.
Your name is now taught in schools alongside the mission itself. Factions within the global coalition wanted to bury the details of the drafting process, but I ensured the records remained transparent. There are monuments being planned in several administrative sectors. I have declined invitations to attend the groundbreakings.
I assume you do not care about the statues. Back in Baikonur, when you were screaming at me through your tears, you told me that a monument was small consolation for a forced suicide mission. You were entirely correct. But I also told you that you would do your job anyway because you were a fundamentally good man. I recognized in you early on a persistent gentleness completely unsuited for the cruelty of crisis management, yet entirely incapable of turning away from a world in pain. It had to be you, Ryland. And, despite everything, I am glad it is still you.
Stratt’s fingers came to a sudden, rigid halt over the keys. She stared at the screen, her brow furrowing slightly in the dim amber light of her terminal lamp. A strange, entirely unquantifiable sensation tightened in her chest. She stared at the final line for several seconds, her finger hovering directly over the backspace key.
Ultimately, she didn't press it. It didn’t matter. He wasn’t going to read the file anyway.
She shifted her posture slightly and moved directly to the next log.
It has been twenty-six years since your departure. The eighth-grade children you taught are now adults. Three months ago, before the probe's signal arrived, I utilized a diplomatic transit clearance to retrieve the centralized personnel records from the former California educational district. I wanted their profiles accounted for. I have attached a data log detailing the current status, health metrics, and vocational placements of all twenty-eight individuals from your final class list.
Case file fourteen, identified in your lesson plans as the boy named Eric, is currently a senior researcher at the primary subterranean agricultural facility in Nevada. When the frost began and the schools were converted into local shelters, he managed to dismantle the large solar system mobile that hung from the center of your classroom ceiling. He carried the wire-and-paper models of those planets through three separate evacuation cycles.
According to his regional clearance profile, he hung that same crude model of Jupiter from the concrete ceiling of the Nevada facility to teach astronomy to the younger children in the shelters during the winter of Year Six. He told them the story of the man who went into the dark to fix the sun. He is currently thirty-nine years old, specializing in radiation-resistant crop sequencing. His recent paper on cellular adaptation cited your early work on unicellular structures. He explicitly dedicated the methodology to his middle school teacher.
Stratt reached up, her hand brushing against the thick, coarse wool of the black knit beanie pulled low over her brow. It was the one he had left on the lab bench in Baikonur right before the security team had moved in to isolate him. She had taken it from the table after they carried him out, stuffing it into her coat pocket without thinking. She was wearing it now because the icebreaker’s heating grid was failing in the northern sectors, and she required efficient insulation.
It was a perfectly practical choice.
Yet, as she looked at the text file on the screen, a sudden wave of irritation twisted in her chest. The wool smelled faintly of chemical reagents and stale coffee. It was a completely redundant, foolish piece of sentimentality, a useless object from a world that no longer existed.
She stared back down at the blinking cursor and began typing again.
In this peculiar division of labour we established, I appear to have inherited the aftermath. Perhaps this is your final victory over me, the comforting knowledge that because I stripped away your choice, you would eventually die a martyr while I had to remain a tyrant. History has a tendency to simplify events until they become unrecognizable. It prefers heroes to systems and villains to circumstances.
I am less certain what you would think of me. At launch, you were quite clear on the subject. Years have passed since then, and I still do not know whether that makes a difference.
I often dream about the underground isolation ward in Baikonur.
I dream of the heavy security doors closing on you, over and over again.
Eva Stratt swallowed hard, her chest tightening. The ambient hum of the icebreaker's ventilation units gave her a steady, monotonous rhythm to keep typing.
Ryland, at the time I believed the matter was settled. I had examined the available options, selected the least catastrophic one, and accepted the consequences. There was very little else to discuss. The ship needed a crew. Humanity required a future. But you, your resistance caused me pain.
Your screaming caused me pain.
You demanded a choice, but what choice could I possibly give you? My actions answered everything. I have never gone against my duty. I believed that was what survival required back then, so I executed the mandate. I was bewildered by your cowardice. But over the years, I have gradually come to realize, you weren’t just asking for your freedom. You were asking how any of us could live with ourselves on the other side of this crisis after what we had to do to get that ship into the sky. You were asking if saving the species was worth losing our humanity.
Now, as I record this response and look back on everything from that cell in Baikonur, I find that my answer back then still holds true. Ryland, your sacrifice had meaning. It is a cold answer, one that lays bare the extent of my pragmatism and makes it seem as though I can absolve myself of any emotional responsibility. I am aware of how that sounds, and I am deeply sorry.
When I drugged you and put you aboard that transport, I had already written myself out of your story. However you choose to interpret the months we spent together in those laboratories, I consent to it completely.
And if you hate me, I understand as well. But I don't think you do.
Because I remember the knowing glances we exchanged whenever an Astrophage demonstration left the new recruits staring in stunned silence. The chair you always took beside me, even when the conference room was otherwise empty. The occasional brush of your hand against mine each time we stood too closely over a monitor. Your fingers drifting into my hair whenever I sat in front of you on a flight. I remember finding my meals warm no matter how long I forgot to eat them, and hearing my defence argued in your voice when people complained. The childish pranks. Terrible jokes engineered solely to extract the slightest reaction from me.
And I remember the night the second-stage fuel valve calculations corrupted on the carrier. It was 3:00 AM, the ship's air filtration system was cycling at half-capacity, and I had spent thirty-six hours straight negotiating manufacturing quotas with the Eastern European coalition. I had collapsed onto the narrow cot in the corner of the lab. I wasn't deeply asleep. The caffeine in my system prevented that. I simply lacked the baseline energy required to keep my eyes fully open or speak.
You didn't leave the room to rest. You stayed at the primary terminal, typing with an absurd, cautious lightness to keep the keyboard from clicking too loudly. When the cabin temperature plunged as the carrier crossed into the northern currents, you got up from your desk. You walked over to the cot, and with that same clumsy, self-conscious hesitation that guided most of your movements, you carefully draped your heavy wool jacket over my shoulders.
You stood there for a long time afterward in the dim blue glare of the monitors, smelling of stale coffee and chemical reagents, quietly checking the thermal readouts over my head to ensure the draft wouldn't wake me.
At that moment, I was terrified. Terrified of the world's end, and of the sheer weight on us. It reminded me of the failures, and it made me so sick I wanted to vomit.
A frozen planet.
An endless winter.
They would spend the rest of their lives negotiating with scarcity, buying another year, then another. Then another. Entire generations would be born into emergency measures and die under them.
And when the end finally arrived, it would arrive one person at a time.
Stratt stared at the screen.
For a moment, she found herself back in that world again. The gray skies and food projections. The endless calculations measuring how long civilization could be stretched before it collapsed. She had spent years dragging humanity away from that future. She had no desire to revisit it now.
The road ahead remained long enough without indulging in old ghosts. There were still supply chains to stabilize and a recovery to manage. She still had a grand survival to pursue.
Some things did not improve through discussion. Some questions had already been answered. It was Ryland Grace’s fault she had forgotten that.
She suddenly grew weary of everything she was doing right now, loathing her own sentimentality from the bottom of her heart.
What was the point?
None at all.
Yet she had spent half the night composing a message just to speak her heart to a dead drive.
Eva Stratt exhaled slowly. She had to at least bring this log to a close. She scrawled a final encryption command, locked the text file deep within a secondary partition on her private digital pad, and shut down the system.
Outside the launch complex, frost had settled over the gantries sometime during the night. Long after Stratt had dismissed the shift, Hatch and several members of the engineering team remained behind with a modified Beetle prototype.
Three nights ago, Stratt had called out a hypothetical question about sending a vehicle toward 40 Eridani, only to flatly reject the concept less than ten minutes later. She had cited cost, logistics, and the lack of a guaranteed return signal, but the excuse had rung entirely hollow. Eva Stratt had spent a decade turning impossible logistics into completed tasks. She did not flinch at the ugliness of present reality. What lingered in Hatch's mind was the sudden, uncharacteristic hesitation that had preceded her refusal. She had looked at the trajectory estimates with a flash of something that looked remarkably like fear, before buried instinct took over and she declared the matter closed.
It was not, however, quite finished.
Stratt hadn't deleted the encrypted supplemental file from the local project partition. Because it was officially classified as a supplemental mission observation, the automated system kept it within the local project partition. The engineers simply pulled the saved data cluster and locked it securely into a redundant RAID sector within the prototype's onboard storage as part of the standard launch package.
Hatch hadn’t told Stratt his solution to the transmission problem, but as he finalized the autonomous navigation matrix, he knew they didn't need a receiver on the other end. Upon arrival at 40 Eridani, the automated braking burn would generate a massive, blinding Petrova-line drive signature, a brilliant, localized radiation flare cutting through the dark that would be difficult for an Eridian astronomy network to miss.
The prototype launched shortly before dawn. Because firing even a small spin drive inside the atmosphere would completely vaporize the launch facility, the craft rode a conventional, automated heavy-lift booster into low orbit. Once clear of the carrier stage, the automated systems engaged.
The telemetry on Hatch's terminal indicated a punishing 500 g acceleration curve. Burning through its astrophage cells in the silent vacuum, the small craft rapidly climbed toward its maximum cruising speed of 0.93c. It carried no strategic value and no realistic expectation of success. It would spend nearly two decades crossing the sixteen light-year gulf, traversing a distance so vast that the world it left behind would be entirely reshaped by the time it arrived.
Hatch watched the tracking display for a while after the signal disappeared. The engineers drifted away one by one, returning to jobs that were more important.
Nobody mentioned the launch again.
There was nothing left to do for it now.
On a planet sixteen light-years from Earth, Ryland Grace was teaching astronomy. His classroom occupied one corner of the human habitat dome, where a dozen young Eridians sat beyond a transparent xenonite partition. The lesson on orbital resonance—which involved plastic spheres, magnets, and what Rocky called "excessive human hand-waving"—was cut short when a series of alerts flashed across his terminal. The data came directly from the Eridian orbital monitoring network, flagging a massive, localized spike of infrared radiation in high orbit. It was the unmistakable Petrova-line signature of a spin-drive too small to be the Hail Mary, executing a heavy deceleration burn.
Rocky found Grace staring at the console twenty minutes later. The object took eleven days to descend via the space-elevator network, drawing the curiosity of the entire Eridian scientific community. When the surface transfer vehicle finally delivered it to the research center, Grace didn't find a sleek spacecraft. It was old, heat-stained around the drive assembly, and scarred by micrometeorite impacts. But the shape was unmistakable. It was a Beetle—specifically Hatch's old ground-test prototype. The engineer had always insisted the Beetles were built from parts meant to survive absurd acceleration. Annoyingly, he had been right.
The craft spent three days undergoing diagnostics and inspections by a room of eager alien scientists. By the third evening, Rocky noticed Grace's obvious distraction and quietly stepped back, leaving him alone with the spacecraft. When the storage systems finally yielded later that night, Grace bypassed the complaints of the lab staff, pulled the physical drive, and carried it back to his personal quarters.
He plugged the storage unit directly into his workstation, watching the screen initialize a directory of standard engineering logs, navigation records, and maintenance data. Then, right at the bottom of the archive, he found a final, supplemental file.
To Dr. Ryland Grace
For a long moment, Ryland Grace simply stared at the blinking cursor. Then, his fingers steady, he opened it.
...I have said all of this, but to be honest, it is entirely pointless. These words cannot rewrite the path we took, and the physics of interstellar travel dictate you will never read them. But if there is one truth I need left clear, if only to state plainly that I took no satisfaction in dismantling your life, it is this:
When I gave the command to isolate and sedate you in Baikonur, had there been even the slimmest margin where my obligation to the species could yield to a personal choice, I would have boarded that ship with you.
I will not pretend to regret what I did. If I were forced back to that exact crossroad tomorrow, I would lock you in that room all over again to guarantee the survival of humanity. I have no excuses to offer, and I will make no defense for my tyranny. Your hatred is entirely justified, and I expect nothing less.
In fact, given my terrible, arrogant pragmatism, and the absolute certainty of the world we saved, I prefer that you do not forgive me.
For what it’s worth, I am glad that you are alive.
Sincerely,
Eva Stratt